Category:

Suicidal Survivors

For those who have survived suicide.

3:05 am

by hellblau 12/30/2013

written by hellblau

I wish I could tell how I feel, I wish I could let someone in. Iâ€™m on the mix of loneliness and illness, I miss talking to the person I used to know. And Iâ€™m not gonna lie, it could be hide inside, but a part of me still wants you. The other part is telling me to let you at â€œplatonic loveâ€. Cause I know you and I will never be. Itâ€™s hard and itâ€™s wasting me. Iâ€™m slowly losing this fight. The fight against myself. Eventually I will give up, as my mind sometimes does. If you look deep inside you maybe youâ€™ll […]

12/30/2013 4 comments

by hellblau 12/30/2013

written by hellblau

I wonder why Before I met him, I would dance in the shower. When he was in my life, I would think about showering with him. After he left, I would sit on the ground in the shower and cry. When I got over him, I showered so quickly there was no time for dancing, fantasies or tears. Someone can invade the smallest part of your life, you won’t even realise it, until you dance in the shower again, and wonder why you ever stopped.

12/30/2013 0 comment

My Story…

by Pink_Star 12/30/2013

written by Pink_Star

After spending a few hours on this site and reading a lot of others stories, I have decided to share mine. I have no idea where to start; it seems I have battled depression my entire lifetime. My first memories really are of being locked in my room, bruised and beaten… crying, wondering if all kids lived that type of life. My father was a very abusive man to not only me, but my mother. I would stand and protect my brother and sister and took beatings, upon beatings for them. I was molested by my dads best friend several times from the ages of […]

12/30/2013 31 comments

Is it worth it

by CamillePries 12/25/2013

written by CamillePries

Is it worth it? I am the odd one out of my family. Being diagnosed with MDD gave me a whole new look. I started getting bullied when I was in First grade because I was over weight. I thought nothing of it because I was young. A couple years ago I ended up cutting myself for the first time and I thought it would look cool, but it actually took all of my pain away (so I thought). Nobody in my family has ever suffered from any Depression disorder so it was very rare for me to suffer from it. I get bullied […]

12/25/2013 2 comments

To The Ones Who Don’t Understand

by Blake SinBad 12/23/2013

written by Blake SinBad

You say you do. You say you understand. You say things like, “oh, I know exactly how you feel,” and, “I’m always here for you, I’ll never leave.” …but then there comes the time when you know you’re truly alone and that’s typically when you need them the most…and then they say, “well why can’t you just get over it?” and, “do you like being this way or something?”

…

Well, what they can’t seem to understand is that in some cases you don’t want to change or get better, and in other cases, you simply just can’t…

…

Sometimes even managing to open your eyes in the moment […]

12/23/2013 3 comments

me against the world

by hateself 12/22/2013

written by hateself

i always feel like its just me against the world. Ive always been the kindof person with a sort of protective bubble or shield around me that no one can penetrate i kno my little bubble isnt ideal n wont help me feel any less lonely but it keeps me safe it makes me feel like i can handle things it gives me the confidence to be able to do things and kno that i will withstand the pressures of others. I also focus almost exclusively on myself making sure that when all is said n done that i achieve what i set out to […]

12/22/2013 1 comment

You Never Know What Can Happen.

by Survivor18 12/21/2013

written by Survivor18

Let me start of by saying this. Shit really sucks. I know all of you think that getting out is the best way to go. I’m not doing this to change your mind. I’m doing this to make a point. Maybee it will help some of you and maybee it won’t. Who knows. If you have the time. You can keep reading.

I was 11 years old. It was the last day of the 5th grade for me. I had gone home with my bestfriend that day. (She only lived a block away from me.) We were so Excited school was out, and we had the […]

12/21/2013 3 comments

Don’t know what i expect

by WillCSoon 12/20/2013

written by WillCSoon

Title says it all, i’m not really sure what i expect from here but i found this site when i was looking for the fastest least painful way to die. Â I’ve tried before, managed to stop my heart for a bit by drowning but my ex gave me CPR. Â Tried walking in front of a train but the cops arrested me for trespassing. Â Everything started getting better when i went to a shrink and got put on some meds, thing is i hear and see things no one else can they called it paranoid schizophrenia. Â The meds and shrink helped a lot but i lost […]

12/20/2013 3 comments

Protected: Pretty Much Me In a Nutshell

by Britsan 12/19/2013

written by Britsan

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

12/19/2013 0 comment

empty words of guilt and self-loathing

by Sabi 12/17/2013

written by Sabi

There are some things I probably should be proud to have tried and seen and accomplished in life. Yet as it is now, the memories of these precious few experiences are going up in smoke like brittle old film in an antique projector. The picture starts out all blurry at first because the film is loose and then it gets caught and sticks on a single frame, which catches on fire from the concentrated heat of the projector’s lamp. It burns up right there, before my eyes.

