It rained here in Colorado. Only for a bit, but for those few minutes, I was actually happy. Everyone looked sad, and I stood out in the rain grinning like an idiot. Rain smells good.
I’ve been reading some posts on here for a few days and it’s helped a bit. I guess i was curious if anyone felt the same way i felt. I’ve had depression my whole life. I was sent to a psychologist when i was 8. There she told me i had chronic depression and a bunch of other crap. I’ve just kind of bottled my feelings inside my whole life. It wasn’t until i hit 16/17 years old where i realized it was okay to feel this way. Well.. not okay.. but that i wasn’t alone or a freak for it. Anyways.. i’ve still pushed […]
I think that there are bad times and good times. There has to be us sad loser folks to show the giddy happy people how they DON’T want to be. Light and darkness. We are the dark people, and we are meant to see darkness. We are the martyrs who are cursed to show everyone else how blessed they are. People never learn by education alone. They have to be shown. We don’t ever know what we have until it’s gone. Dark things happen to everyone, but you know the ones that are destined to darkness. They are the ones that don’t make it, so they can show the lighted people […]
Please, I have no reasons for staying alive. The problem is I’m either too coward to commit suicide or too stupid for believing something good will happen to me.
What should I do? I have no real friends, everyone just talks to me when they need something. I’m good at nothing but school, and that’s not even worthy. My parents don’t support me. I feel my life is a waste. I feel like thrash. My only real friend is in a worst situation than me. If she dies, I’ll have no real reason to be alive.
The worst part is how people tell me “You just […]
I recently opened up that im bisexual. I didnt really want to tell anyone but i figured that people will bound to know. I live in a small town and word gets around fast. Well me and my best friend made a joke on facebook saying that we were in a relationship (shes straight). A couple hours later in school i heard that people were laughing and talking shit about us. I then decided to make a status on facebook telling everyone to cut the crap. Like who cares if we were dating, its not hurting anyone. Then an hour later one of my friends […]
Why do you even bother saying you love me?
http://www.monster10.com/The-10-Best-Ways-To-Fight-Depression.htm
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9. Don’t Drink! Drinking and drug use are only a temporary fix and most times amplify your emotions. Stay away from the alcohol and the booze!
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8. Eat healthy! You are what you eat and junk foods are not healthy. Loose the fast foods and saturated fats and you’ll start feeling lighter and better. Fruits and veggies will do wonder for your mind and body. An apple a day keeps depression way!
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7. Drink Water! Stay after from carbonated drinks and liquids filled with sugar. 8 glasses a day will keep you hydrated and flush out bad toxins that keep you in a rut.
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6. Listen to music! Listen to your favorite tunes and feel free to sing […]
Long story short.
My wife left me. lost all my possessions ,car , dogs etc. ended up going to jail after a argument with father in law. now on probation living on a couch stuck with 9000.00 in fines etc. jobless can’t find a job now that I’m a felon. Facing a violation for not paying cause I have no money. I was on meds for severe depression but have none now. I’ve tried once to end it already while I was locked up. I’m just tired why keep going it just gets worse. I don’t even remember what its like to be happy.
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We were married […]
if you walked by a crowed of people. would you be able to point out the ones that are sad and the ones who have nothing better to do then just kill them selvs?
so far im my life i have screw things up!
relationships
friends
parents
family
to them. im just a piece of shit.
i have thought about my suicide again. it stopped but has came back in every way to hurt me.
i thought suicide was just a phase for me of what i was going through when my dad treated me like shit.
now it has came back. and i screwed up again. one of the most important thing to me. the happiest thing i have ever felt. but i screwed it up. and now all i can do is cry and feel like. nothing.
She’s the reason I’m alive… My girlfriend. But it feels like the whole world is trying to keep us apart. When I see her smile, I smile. When I kiss her, the whole world disappears. When I’m with her, I’m at peace. But, no matter what my parents think, my friends think, my family thinks. She’s the reason I’m alive. Another girl broke up with me (before this girl) and I really cared about her. We only lasted a month, but I still cared greatly. When we split, I wanted to die. All those suicidal thoughts I had forgotten about for 3 years, came rushing […]
Expressing my feelings has always been
hard for me, mostly because i don’t even understand myself. One day i can feel really happy and then others i can feel like ending my life. Does anyone else feel this way? I can’t take feeling this way anymore its like a constant never ending battle in my head…I hate myself sooo..much. I would end it all but i know my little brother would be devistated if i was gone. And i would never want to hurt my brother..i would never want him to feel like me. Thats why i always put on my fake smile when i’m […]
I’m looking for people to talk to. Every-time I post someone new usually messages me, and as I enjoy talking to others i’m going to keep re-posting >_>
I’m twenty-one year old guy from the UK. I have anxiety, I get depressed, and I have suicidal thoughts. I use to self-harm but haven’t for ages. I also think I might have a personality and body dysmorphic disorder. I’ll be seeing a psychologist this Thursday…. at last.
I don’t usually talk depressingly with others, but I am more than willing to lend an ear if you wish to chat about things that are bothering you. It would be […]
yes fuck you!!!
I see your face when I close my eyes, I hear your voice, you come into my dreams and ……FUCK YOU!!!
The only thing I hate more than you is myself.
Sometimes the volume knob just doesn’t go high enough
http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/03/09-Swan-Dive1.mp3
Swan Dive by (Hed) P.E.
So recently, my brother and his girlfriend moved in. I thought it would be okay because I got along with his girlfriend and him, but not so much anymore. My brother started being psycho and started screaming, threatening me and my mom. Making fun of my little brother for being asian (i am as well). I threatened to call the cops for the safety of my family and him needing to be removed. His dumb girlfriend started rumors with my family trying to turn them on me. Saying I messaged her stuff and that she was going to beat my ass. At this point, my […]
I do everything I can… For my family, for my friends, even for some strangers! Then why is it like Karma turns on me anyway?
How do you get over it? How do you come to gripes with the fact that no one wants to be with you?…how do you attract people..or expect them to ignore your scars? How do you ask someone to be your shoulder to cry on?
Do others cry like you and I? Do they sigh when passed by passersby? Or when the cool kids give an awkward eye?
I’m 20. I wonder if its too late for me to learn how to make friends.
Hello *echo, echo*
Is there anyone out there?…Anybody
Maybe this world is another planet’s hell.
i think everyone goes through everything in their head before committing suicide. How everyone will feel and how everything will be afterwards. I guess I’m finally on that stage. I have nothing else to think. Anything that pops into my head it’s to get away from everyone. Stop hurting people I love. And to leave the people that dont need me anymore. I dont have a purpose here. Who am I kidding? I just haven’t committed into really leaving because I want to be here to see everyone else’s reaction when I’m dead. When they’re in the funeral. To see the trueness in people. Now, […]