God, I hate you. I see now that you were my father both above and on Earth. You haven’t seen me yet, but soon my tears will leave blood-red stains. Take me into Heaven or throw me into Hell, but I won’t stay here anymore.
The Earth and its wonders is really a thing to behold and we are blight upon it. Really everything would be better off if we all suddenly dropped dead. Man, I hate humanity. I hate the way we think and act and just fuck up everything to get ahead in life. We cant even get along amongst ourselves especially when others think even just slightly differently with you. SERIOUSLY. FUCK THIS SPECIES! I mean I think its a simple thing to be nice and the concepts of morality and kindness is almost the same throughout the world BUT WE JUST CHOOSE TO BE ASSHOLES. What […]
I hate myself as a person. so many people make posts about how they’re so angry and so mad at everyone for ruining their lives… not me. I can’t blame anyone for any major bad things in my life… I’ve had it good.
The thing is, I ruined my own life. But you wouldn’t know it to look at it from the outside in. I have a good paying job, happily married, siblings/parents/grandparents all in my life. I don’t deserve my wife or other things in my life, but I’m a naturally flawed and ungrateful person so while I realize I don’t deserve them, that doesn’t […]
soooooo, you guessed it!!!! Im thinken of ending it all, its not a happy time. Id rather not go into my life fuck ups or the whys and hows of my shittyness. Instead ill go the other route……Why people say killing yourself is a bad thing. 1) that life will get better…Your right it will but…like anything else it will also get worse. 2) there is always love in the future…for you!! ok so i shouldnt kill myself because someone might..MIGHT love me in the future… soooooo I wait and deal in this shitty world for a girl to come along and say ” hey […]
Name one thing that would make you happier and would make you feel less sad or suicidal.
Just curious what other people are missing in their life.
Describe, in your own words, what it’s like to feel the way you do. I won’t judge you, I genuinely want to know.
Damn it
I’ve decided that I want to do this.
I have everything planned out, I just need to finish writing my letters. A long time ago the plan was to write a letter for everyone who has ever been a part of my life but now I just want to do close friends and family, it’s too overwhelming to try to write something for everyone, especially people who I haven’t talked to in years.
I feel like this is what is meant for me. After years of fighting and hoping and praying I just can’t do it anymore. Nothing is ever going to work out or stay going […]
I’ve been going out with the same girl for over 5 years. Tonight, when everyone will be sleeping, this is gonna end. Those are simple words. Meaningless words for you all. But you don’t know. Nobody knows. You’re not breathing my absence of air right now. You’re not filled with these sharp sticks inside your stomach. You’re all in your own world and it doesn’t affect you at all. So why am I writting it ?
To distract myself, maybe. To pause the destructive emotions. To use Mr. Brain and forget about Mr Heart for few minutes.
She will cry a lot. She will definitly hate me. She […]
I’m 19 years old and ever since I lost my job in September I feel worthless. When I was younger me and my dad never really got on because he started working offshore and he wasn’t really there for me and I took bad to it. But he got me a job beside him and everything was great I was finally spending a lot more time with him and I got a lot more closer to him then I lost my job due to me getting bullied in the work place. And since then I feel worthless. My self confidence has went right down hill […]
How much more can I screw up at work? Made a mistake that could cost me $350. I don’t have $350.
As of today I am 70 days clean of self harm. Its been really hard for me. But these past few days its been the hardest, especially today. I thought I was done with that part of my life . But then again that’s what I said last time.
Hi Guys,
This is just going to be short and sweet. First off I am sorry that I didn’t post my weekly post yesterday. I completely forgot and I was so tired. Anywho here I am. Yay….
How are you guys?
How am I? Um well… Not so good. It’s so tempting to go… It’s so tempting to say goodbye… It’s so tempting…
Here’s a poem:
My feet hit the soft carpet
I look up at myself
Tears streaming down my face
I look at myself in the mirror for the last time.
I brush my hair to make it look good
I put the brush down […]
Hi,  Im deciding on whether i want to be here for my special someone, or to exit out of  life before things get even worse for me. I have never felt so alone and hopeless in my entire life.
Being poor means living in a sh*t neighborhood in a sh*t apt with super thin walls and sh*t neighbors that are psycho and drive you crazy.
Being poor means not being able to go out and do things because everything costs money.
Being poor means not having a car which means you can’t get anywhere.
So does money = happiness?  No, but but it definitely helps to alleviate a shitload of misery.
Life will be fine. God is with you. Just breathe. I was really suicidal almost 2yrs ago. I was trying all sorts of methods than 1 day i tried a certain method and literally almost passed out. I needed a way to get out of trying to kill myself. One day I was searching online and found this place.I wrote did amyone want to talk because I needed a good friend to vent to and I wanted them to vent back. Guess what? I found my Bestest friend on here! Me and him just connected. It was so akward at first, we would email back […]
So I thought lets do my make up and then go down stairs to eat but.. I did my founation and it was worse then normal so I washed my face and did it again. Ended up doing it 3 times. Worse then normal. Then when I washed my face again I nearly lost my balance and got soap in my eye. I wanted to scream! I had never experience something like this. I was thinking that the devil is playing tricks on mme for fun. I also started crying and thought why should I be alive. Just like I told my mom. Who said: […]
…You know what, despite everything I’ve done to myself, I’m done with myself, because I hate myself. I’m only living now for others, I’m living because they want e to, I’ve been feeling like this for quite some times now after it went away it seems to come back again and I’ve not been able to tell anybody about it. to get by, every day seems like four days and every night seems like I’m fading into a black hole to despair and doom again, I’m not ready to surrender to people for being myself, but I am willing to surrender myself up for […]
I’ve bin confused lately all i can think about is whether i should kill myself or not i’ve bin so depressed idk why though i feel like im nothing all i feel is pain i can’t stop watching suicidal videos cannot stop thinking about it before i even go to bed i’ve tried i have sharp nails so i scratch myself with them it’s the easiest way to help me instead of cutting myself with a knife. Please i know it sounds stupid coming from me … but if your thinking of suicide please i beg you don’t you have meaning and life in this […]
Doing better. Doing worse. If this goes on any longer, I don’t know what I’ll be capable of. Trying to be strong. My mind is breaking down. Snapping. The pressure, no release valve. I can’t shut it off. I made this decision. Made it for good reasons. I have tried to overcome myself and can once again feel myself slipping. everything crushing in so tight. can’t see anything. I can feel my mind falling away. My testament, my great push to become better, falling into another facade, another lie. I keep trying. trying to be strong. how long will it last. So strong, rigid, it […]