Lately I’ve been very fixated on methods. I seem to contrive of a new one daily. While yes, bullet to the head seems simple enough, that doesn’t account for where, when, how to aim it, how to exactly pull the trigger, and what message to leave behind,
These are the things which consume my thoughts, and I have conceived of a number of plans for how to end my life.

Rambling details of various methods redacted to comply with site rules.

Gun, knife, rope, jump, fire, drowning, my brain just keeps coming up with these way to do it, and I can’t stop […]

I made a plan to kill myself last night…. My friend walked in as I was getting prepared. She knew what I was doing. She wouldn’t leave. She stayed. Ugh :c She said she’d kill herself if I did. I just want to disappear…

I swear I’m terrified of nearly everything anymore. Things like sunlight, going outside, snow, hearing or seeing cars, the morning, other people, and even being in my house send this paralyzing fear threw me. It sucks! I’m always shaking, involuntarily rocking back and forth, and having what I assume are some sort of panic attacks.

Is anyone else like this or am I alone?

PS: Meds have yet to help

For me, between 2006-2009 & then it just came back swinging harder than ever for the past 3 months.

My body is decaying 🙁 literally. Breaking down and I’m too scared to commit suicide. I’m not even sure I am able to I somewhere and be a hermit anymore because of how bad my health is. I’m an idiot. I did this to myself. I miss my old life so much.

I recently wrote a piece which received a stunning number of sarcastic responses. The majority of these said I don’t understand. So here’s my story.
I grew up with an abusive father. Two of my four siblings were depressed. One of my brothers killed himself when I was eleven. I found the body.
My first husband was abusive. I finally divorced him after he was sent to jail for locking me to the garden shed and lighting it on fire. I escaped, but. My neck and right arm were baddly scarred.
[…]

I foresee my life not as president of USA, CEO of fortune 500, invent something like Einstein, climb Everest, gr8 public leader, football macho, best NBA player

but doing a mediocre 9to5 job , given by one of above people to achieve their dream

do you think my life worth living? ( indeed any one of this kind?)

Is there any answer which motivates average people that doesn’t include self-convincing, hope, positive thinking, some foolish preaching.

does any one realized majority of human beings trading their 80 years with money?

For the past few weeks, my life was looking as though I was getting better. My moods were good and 90% of my days were pretty happy. I found new friends, found a couple people that I ended up dating. I was happy for once…then last week it all went downhill. I began to get really depressed and started having pains in my stomach. I am a stomach sleeper so I was also having trouble sleeping bc it hurt so bad. Then the swelling and redness started…now none of this was subtle. From the time the pain started till the redness and swelling got their […]

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Do ya’ll believe in God?

Here’s my story. One year back I was the happiest man alive. I had a good job. I had just got promoted. I was the senior most in my office. My marriage was fixed. Then this eye problem cropped up. The doctors diagnosed me with a rare incurable genetical disease. In just a year I’m now almost blind. My muscles are so affected that I’m wheelchair bound. I have lost my job. My fiancee left me. I have lost all feelings in my body I can’t feel hot or cold. Now the doctors say my kidneys are also failing. I’m in constant pain. I’m just […]

Why do you think I’m an idiot? Why do you treat me like a child? Why do you think I’m incompetent? I own my own home, take care of it myself, have lived alone since 1999 and always find a way to get help when I need it. Why are you so cruel? I understand you are not overly sensitive like I am, but I wish you would understand that even though you are not sensitive like me that there are people like me in this world. Why did you laugh when my property was destroyed by the local oil company and I lost every […]

You can see positives in any situation ! Just try to interpret reality with good sides 🙂

Death embraces me wherever I go, a more attentive friend than I’ve ever had.

When did it get to the point where loneliness, self hatred and a blade became my best friends, whilst my old friends became strangers?

They said that I could talk to them, trust them, that they can help but as soon as they know how messed up I am they take slow steps back. I couldn’t possibly blame them, I can’t even stand myself so how can I expect them to?

doing a little better today. Finally realized I can’t be everyone else’s rock when I can’t even be my own. Listened to Second Chance by Shinedown a LOT to get that. today, I think there is good in the world. And on my next bad day I’m going to come back here and read this to remember how I felt.

I was last here for almost 18 months ago. I cannot remember the username I had then, something to do with light.

I have tried 7 times to kill myself, at least5 have been serious and I have survived.

I am 36 or 37, I actually do not know how old I am. Anorexia, severe depression, alcoholism, self harm, cutting and a search for death.

I want to die, please, somebody tell me why I should not?

I’ve had five people get intouch with me so far,  the conversations have been great, but I’m wondering who else is out there?

I’m a 21 year year old guy from the UK. I have anxiety, I get depressed, and I have suicidal thoughts. I don’t normally talk about my own issues, though I’m always upfront with others, I’ve found it easier to talk deeper about said issues with someone that actually relates. But I would also like to talk about other things, I guess it depends on whoever contacts me. I don’t care about your gender, I’m panromantic, not that it matters. I would say […]

Why are parents so happy at the birth of a newborn?

They didn’t bring a child into a loving good caring wonderful world….they basically sentenced a new innocent being to a life of strife and turmoil and ultimately a death sentence….and sure some will say “but not everybody life is bad” I never said it was….but this world is bad….and somewhere along the line it will reveal itself to be bad to them…. if I had a child I would feel so guilty….I know this life is shit….I know this world is shit….so why would I willingly bring another person into it to be subjected to […]

well i tried committing suicide several times and i cant seem to die maybe there’s a purpose for me to be alive on this earth i have cried no ones there to catch my tears or to give me their shoulder to cry on no ones there to mend my broken heart to help me through the frustration and stress i have a eating disorder which is anorexia my online boyfriend takes money from me but i love him to much to let him go he took like 10000 dollars from me my family said they would make sure they kill him if i die […]