Hello everyone I know you are all battling your own wars..here nobody aint got time for me to listen to me or counsel me for my suicidal thoughts are just increasing manifolds……i seriously aint in the humour to write I am 18,India and right now I’m high and i got the rope ready I just wanted everyone to know that yes i was defeated everywhere its not because of u krati u were my first love and i want to die with her being my last its all coz of me myself i cant survive i aint strong enough i am not the one maybe […]

tomorrow is the day im hoping and dreading. i have another dr appointment, but it could be all or nothing. if im lucky he will find out what is wrong with my back and i will be cured both physically and mentally. if not then i have to tell my wife i cant adhere to my no self harm contract. seven years of back pain that causes immobility and prevemts me from being human is too much. i cant truly take care f myself and i am “smart” enough to know that i cant take care of any family i may have in the futue. […]

“We’re all alive just not fully, we’re all just…Undead“

 ~Unknown 

Im becomming more n more obsessed with death. It knocks on my minds door. Inviting itself in. Before i would ignore the knocks but know i dont care.

I guess, since this is my first post on here, I should tell you all my story.

at age 9 I was oblivious. I was overweight, friendless, but still happy.

at age 10 I started to worry. I was fat as hell, still friendless, but just slightly less than happy.

at age 11 I knew I was a goner. still fat and friendless and I didn’t know what to do about it. I wasn’t happy anymore.

at age 12 I had my first ED thought. I had one friend, and she was my goal. 80 pounds and beautiful. I thought that maybe, just maybe, by losing weight my everlasting […]

Love me Sweet, with all thou art,
Feeling, thinking, seeing;
Love me in the lightest part,
Love me in full being.

II

Love me with thine open youth
In its frank surrender;
With the vowing of thy mouth,
With its silence tender.

III

Love me with thine azure eyes,
Made for earnest grantings;
Taking colour from the skies,
Can Heaven’s truth be wanting?

IV

Love me with their lids, that fall
Snow-like at first meeting;
Love me with thine heart, that all
Neighbours then see beating.

V

Love me with thine hand stretched out
Freely — open-minded:
Love me with thy loitering foot, —
Hearing one behind it.

VI

Love me with thy voice, that […]

It seems like I’ve went as far as I can go. I’m at the end of the road. I don’t have any specific plans, though, just that I don’t want to be here anymore. I’m depressed and lonely. I have no job and I have no friends. I will probably be homeless in about two weeks because the rent went up where I live and I can’t afford it. I have no family members near me. We’re not close anyway. I take medication for anxiety and depression but they’re not helping. I’ve also been diagnosed with PTSD and Asperger’s Syndrome. This makes it very difficult […]

We have ‘friends’ but we’re all alone. Look next to you. What is there? An animal? A stuffed toy? A jornal? A living being? No. Log into your ‘Facebook’ or another social media. You have friends, followers, and others. They say “We’ll catch you if you fall!” but will they? Are they real? We are all alone. Just accept it. We have friends they are not real. They only use you. If you have a true friend make them prove it. Make them prove that it’s not just you. Say your having a bad day. All of the pressure of you wanting to end your […]

I’m from the beautiful city of seattle washington. I may only be 21, but I cannot be alive in this world because life itself is killing me. I know true happiness and self worth are two things I will never be able to attain (not that many people do). I know my underlining depression will always be with me, my past haunts me and my future is daunting. I hate waking up to see another day. I don’t believe in an afterlife, I think my energy will simply be released back into this vast universe. I just want to not feel anymore. But I’m scared […]

Hi, this is all very weird and to be honest I’m not sure how I ended up here whilst searching endlessly through the web with no specific aim…. but this place is about telling your story and the end to your story and so be it…hell what do I have to lose 

Lately I see nothing worth seeing in my life, I see bleakness, I see an effort for nothing, and effort being used tirelessely. I have tried, I know I have and that is what makes things all the harder, after having given all I have..and had in me to try and make this gift […]

