Look! See the loverless boy. He watches the planes take off. Only in the dawn when the sun is low. Only in the night when the moon is bright. Oh loverless boy! Your eyes will see the world from space. You will sings the songs of a different race. Loverless boy why do you worry? This place is only temporary. You wanna love a another one but that one there is only human. You wanna hold her soul inside, you want your bodies to collide. Loverless boy remember your duty. Your mission is a bigger story. Go now back to see the planes. They’ll keep […]
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Alot of people judged me on my last post. I just want to say sorry. Want a real letter here you go. My name is dani. I am 16 years old. thats  me in the pictue. fakeing a smile again.I am more than finished with life. I have been bullied,abused, raped, hated and left out my entire.
I have become hopeless and honestly I can’t do shit anymore. I Came to vent and found that letter thing online. I can’t write so I just googled it and […]
if you were my friend
you would have been there when i needed you
if you were my friend
you wouldnt have stolen from me
if you were my friend
you wouldnt have played with my emotians
if you were my friend
you wouldnt have stolen her from me
if you were my friend you wouldnt have tried to stab me.
if you were my friend
i wouldnt be writing this
thats why your not my friend any more
they call teenagers/young adults pretty or handsome?
I went to work with my dad today as he got me an internship there, and many of his friends were commenting on how handsome I was. I felt flattered but as someone with body dysmorphic disorder, I couldn’t take any of them seriously. Is it something that you adults just say or do you actually mean it?
I’d like honest answers.. thanks.
My favorite thing in the world is being there for someone like us. I am 17, a junior in HS, and I have 7 MS girls who are just like me. Cutters, suicidals. I can only help so much. Today, to get one to stop, I put my blade to my arm, on a line I have thinned out from my elbow to wrist, just in case I ever need to do it. It’s a pain to watch them worry, but a relief to watch them stop. I’ve gone back to cutting, though. What gives me the right to stop others when I can’t stop […]
to believe in yourself, you have to find what makes you laugh,life,love
” it takes courage togrow up, to become who you really are”
Lately i haven’t been able to keep a good morale at home with my parents. Ever since I have started trailing of in school my parents have done nothing but tear me down. I tend to forget the last time I heard something positive from them. I have attempted suicide twice during the moments my grades have been going down. No one is here for me. I have lately even began questioning my religion. Whats the point of living if there is nothing to live for? What is there to look forward to tomorrow? More depression? Or nothing at all? I’m just tired of living […]
I feel that I can’t take it anymore I started getting my affairs in order last night I am writing my letters to the ones I will leave behind. But I stop and wonder why even write them anything I sit alone day after day as if I am the only one here anyways so would it even make a difference or a affect on them if I am no longer. If anything it would probably  relieve them of any burden I cause in their life’s. That’s what I am the burden in this thing called life but I call punishment. I try each day everyday to fight […]
for fucks sake or ffs…
I don’t know why I’m such a liar to myself.
miserable few months.
one good day, one good day!
and I just think yay.
depression is gone,
and the truth. no, no it’s not.
it’s in the bathroom it’ll be back soon.
I just haven’t felt good in a long time and I felt good yesterday. then the impending doom of my situation weighed back on my shoulders this morning and a day in bed and no eating ensued.
I think I would just like to do something about this,
instead of facing the false hopes of future days.
you’re bi-polar buddy.
-2Oblivion
When I first started feeling depressed and suicidal I didn’t go through with ending it all because I held onto the hope that things will surely get better, and I could find a way to fix everything. That was 5 years ago and I’m still waiting for things to get better …….
I’m running out of reasons to wait…
I’m tired of everything. I am 21 and can’t find a job. I failed out of college when my mother was in the hospital and now my dad calls me a wasted investment. My family doesn’t have a car and I can’t get to a job even when I find one. My **** of a sisiter treats me like a piece of dog shit and calls me stupid when I was going to pay a neighbor to take me to work.
