Life is really , weird , I’m done with with everything . It’s just over , dealing with this shit has made me sick , it feels worse , I’ve lost all my interest in every single damn thing , dealing with the shit your parents are giving u … I don’t understand what the hell is wrong with me ,, this shit is over man , suicide is the only option left maybe.Today I stood at the end of the Cliff , nd yelled loudly . I just wanned to jump off it nd wanted to feel the warm blood […]

I don’t want to die, I just want to get rid of all this pain. I miss being happy.

They’ve got me on Risperdal. Not sure I like it.

This is it for me split from my missus after 18 years now living in a crummy bedsit on my own. I have no family and im 38 years old with nothing to look forward to. The thought of this being the rest ov my life!! Now found out my ex has cancer but wants nothing from me & wont even talk to me so i dont no whats going on. And iv never been so scared in my life. So theres only one solution for me and iv accepted it.

So i either:

1. Drink bottle whiskey and drop from my 7th floor balcony.

2. Drink bottle […]

I mean, mother of God, this helpless feeling has not gone away all week, and just keeps getting worse.

So, let’s blast some motherfucking epic music. Kill all those fucking demons.

i am 17 & will be 18 in 3 months i have no job,not graduating,extremly insecure,have no friends nd feels like i have no family i need a job more than anything but nobody is hiring me nd that along with everything else is making me ore miserable than i already am i am also bipolar nd serverly depressed i was on medication but i ran out nd my mom wont refill my perscription she acts like she cares infront of pp but really she doesnt because ive been like this my whole life nd im only getting worse nd not once has she acted […]

Here I am. 1 year later. This post is the continuation of this one : http://suicideproject.org/2014/01/times-running/

Tomorrow, I’m supposed to decide if I can possibly ever be happy or not. If I can, I can’t think about suicide ever again. If I can’t be happy, I start planning my exit.

I did put a lot of efforts in the last year, to feel better. I took a lot of risks and changed a lot of things. I do feel better than I did last year, but sometimes, I still want to die.

I’ve been through some serious heartbreaks and I’m still in a major depression. Taking pills. Seeing […]

There is no reason for me to feel like this. There is no reason to hate myself this much. There is no reason to treat myself in this way and there is no reason for me to want to disappear.

I don’t know what type of thing I’m supposed to write on here so hopefully if I let it all flow out it’ll be right. Its getting to the point where I can’t talk to anyone anymore. I can’t hurt them. I can’t let them feel anything close to this. Although I’m not sure if it can be considered a feeling or a lack of. I […]

I am 38 years old male, at this stage of life I am a negative and depressed person. Uncomfortable to be around people but yet, so dependent on one or two. Lazy, numb, uninterested and unmotivated to do anything. Sick and scared of being in my own head. I cannot love myself , I feel completely numb and destroyed.

I am a terrible person who has lied and now hides in shame for all my mistakes. Hides from people because I have no identity or personality to bring to the table. I am literally dead inside with nothing but thoughts of ending my suffering but too […]

Every time I seem to like someone its strange.. like when I’m not with them all I do is think about them and get butterflies in my stomach when they text or something.. But when I’m with them I don’t feel anything towards them, it’s kinda like nothing.. like all I see is a person and don’t feel anything. Does ayone else get this?

So close to cut myself again
But I still can’t do anything
There is just so much pain
I still want to do something

I’m scared of every day
my brain can’t stop thinking
I just want to stay
But I’m leaving

I need help
I’m too young to die
I really need help
And all I can do is cry

I always here it. Suicide is so selfish it makes everyone around you unhappy.

Here’s what i have to say to that…

Suicide is not selfish, if anything, stopping suicide is selfish, because it’s selfish to make someone stay here on this world when they are in so much pain. Or even if they think that they are having a bad effect on the world. I think that people have the right to kill themselves without being reprimanded by people who have no idea what it’s like…

Also, if someone kills themselves people should be happy for them, they discovered there emotions and acted upon them. If you […]

I’ve been taking 10 advils (ibuprofen) 200 mg each every day and i have no idea why.

I’ve been telling myself that it’s because i like the pain but i know that’s not true

Maybe it’s because it will probably end up killing me. I always wanted to know what it would be like to die

from the moment I could talk, all ive ever wanted was to be helpful to someone, and make them happy, actually be worth something….. yet all my life I have felt that I never help anyone….I feel like no matter how hard I try, I will always remain usless and worthless….I feel like no one ever wants or needs me, and I don’t feel loved….. I just want to make someone smile…… but all I ever do is hurt them and make them angry……nobody loves me, nobody cares about me…..I just wish I could die….it would spare everyone from wasting their valuble effort on someone […]

i really dont see meaning in nothing. i just want a courage to stop this hell that is to exist and to deal with problems that will never stop.

nothing keeps me wanting to live here.. oh god, how i hate my parents for being so egoistic and putting a life in a hell of world. i think that having children is the most egoistic act ever, you only put a life there and fuck it and if the life just not feel ok with that, ohh you’re a douche.. you have problems.. NO, you that put me here that have problem. not me. fuck you.

i […]

I just want help or maybe to stop living or run away from everything. I’m at university and I have friends but I’ve lied and cheated to everyone and haven’t lived up to my parents reputations or expectations. I want to be alone away from everything. I think about killing myself but more than anything I want my guilt and sadness to stop. I feel awful and horrible for the way I’ve acted but I can’t go back on my actions. Apologizing to people 4-6 months after the fact doesn’t solve anything. I feel horrible. I just want to be done with everything. I can’t […]

I wonder what would happen if I just said goodbye. If I just went away…I haven’t been happy since daddy passed away. He was the only one that made me feel loved….How do I get better? How do I release? My wrist craves the nick of a razor but I just can’t give in.

17 year old girl kills herself
How does that sound?
She traveled to Haiti, helped build a school, was part of the soccer team, contributed more than 200 hours of service to her community.
Does that make my life anymore valuable than the next victim?
What about being disrespectful, to my parents, my sister, myself
Do I deserve death now?

Every time I feel down an depressed I tell myself I don’t have he right to, there are so many people in worse conditions with a smile on their face and here I am complaining
I don’t deserve not have the right to feel sad
I […]

It just hit me when I was reading one of the posts. Remembered this speech by Samwais Gamgee to Frodo in
Lotr: The Two Towers. Now that if something probably touches everyone in at least some way. A new day will come.

Frodo: I can’t do this Sam

Sam: I know
It’s All Wrong
By rights we shouldn’t even be here.
But we are.

It’s like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo.
The ones that really mattered.
Full of darkness and danger, they were.
And sometimes you didn’t want to know the end.
Because how could the end be happy?
How could the world go back to the […]

Death Is Only Selfish to the Living

I find no join in life, no hope for the future.  Loneliness is all I’ve ever known.  I don’t know who I am, I live vicariously through others as if I’d made a conscious decision to die within myself.  My soul is weary and my flesh is weak.  The odds have never been in my favor.  The thought of living another day pains me.  Death seems so peaceful.