This will be my first post on here, it’s probably going to be long winded so I honestly hope that someone will read this. So here goes… I’m an 18 year old guy, obviously very much troubled with life like the rest of us on here. My Mother had me at the age of 24 and my biological Father for whatever reason left her (still to this date any relative is reluctant to give information on him) She then met my Step Father when I was 4 and that’s when things began to spiral down. They had children, and I was pushed a side, became […]

To be honest, I just really want out of this life.  I can’t take it anymore.  I can’t take the worrying about my future.  I can’t stand the fact that I’m completely ugly.  I can’t stand the fact that I can never chose the right religion.  I can’t stand the fact that I’m so open about how I feel with everyone in the world.  I’m just so fucked up in the mind, and there’s so much that races through my head.  There are just so many thoughts, and they’re crazy and weird.  I’m crazy and weird.  I’m stupid.  I’m always fucking something up.  People try […]

there was this huge fight over facebook about 7 months ago between a lot of people and me, and i was getting told to go kill myself and today i just went back and looked at the fight and started crying. I hate how people can be so mean to me. its like, what have i ever done to you?

anyway, im not really posting because my laptop crapped out and its not working so im using my dads until i get a new one.

i might not go back on this site anymore because i dont really now what to do with it. I’ll end up […]

I feel like I’m constantly lying to prevent anyone knowing how I really feel. I feel like a failure and don’t know how to start again. I wish I used my past opportunities better, but this horrible depression feels so debilitating that I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. No one knows I want to kill myself. Suicide,  it’s always in the back of my mind like a comfort, that if things get worse I can always get out of this life. My life has become that trivial to me now, that the thought of dying is a comfort.

Look I’m in my 20s now. And let me tell you during my high school years I fell into a depression and started entertaining suicidal thoughts. I became so introverted and just really didn’t like my peers and school I attended.

Didn’t go to prom. On my graduation day my mentality was ” good riddance”, so whats my point? -Although I must add I did well in my academics. Well, all I have to say is any of you people out there struggling with suicide, don’t do it. I know this sounds generic but don’t give up. TRUST ME, I had nothing to live […]

I remember my days of old, gloomy and dismal skies were my lot.

Broken, confused and distraught. When would I start enjoying life once again?

Absent friends and a flustered mentality, as days went on, so was my happiness gone.

I cannot grow old on this accursed lot of loneliness, nothingness and despair. Could I

rise from the rubble, shall I dream, do i dare? This is how life was back then. We are the

creator of our roads, navigators of our souls, elevating us towards our goals.

It is time to take this dream and make it a reality.

Drinking an crying drinking and crying. filling up the empty bottle with tears so i can just pour it all over my psychiatrists nice rug tomorrow and say “Thats how i feel” but he wouldn’t get it.

You know the worst and maybe greatest feeling i’ve discovered in this amazing life, is the feeling you get when you realise you gotta take control of your own death. That strong burning sensation you get on the wrist’s that trickling blood feeling behind the eyes, so much passion and euphoria. which sadly is designed to be short lived, for reasons we all know.

Sorry I’m in a mood. 70% […]

Does it get any easier? Dealing with the pain? The sadness? Resisting the urge to wrap her in a hug and kiss her? How about pretending nothing’s wrong? Or accepting the fact that the thing you want most, you can’t have. Or how about living? Does that get any easier? Does it ever?

like the title says I’m tired of this life. I’m 37 years old. I’m drowning in debt. I’ve lost my career. I used to be a teacher and really good teacher. One day I asked sleepy students to stand. He stood I moved the chair away from him and he immediately sat back down and fell. My assistant said I pulled the chair out from underneath him. I was charged with assault on a child under 12. The child doesn’t speak English and his account the story doesn’t match mine or my assistant’s account of the story. I was decorated teacher and my career is […]

Im just tired of everything everyone hates me except 2-3 people my family hate me my mom always calls me names and my brother and sister told that next time i try to kill myself i shouldnt tell anyone so i actually die and maybe theyre right i think about it a lot and i realise everyone in my life would be better without me im just a weordo who cant even talk to people i cant even talker to my counsilors and psychiatrists maybe its my time to go and finally give them what they want besides my life has been hell so far […]