label me hopeless, label me a coward, label me with whatever name you want to. I’m coming to the conclusion that my life is nothing but a reflection of  the dog shit on the corner of the street. you see.. the more i live the more i begin to realize this and the options i have in order for me to be happy are becoming slimmer and slimmer. Im on the cusp of being homeless and my mom wont help me out. I dont know what i did to make her so angry so fed up, honestly im fed up with myself. alot of things […]

I sit by the computer
Waiting for a response
Someone to talk to
Just one person
Thats all I want
Someone to talk to
That is there
But I mean
Who would?
Who would talk to a depressed and suicidal girl like me?
Who would sit and take their time to talk to me?
People have lives I understand that
But all I just want is someone to talk to
I feel so lonely sometimes
When I just sit here
With the music on playing softly
Just waiting for a response, but never getting one
Oh so lonely…

Im 24 and have decided that I cannot any longer liVe my life.

My probkems started years ago..my parents were both very neglecting,  and favoured drinking over their children regularly.

I was beaten by my dad until I was 18

Me and my mother have always been strangers…she just dosent like me

I was for all that reasonably popular un school but I have been battling severe insecurities about myself since 14

I found love 5 years ago this week

But the relationship is non existent and my girlfriend is only using me for money before she finishes with me for someone else

She didn’t even want to see me for our […]

I feel like, i’m the only one that feels like he’s being tested.

I feel like, this world is so absurdly fucked up, how could this be the real thing?

How can we expect to ever live in TRUE peace and harmony, if this world is a result of humans putting their heads together?

How can this world/life/dimension or whatever, be possibly real?

I’m no religious fella, or floaty supernatural type,  but if this is it then i really, really hope there’s life after death.

Because how can a person that has “woken up” freely waddle carelessly through all these working slaves we see as people?

I’m not sure if i’m […]

I really don’t want any of you guys to feel sorry for me I just really need to vent about the way I’m feeling right now. I’m 18, I have people I can call friends but none I can have a real conversation with. At one point of this year I was able to call the girl of my dream my gf. Now I lost her and really dont know what to do. I know people would say she’s just another but she is not, not to me. Daina I know that most likely you won’t see this but I need you I really do. […]

It’s been while since last post. I have been trying to keep myself a little hope that everything goes better but it is just fucking big lie. I dont know anymore who I am . Feels just whole time that this is a nightmare. Back in time I was very socially but now just shy and most likely I just want to be in home where I am safe but same time afraid. when i look outside of window for people’s talking each other or running all over the places i Think how they survives whit black in their mind’s and why i just get […]

I feel like I would hurt more people by leaving but I’m hurting myself by staying

I would rather kill myself than continue  living with my mentally abusive mother

I’m tired of being taken advantage of and sacrificing everything that has defined me. The lies, betrayal, and overall the feeling of stupidity has destroyed my way of life. I never have put so much depth into thoughts, creating these insane scenarios, having my mind beat me till I’m black and blue. People. The more I surround myself with people, the worse everything gets. Taunted, ridiculed, and abused for absolutely no reason at all. The second that happens, I instantly feel lower than others, comparing myself to others. Deep down, I’m fucking raging with hate and  desperately seeking for some kind of justification for all […]

Here I am, drifting like a log on the ocean waves. Destined to rot and sink.

Do you ever get the angry side of being suicidal ? i was just surrounded by people telling me that i’m perfectly fine and theres nothing wrong, the same people who spoon feed me the pills that are designed to basically make you humble in your intolerable situations, and they laugh and poke you as if waiting for a punchline in some massive bloody joke.

my mind instantly went to that place, which most of us probably call home, and i thought.

if i’m willing to end my own life in the most brutal of ways

then what’s stopping me from massacring my current tormentors ?

its a little […]

I’ve been trying for too long and now I just don’t care anymore. My girlfriend tried to get me to see a therapist, but he was utterly useless, more of a temporary stress and “depression” guy. Even worse was the traffic and hurdles just to get to the office. I’ve been out of work for over a year (though a month long job at the worst grocery store in the state is hardly a job) and have sent in over 1000 applications, online and in person. The only consistent “offers” are the harassment from Aflac and telemarketers that use the bait-and-switch strategy. I’m just done. […]

How does one justify life?  I’m 34 years old, I’ve lived a decidedly easy life compared to most.  I’ve made choices in my life that put me where I am today.  I have a great career and a lot invested in it.  I have a wife, a step-son and an adopted son..  My future is set in stone, my life is decided.

What if I realize that the choices that got me where I am were the wrong choices and I can’t take them back?  Do I ditch my old life for a new one and destroy lives around me so I can be happy?  Or […]

Hi

I was going to wait to commit suicide until I am kicked out of my flat in a few years, but my depression is so bad, I am so lonely I just want to die now.

I was going to postpone it because my Dad died this year and my death in the same year would be worse for my family than waiting a few years.

I don’t get on with my family, they bullied me and my parents stunted my growth.
I know I am an adult now, but imagine those people who are malnourished as kids who never grow beyond a certain height, well thats […]

I’ve never actually done anything like this before so sorry if this is the wrong place for this.
Things have been gradually getting worse for me and for a while now I’ve been feeling like there isn’t a way out other than to take my life. This past year has been pretty hard; I’m studying a really difficult degree at a competitive university, as well as living in a house of 6 boys who have chosen to target me… They’ve spent the past year playing loud music at ridiculous hours, playing drums in the morning, deliberately slamming all the doors in the house because they […]

I’ve read that 2/3 of all people who’ve committed suffered from mental illness, but what about the other 1/3 who didn’t? And I’m not counting the terminally ill — to me, that’s a no-brainer.  Are there rational reasons for deciding to end one’s life?

I see people constantly answer in the negative on other forums, but I can’t see how this can be an objective viewpoint.  Everyone says ‘there is always hope’ or — my favorite brainless platitude –  ‘suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.’  I have a feeling that people who say that haven’t had a whole lot of serious problems — and […]

I’m still in love with my ex-girlfriend. We had an incredible relationship up to the point that I lost my son and depression took hold of me, we separated for a few months and got back together just as I lost my mother to a rapid cancer death. Depression took hold of me again and we separated in November last year. I have always been in love with her, throughout our time together and our time apart. I have never entertained the thought of being with anyone else.

We separated both times because I lost the ability to communicate and I had lost myself, the man […]

Hi,

This really has nothing to do with religion, but is a personal message by someone who happens to be a Buddhist.

The important part of this post is the advice of the writer, based on his own near-suicide attempt, and not Buddhism, which has little opinion on the matter, at least in terms of a coherent theology.

The Buddhist View on Suicide

Honestly, I wish I would have found this 20 years ago, but it may help some people, and even the way things are for me now, it has made me stop and think a little more.

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