Somehow, instead of preserving memories of my prouder moments, the shitty projectionist in my head operating that piece of […]

12/17/2013 0 comment

Depression and the military

by atrfan1 12/17/2013

written by atrfan1

This post is not about how the military handles depression, or how a soldier does. This is not a cry for help. This is a brief story about me.

Im the son of a teen runaway and a murderer. Ive never met my father and likely never will. My mother did her best for me, but life has always been against us both. I first tried to take my own life when I was only 11. After that, attempts became a yearly thing. Life just carried on no matter how much I didnt want it to. Then, I met someone. She was loving, caring, beautiful, and […]

12/17/2013 2 comments

It gets better songs

by lonelyduck 12/12/2013

written by lonelyduck

When I feel like shit I listen to my special playlists about getting better. Please listen to them thet realy help.

*Giving up the gun
*Tomorrow will be kinder
*Concrete Angel
*Elenor Rigby
*Invisble
*How to save a life
*Warrior
*It’s Amazing
*Bluebird
*The day nobody dies
*Same love
*Battle Scars
*Brave

12/12/2013 1 comment

I’ve become a worst person

by nerevars 12/12/2013

written by nerevars

You know that character from movie or story that always make a mistakes and screwed up even at a simplest task? I’ve become that person. I don’t know why but I feel whatever choice I make or anything I do always end up wrong.

Is there any connection between my stupidity and my (self diagnosed, I haven’t go to psychologist) Bipolar Disorder?

This whole ordeal makes me think that I don’t belong here and it feels bad, that I think if I were gone, everything would be so much better without me.

12/12/2013 1 comment

My Story – Survivor of Suicide

by Ashton 12/11/2013

written by Ashton

Hey everyone! I’m 16 years old, and have struggled with clinical depression, anxiety, and self harm for quite a while. I turned to drugs and started heavily using in order to cover up the pain in my life. I was stuck in an abusive relationship that I kept trying to make work, but never succeeded. My life got so bad, that every day and every night would be spent crying and self harming. It relieved that pain for just a little while, but of course it didnâ€™t last for long. A little over a month ago, I couldnâ€™t take the pain of my life anymore […]

12/11/2013 6 comments

You are not a mistake!!!

by licybe 12/10/2013

written by licybe

Check out this AMAZING youth suicide clip…I wrote it because I wanted to die, in fact I tried to take my life, but things didn’t quite work out that way…Check this out, share it and potentially help save someones life!

Youth Suicide Spoken Word

12/10/2013 0 comment

when you fail to kill yourself and then your friends wouldnt let you die either

by lissbabe 12/9/2013

written by lissbabe

i tried to do suicide last night but it didnt work my aunt found me lying on the floor and she dressed my wounds why would she do that is out of my mind i hate it i want to die i have nothing to live for anymore moms gonna go dad don’t give two fucks about what happens to me i see no fucking point in living, my friends wont let me die i just want peace i want to die i want to be gone my friends can get a new girl to the group. help me to kill myself please

12/9/2013 4 comments

Triggers

by queenofdarkness 12/8/2013

written by queenofdarkness

Tiny things, really.

Things that shouldn’t affect you, but do.

A gulp of water

reminds you of

washing pills down your throat

one pill, two pills, three…five…seventeen…thirty-one.

That was nearly two years ago, and the sensations are as vivid as if it was only last week.

Funny how the human mind works sometimes.

12/8/2013 2 comments

The Ugly Truth

by PainNlife 12/4/2013

written by PainNlife

I think some people think after they die people will scream and cry and have so much sympathy for them and finally understand what they went through…that all their former or current friends will have so much guilt about it and loathe themselves….that the president of the united states will personally attend their funeral to pay his respects….that celebrities will come from afar to attend your funeral….well….I have some news for you….nobody will give a shit like you think they will….

Sure people might show up at your funeral crying and saying “how they wished they could have helped” and “how they loved you so much” […]

12/4/2013 69 comments

Does the pain ever end.

by Madison 12/2/2013

written by Madison

I’ve struggled with severe depression for 6 years now. I have been hospitalized twice for suicidal thoughts and close attempts.Â I have been a self harmer for 4 of these 6 years.Â Â I’ve tried all the medications, I’ve tried all the therapy, I’ve tried everything. nothing significant happened in my life to make me feel this way, its just the way I am. chemical imbalance bullshit. my close family is aware of my depression, yet they don’t know thatÂ I struggle every single day just to wake up and get myself out of bed. They don’t know thatÂ I’m failing college and close to dropping out. I’ve lost my […]

12/2/2013 3 comments

QUESTIONS

by shhhh 12/2/2013

written by shhhh

i have been friends with my friend (who we will call clair) for 7 years and friends with my other friend (who we will calldave) for jus about 1yr now clair and dave have started dating but clairs 20 (21 soon) and dave 15 (jus turned a month ago) and are dating the whole situation is makin me sick even wen i hear other people talki about it . i seem to b the only one hu dis situation disgusts. im acc considering not speaking to either of dem again. so i wanna ask you guys a few questions and i know if dave […]

12/2/2013 1 comment

Newer Posts

Older Posts