Most days just trying to get out of bed is impossible. I have learned over the years, and might I add, perfected, putting on a happy face for my family and “friends” but my whole life is an act, and if I have learned anything from drama class it is that I cannot act. So why do I try, when all I really want and need is a friend?

The post I published didn’t appear so this is a test post to make sure I’m able to publish blogs here. If this works, I’ll re-post the other entry, if not then such as life…

1. You have no idea how much pain the suicidal person is going through. You have no right to decide whether they should suffer or not.
2. You only have control over your own life. Don’t ever try to control someone else’s!
And 3. Who are you, anyway, to decide whether a suicidal person is ready to die yet, is to young or too this or that, to die? You say that suicidal people don’t care about you, for example, how you’d feel if they died and you missed them.

Excuse me? Did you consider how they would feel if they had to continue living in […]

Literally just made an account not even 20 minutes ago, so lets see how this goes.. Everyday I’d like to die, this world makes no damn sense, and honestly I don’t want 50 more years in it. I personally feel if someone 18 or older would like to die, reasonably, they should be able to go to a hospital and be “euthanized”. Is that wrong?

Im fucking tired of day after day of the same shit. Tomorrow is Monday.. Just as last week was, and next month and the year after will be -.-

I can honestly say I’ve been happy, I even use to say “How […]

My nights have been pretty lonely, mostly laying in bed crying about nothingness. My girlfriend recently got a job and hasn’t really been texting me, so just me and these four walls and a few cigarettes every so often, my room is a ice box sort of the way my heart feels, an empty space or maybe like a shotgun blew through my chest, I just don’t feel anything and no one cares but I’m okay with that, no ones every been there so why would they now? Anyways just needed to vent blah blah blah

Why does death have to be tragic? Death cannot be a tragedy. Only life can. For the person’s life who ended, that is it. An end to all negative. For those experiencing unsurmountable suffering, death is something to look forward to. Something to celebrate. At that glorious moment, you will neither feel pain nor have to dread feeling it ever again. You will not wake up tomorrow to cry over your corpse. To lament the “waste of life.” You will be absent. Life with have no emotional strings to pull. You will not be fate’s pain puppet anymore.

Take Romeo and Juliet. Not from the […]

i did something that were totally break my parents heart and make them probably kick me out and send me to jail and the paranoia of it all makes me want to just kill myself but I’m getting pale and have cold sweats

please help

Tiny things, really.

Things that shouldn’t affect you, but do.

A gulp of water

reminds you of

washing pills down your throat

one pill, two pills, three…five…seventeen…thirty-one.

That was nearly two years ago, and the sensations are as vivid as if it was only last week.

Funny how the human mind works sometimes.

Knowing God will not fix your problem is one of the hardest thoughts… But knowing He will help you and guide your way through it is the best. He made us and our problems for a reason, knowing we are strong enough to get through it and still be able to seek Him.

Ive been in the biggest battle of depression in all my life. Im 15 yrs old and feel like i cant do this anymore, and last week i was done. I wrote a suicide note and tried to od, but somehow i managed to stop myself and i through the pill bottle across the room before i took to much. Ive been cutting for a while now, and I don’t think the scars will ever go away. I’ve been through hell and back, but i made a comittment to stop. Its been the hardest thing i’ve ever done, but tommarrow will be one week since […]

I have been having worse problems lately. Problem eating, cutting, and just feeling really bad about myself.

shit … I hate school . people look at melike “omg she just dress black ” “weird shoes , eww creepers ” “and she listen to metal ” blablabla I HATE THIS! why cant I be just who I want to be? FUCK YOU ALL!

I’m done with everything. My friends are gone. My family hate me. I hate the way I am and the way I look. I don’t think someone could ever love me, knowing that I hate myself. I’m just… done. I can’t stand it anymore.

I watch my father in his insanity…….till he died
I watched my mom faded into nothing…….
I heard my littles brother say he don’t want to live anymore…
And now I am watching my other brother began to fall fast and hard into depression ……and I can’t save him, because he have watched me attempt suicide….l, I can’t save him becuase I know where he is coming from…….I can’t save him and it makes me sad

Is there anyone eles out there who wish your family will just all died…..or something

I dont understand what passes through the majority of the girls mind,i have to say it,they are just stupid,not all but the majority.The second i just talk to them im just bored to pieces,their conversations are just boring and previsible,they always ask things like how are you doing at highschool,do yo like it,why do you ask me this you dont give a shit about that and they know it!.The 21 century girls,that this society has made are just so fake.Like this days which that girls in class are always with a fucking perfect smile,like saying oooo im such a happy person everytime.The society has influenced […]

Unlike most of you I have had a life. I have also died and it is first a white flash, then no pain, then black with no fear and quite peaceful and then nothing. That process lasts exactly 1 minute. What happens after that I have no idea that’s as far as I got. I’m not afraid of it either but I am terrified of the time up to that point. This is the only reason I am still breathing.
All my ppl are in heaven. The last one committed suicide, everyone asked why? I knew..the only thing that upset me was she beat me […]

how is it possible that one person can break you so thoroughly?

I watched this movie ‘Jesus of Nazareth’ and noticed that he many times called himself “son of man”. why (i mean why would someone explicitly say that about himself)? and why do Christians call him “son of God” then?

I do not know who I am , what I do in the world , what will I be ? What will be my future? I say thanksto my adoptive parents for everything they did for me , but the truth is I do not wanna live anymore. I have no reason for it , I’m a bad person , I’m a ***** , do not give people value . thanks those who care about me …. but should not do because I do not deserve . No one understands me , no one knows what I suffer , what I feel , there […]

Hi, I have really wild depressive/suicidal episodes that just totally demotivate me and has really bad psychological impacts. It usually starts from something little and I just get super suicidal to the point where I’m on the edge of doing it. I really don’t want to live my life like this soon somethings gonna snap and I’m gonna do it, each time it’s worse. Last time it happened I put a bag over my head and the the only thing that stopped me was thinking about my family finding my body. This time I was at my friends house and for two days all I […]