Ive made up my mind i think. Ive tried everything already and none of its helped i think ive finally reached the end

I dug myself a hole. It’s walls protected me. But I grew too tall, and I stood above them. So I dug down deeper. Hands reached out for me, but behind them, was Her. So I dug deeper. A voice, inside, unheard, and small; “Not too deep! So you can pull yourself out!” School was scary, I was stupid. I dug deeper. I didn’t make friends with the right people. I dug deeper. I didn’t like Her lunch, so I threw it away for weeks,months, never ate. And deeper. High school, mind shutdown, voice snuffed. Just close your eyes and imagine. Dirt walls became castles, […]

This might seem totally irrelevant to all you guys lol but I thought a blog would be a good place to share.  Do any of you know any online public schooling which is available for ALL countries (not only the US)? I keep searching but can’t seem to find anything out of the US…and my parents are not willing to pay for private online educaton which really pisses me off.

when you tell me that you hate my cuts you cry each time you see them we cuddle for a while untill you have stopped the cutting and then when i say its going to be alright i have to cross my fingers behind your back i love you babe but this self-harming is apart of me im sorry for the amount of tears that has came out your beautiful brown-green eyes baby i never wanted to hurt you but please dint make me choose between you and the self-harming i love you and want to stay with you your my life, my world. baby […]

Im 14 hes 15, we met through friends, its not a problem then i meet him and i fall in love, we kiss the first time, he has me wraped round his little finger. He tells me he wants sex, i dont no what to do so i trust him and make his wish come true. Im in deep deep love with him now, and then it all goes wrong, he tells me hes cheated on me, creates burns and slits on my wrists, my legs ache and i wake every morning in pain. I say this was you who created this. He tells me […]

Just a cut.

just a scratch.

whats that mark??

It was the cat.

Just a lie…

Whats with all the braclets??

Just fasion why??

just a tear.

just a scream

Why were you crying ??

just a bad dream…

But its not just a cut

Or a tear or a lie

Its always just one more,

Until you die.

Self harm is a serious mater so think before you speak…

To the girl thay wrecked my wotld. i met you the 2nd of september i was 16 you were 15 now im 18 for thag two yeats she my my first real true one and olny love and we were eachothothera forst for wverything.we gave our hearts to eachother but she had a problem, talkimg to other guys and cheating on me, the ise of razor blades and burns of her name on my arm staryed coming into place, we tryed and tryed a lived her with all of my heary and then it lead to depression which led to any kind of pain killers […]

Every night I go to sleep hoping to never wake. Every breath I take is a mistake. I wasn’t met for this cold world… How could The man I fell for, the man I have a beautiful little boy with intentionally physically hurt me but won’t let me hurt myself.. I blame no one for this.. I mean I’m a big girl right? No ones forcing me to do anything. Just a half hour ago it could have all been over.. So I’m at the park hanging from my jacket when suddenly a car pulls up and flashes the lights on me, my immediate reaction […]

While having a suicidal crisis I suddenly felt my phone buzz and when I looked it was a text… From my brother… It said happy birthday and now I can’t stop crying.

Somedays when I want to cry out about what’s gone horribly wrong in my life, my friend starts to complain about how “nobody likes her,” or “her crush hates her,” when obviously none are true.

And the group of friends I have flock to her, trying to make her feel better, even though I’m obviously behaving differently. And I understand that she needs support, but I need some help as well.

So eventually,  I learned how to put on a false smile and look like I’m happy. I kept on telling myself that I’d weigh them down if I told them what’s wrong.

After all, they never asked.

I […]

are very strange creatures.

I am overwhelmed with sadness & emptiness & loneliness & all I do is cry & my heart feels like it’s going to fall out of my chest and I get anxiety over every little thing and I’m just done.

This life has stopped feeling real years ago, and occasionally I get little glimpses of life, but usually I just feel numb. This is so incredibly frustrating and painful and I just wish I could die already because It’s pretty fucking obvious that I’ll never be happy again.

I keep trying, and I keep failing, and I’m just one huge failure that should have killed herself years […]

For a single moment

I want to feel like the universe isn’t about to crush me

And my heart isn’t about to explode

I would kiss you

And tell you I love you

And say to you

Please don’t go

For a single night

I want to feel your arms around me

Holding me close

I would watch you sleep

And whisper I love you

And never

Let you go

For a single day

I want to feel like the sun is shining on me

And we are together

I would hug you

And tell you I need you

And ask you

To never go

For a single moment

I want to forget the past few days

Remember the past month

When we were never apart

I would fall to […]

Why am I even here? Why did I have to be born? I’ve always want to just die. I’m just spending my 15th birthday crying to myself in my room, depressed, and contemplating Suicide once more out of the five-thousand times. I have the tools to do so but one problem with myself is I’m just a ***** and I just can’t do it. So why am I even here.

if i were to go, who would care? who would even stop to see that i was at one point alive? to me the only answer to these questions is nobody. my whole school would know, but nobody would care….. so why should i?

So the other day I got diagnosed with cancer. Some how people at my school found out, I didn’t think that people would be so ignorant about how messed up it was. I have heard nothing else but people making fun of me and how I could die in about a year. I haven’t self harmed in about a year. I need help on what to do because I don’t want to down that road again.

so im new here but ive visited this site many many times, im very incredibly fragile and even just the small things are enough to set me over the edge its just crazy, i have not felt like myself in years ive been neglected and abused by almost everyone i know its just to much for me to take sometimes i just hope that this site and you kind people can help me keep the small amount of sanity i have left anymore

i went on a meditation retreat, cleared the noise, asked the silence what to do out of possible options and the answer came. first answer, the right answer. others come up afterwards too, but u know what will make u happy.

According to her he only set out to hurt me. that was his whole purpose the entire time. even promising me once again to make me his wife. that we will be together forever. i believed him. i thought i had hope for a future. but it all fell apart. how sick can a person be to fuck with someone especially someone they know who has problems who’s a fucking mental case, someone whos crazy, suicidal who self harms. fuck this. those are the only adjectives that describe me, my life. im a fuck up. of course he wouldnt leave her for me. idk why […]

Hey i havent posted here in a while. my shit luck has been exspecially terrible lately. broke my computer, got a citation for possesion at school, lost my best friend again, lost brandon again, relapsed, and school is overwhelming as shit. i just really am done. i want to end it. ive tried so hard and shit started to get a little better, a little more bearable and it all went back down the crapper. I just feel so drained and so defeated. i cant believe i let him get to me again. i cant believe how much i fucked up and that my leg […]