It’s always on my mind to end my life.. I was in a really bad accident that caused permanent brain damage.. I can not remember many things now.. I know my daughters bday is Halloween but I have to do the math to know what year she was born. I suffer from horrible pain.. Migraine headaches, throw up blood, I use to be able to do so much now I can hardly do anything 🙁 Life without health is no life at all.. I tried to end my life I took 80 Xanax & every other medication I can get my hands on. I woke up […]

Hi

this is my first comment and …

I wanna to write sth which a great mathematician has said:”maybe I must stay and decay in this silence tower with the Vultures which are eating my soul and body.” John Nash

Just to give you a background on who I am, I am 21 years old, female and a college student.  I am not expecting to find answers here.  I just really want to be able to express my feelings to people who might understand.

Anyway, I’m not really sure how depressed I really am, but I suppose I’m depressed enough to want to hurt or kill myself.  I had a suicide attempt a few years ago.  (Somewhat long story that I don’t really want to elaborate on right now.)  So I kinda know when I might be tipping over the edge.  I’m not at that point […]

is satisfaction.

what an amazing human being… He is always smiling and working to get better  even he didn’t have hands and legs. He is an inspiration to everyone. Thank You, Nick Vujicic

I truly respect him…

http://youtu.be/XKTg_INHgpc

I know we’ve all had some pretty crappy ones… But what’s the happiest memory that you have?

For me, it was when I told Zoe that I loved her for the first time and she said it back.

There’s blood on my hands, and the killers not my enemy. It’s all for the sake of love, it’s all for you.

So my dad’s found about my self-harm and suicidal stuff
And I have to go a counselor every Tuesday
Does this mean everythings starting to heal? Or will everything I’ve been trying to build (my life) crumble back to dust back when I first got depressed? This is probably my paranoia,  just don’t know what’s gonna happen

I feel like I can get better, but my family is constantly fighting and it gets so bad I have to actually leave for hours at a time so I can just get away, I’m lucky I don’t pass anything I can use for self-harm, I don’t even know […]

I never asked to be born.  I never asked to be abused and treated lower than dirt.  I never asked much of the world other than to be loved and to be treated like a human being.  Am I not meant to have a decent life?  A life that has happiness instead of endless pain and torment?  The abuse is over, yet the scars forever stain my life.  I would move on, but fate somehow has a way of piling endless misery my way.  Is life just a cruel joke?

There are so many bad things happening to me, and I am too weak to fight […]

You were that foundation
Never gonna be another one, no.
I followed, so taken
So conditioned I could never let go
Then sorrow, then sickness
Then the shock when you flip it on me
So hollow, so vicious
So afraid I couldn’t let myself see
That I could never be held
Back or up no, I’ll hold myself
Check the rep, yep you know mine well
Forget the rest let them know my hell
There and back yet my soul ain’t sell
Kept respect up,the best they fell,
Let the rest be the tale they tell

I am 19 and for the past 3 years I have felt like shit. I fell hopeless, unloved, unimportant, insignificant. I feel like nothing really matters. I feel like my life is directionless and has no meaning. I am in major pain. I have a low self esteem even though I have been told the opposite of what I think. I feel like people are lying to me. I make good grades in my college courses that I take. I still feel stupid. I feel unwanted. I have no friends and no boyfriend because I am introverted. I can’t seem to make myself feel better […]

Wish your day is an unique and special as you are… Love You all <3

Sorry! I couldn’t post on time =_=”  but it’s not too late because we all have a special day and right everyday and everywhere…

I’ve never liked when someone asked me how i was feeling because it seems like no one understood that i didn’t have the answer to that question. People only see emotions as black or white and they don’t realize the grey area that is between. People get frustrated with me because i always answer ”i don’t know” to that question and they ask ”how can you not know what you’re feeling?” well i don’t get it either because sometimes i don’t just feel sad or happy. I can’t even tell them that i feel numb because they wouldn’t understand that either. ”How can you feel […]

i’m actually so totally done. i keep fighting with my mother, and i can’t get along with any of my friends unless we’re getting high together. my dad, the most important person to me and my only hope to get out of this hell with my mom, has decided he doesn’t want me full time. i’m now way behind in school and i’m late every class and i can’t seem to get anything right.

i’m 14 and i already am willing to die. if someone handed me a gun right now, i’d point it at my head and shoot. but life isn’t that simple and i’ll […]

After playing video games for a while I decided to take a nap and I had a nightmare about my time in the hospital and I ended up waking everyone up with my screaming (I occasionally talk in my sleep) and my mother keeps bringing it up… I told myself that I would stop cutting but again I failed :p I suck but whatever. Hey at least I admit it! 🙂 Anyway I’ve decided to kill myself but I keep pushing it back. I don’t know when but I don’t want it to be spontaneous because then i’ll make a mistake and have […]

I started cutting my self yesterday and I have probably around 70 scars on my left arm, and I don’t know what to do. They’re not that deep, but seriously, 70 scars are insane for what seems like the equivalent of 35 hours.

I need help, but I just can’t do anything. If my psychiatrist or parents see this, I’ll get stuck in a mental hospital. If my “friends” see this, they’ll think I’m crazy and leave me. If my family sees this, they’ll tell the rest of my family and I’ll be labeled as insane. Cutting feels so good, I just can’t stop. And these […]

You are important and valuable. So priceless, that I want to spend my time on you. Please come talk to me. Nothing would delight me more. I have an ear perfect for listening. And lips always good for a smile. Or an encouraging word. Do not be shy. ^.^

I’m not going to say i had a such a horrible life, because i have never truly been hungry, never been homeless and got a lot of things i wanted. What i didn’t really have were supportive parents and friends. Majority of my life i was sheltered from things in life which made me oblivious to a lot of things. for example, i literally don’t know the barriers of conversation and cross them constantly, when i needed new tires i thought they came with hub caps, etc etc. I’m just dumb, and it shows in my work place, and since i fix aircraft lives literally […]

To be perfectly honest, if I had only one more day to live, I would spend it playing my keyboard, shutting the windows, and falling asleep. I have no ambition or inspiration to bring my music to the public. I have no desire to seek out anything that will help me to live. So I wonder… are some people just worthless? Are there people who, no matter what they learn and acquire, they just drag themselves into the general population and take up space? I don’t want to live out there. I don’t want to try. Maybe I’m one of those people.

At least that’s how […]

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