I apologise for the length of this but I wanted to truly explain what the causes of my depression are. I’m fourteen, far to young for this I know and I have suffered from major depression for seven years now, I’ve attempted suicide multiple times, I’ve tried everything from hanging to burning to stabbing myself and everything’s failed miserably due to bad luck or my own lack of a decent pain threshold, all of my issues stem from when I was seven years old. When I was seven a lot of stuff happened, I had 4 near death experiences at the beach alone and ended […]

I’ve never talked about my feelings about suicide to anyone, but, I think I should start now because I don’t know where to turn. I’ve gone through a shit of things in the past few months with the passing of most of my grandparents and other relatives. All within days apart, then there’s my parents going through their nasty divorce and all this other shit.. I just need some sort of guidance.. I’m 17 and had a big plan for my future but right now, that plan will never come true. I’m fucking up in school and I don’t know if its because i’m lazy […]

I’m so tired of thinking.Everything has been magnified this week.

My bipolar disorder has put me into a pit of non-stop, agonizing depression.

My OCD has been getting worse. Just when I thought I had conquered my obsession with cleaning, it’s back and as strong as ever.

In the past week I’ve slept for about 7 hours. My insomnia is keeping me up. I’m too scared that if I fall asleep I’ll have nightmares.

To make it all worse, my brain won’t shut off. It won’t stop. I constantly have to pull myself away from the things my brain is making up. I feel so detached from reality.

I semi-jokingly posted about wanting a suicide party amd on another thread stating that I want theme song to Disney’s Jessie to be my last song. The mental video of me laughing and dancing right before the curtain falls on my third act sounds massively appealing. So! My question to the intelligent collective on here is: is a cheerful suicide possible? Can a smiling person pull the trigger? Can I laugh as I climb the chair to board my final flight courtesy of Slipknot Airlines? Can I jovially mix the chemicals that will turn everything black?

if u cry a day long and laugh a minute: u laugh in a way it worth of one day cry

if u cry a min and laugh a day: u laugh in a way it worth of one min cry

begger:if a guy donated him a grand
obama: if he received noble prize
sp-adicts(fool or genius): if he promoted to ceo/girl proposed him/win 2milon deal..

happiness in above all cases is same. those are happy moments not successful moments

success must be standardized as reaching that top 10% of ppl which ever career path you choose (please eliminate job doers: slaves don’t worth a human life)

how many of […]

With everything that’s happened in my life, and everything that’s currently going on at this point, life just seems so hard. I know that thinking like this is being the typical teenager (“my world is OVER!!!”) but that’s just how it feels when I’m sitting here thinking about things that are bothering me and making me frustrated. Normally, I’d try to push all these feelings aside and just disregard them and pretend they don’t matter, but since going to therapy, it’s caused me to think about things more and try to figure out why i am feeling certain ways and what not. And honestly, that’s […]

about 3 weeks ago i slit my left wrist open i just wanted to die… i keep having thoughts about killing myself.. i have good days and bad days.

i told my mom i needed help because im not feeling well, she told me thats the cowards way out…

Would it be easier to go with someone or alone, do you think?

They have many mental issues they would like to be better educated on, bipolar, alzheimers, pcyzo, etc. I’m sure the method of exit decided upon can make a big difference as they have a limited amount of time to retrieve the body. Is this something anyone else would consider. They actually will creamate you and return remaining ashes to family at no cost to them.

Is an overdose on drugs considered suicide? And which is better for people to think you oded or killed yourself?

Anybody from Maine?

I tried to kill myself and I still want it. I’m broken, torn, unfaithful,and no one else can see it.
Idk what to do anymore. I can’t cry anymore, I can’t do it, as much I want it, as much I try, I can’t. It’s hurt and break me slowly. I’m so desperate. I just need help, just someone to hear me, to help me and understand me.

I got a second job. Overnight. 11-7.
I already have one job. It’s spread out across the daytime during the week.
I am going to college three days of the week.
I have to do this to fix my car. I have to do this because no one else will take initiative in this house. I am the only one making an attempt to save our asses and keep us financially safe. That’s not how relationships work though. They shouldn’t have to work like that. I also asked that since I’ll be working two jobs and going to school, that you catch up on the […]

David Foster Wallace, Virginia Wolfe, Kurt Cobain, Hemingway..I have been looking at all their art. Trying to tap into their pain and their eventual courage. I encourage people to do the same. Try to look at the creations of those that have gone before us. So do any of you have a “favorite” famous suicider? A famous note that you liked? A persons last tweet that is exactly how you feel? A poem? A song? Share it here. They are either our trail blazing role models or our cautionary tales.

Lately I’ve been very fixated on methods. I seem to contrive of a new one daily. While yes, bullet to the head seems simple enough, that doesn’t account for where, when, how to aim it, how to exactly pull the trigger, and what message to leave behind,
These are the things which consume my thoughts, and I have conceived of a number of plans for how to end my life.

Rambling details of various methods redacted to comply with site rules.

Gun, knife, rope, jump, fire, drowning, my brain just keeps coming up with these way to do it, and I can’t stop […]

I made a plan to kill myself last night…. My friend walked in as I was getting prepared. She knew what I was doing. She wouldn’t leave. She stayed. Ugh :c She said she’d kill herself if I did. I just want to disappear…

I swear I’m terrified of nearly everything anymore. Things like sunlight, going outside, snow, hearing or seeing cars, the morning, other people, and even being in my house send this paralyzing fear threw me. It sucks! I’m always shaking, involuntarily rocking back and forth, and having what I assume are some sort of panic attacks.

Is anyone else like this or am I alone?

PS: Meds have yet to help

For me, between 2006-2009 & then it just came back swinging harder than ever for the past 3 months.

My body is decaying 🙁 literally. Breaking down and I’m too scared to commit suicide. I’m not even sure I am able to I somewhere and be a hermit anymore because of how bad my health is. I’m an idiot. I did this to myself. I miss my old life so much.