Truth is, I have always been depressed since being hit regularly as a child, whether it was with hands, leg casts, or something else my […]
May 19, 2014
Listen Up Dumbfucks:
Most people kill themselves because of a mental condition. This is true in my case too. The condition I suffer from is that I am not normal, I am not like everyone of you “sane” people.
I am not normal in the sense that I am not like every other one of you brain-dead zombies. I can think. I can reason intelligently. I can observe and learn from life. I can make my own decisions and follow through on them. And I can do these without any aid from celebrities, T.V., radio or MySpace. Unfortunately, every one of you shit-brained […]
Would you go?
To my funeral I mean
If I got the courage
To kill myself
If I knew you in person
You would meet my parents
And my sister
Though she’s a bit mean
When I die
And they put me 6 feet under
And a grave on top
Of the earth for me
If you visit my grave
Not saying you have to
But if you do
Please don’t bring flowers
Unless they’re fake
I like carnations then
They remind me
Of Valentine’s day
I never got a carnation
But I always gave them
To my friends
Because they never got them either
I also like roses
Red to […]
I hope that liquid inside
would fill the sadness you hide
and in every day do you
believe that that can save you
and every day you sit alone
does that bottle feel like home
does it make you forget
everyday that you regret
does it fill you with joy
because nothing else can
you know your broken when
that little girl stands before you with sad eyes
and you don’t even notice them anymore
does that bottle fill your soul
does it make you happy at all
and when the sadness comes back
would you stay on […]
Words mean nothing anymore
I guess I’m done with this war
realised there is no point anymore
Dear burning sensation in my heart
you fade with my emotions while we part
I just can’t save this
you caught me in this abyss
Drag me down dear agony
it’s what you do
burn me to the bone dear sorrow
where did you go, my new tomorrow
I see you death as you draw me near and haunt
my soul at night, the way you like to […]
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on,
‘Cause I know I don’t belong
Here in heaven.
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I’ll find my way
Through night and day,
‘Cause I know I just can’t stay
Here in heaven.
Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.
Beyond the door,
There’s peace […]
What would you do to change your life?
What would you sacrifice?
A brother, a lover, a friend, or a mother?
What would you give to save your life?
What would you change to save your life?
What would you say at the end of time?
Another, no other, to cover or reveal?
This was to change my life.
I’m looking out on the sea
The sea of destiny
And wherever the wind takes me
I’ll be dancing free
So now I’m done
My life goes on
Will it be the same?
Will I miss you?
And is this true?
Can my life change?
All I needed was someone to care when I felt like no one even noticed how much hurt was overcoming me, then when I felt like nothing could get worse even my own friends turned on me when I needed them most.
My only fear is who finds me.. How the feel, but there is only so long I can hold on for.
Everyday I wake up facing the evil demons in my head, my anxiety and most of all the depression that’s held onto me for years. Fueled by the constant hate of every person around me.
My name, the name that in 12 insignificant letters […]
I put this gun to my head
I pulled the trigger I’m dead
i drank the poison
to break from my prison
baby my blood is frozen
you tried to make me revive
because you want me to survive
its to late you said your goodbye
the fault is all mine
I call your name
but to you this is all a game
the scars of time never fade
all this pain that you made
the cuts cover my wrist
i never got to rest
take my blade
give me life that you made
i scream i dont want this anymore
it all sinks to my core
you come to my funeral as i beg you not to cry
i really did try
i told you […]
I know what you’re thinking. ‘It’s another girl trying to stop us from thinking about suicide’. ‘Nothing she’s going to say is going to stop me’. You’re right. There is nothing I can say or do to stop you from this. I don’t know what you’ve all been through; I definitely have no right to tell you that you shouldn’t commit suicide. But what I can tell you is that you’re not crazy. You’re not exaggerating. But most of all, you’re not alone. You’re probably thinking, ‘I’ve heard all this, there’s no point, she doesn’t understand’. You’re right, I don’t understand. But there is something […]