It’s four days until it’s time to go for good. I keep pretending everything is fine and I’ll even see my therapist tomorrow. Of course she’ll want to talk about last week but I’ll just let her know that the thoughts are gone and I’m ok. If I really tell her, she’ll have to report me and I’ll be locked up in a nut house, so why bother? I’m screaming on the inside, honestly.

I’ve been asking close friends what they would do if they only had a few more days to live and I’ll slowly start doing what they say. Like yesterday morning, for example, […]

Hi. I’m a fourteen year old from Kentucky, and plenty of times I’ve thought of suicide. I’ve decided to keep anonymous, as the name anonymousmusic suggests, so I’m not sharing any other information. Here is my story.
I moved to Kentucky from Washington in 2009, where I went to a new public school and met some new people. I knew what suicide was, as my biological mother was suicidal from her post traumatic stress disorder, or ptsd if you will.
I was made fun of a lot, and at first there were only two girls who truly accepted me, both who I still talk to […]

I would argue that adult persons over the age of 45 (approx) have earned the right to end their life if they so choose. In a free country, which we claim to be, we should not be forced by anyone to live against our wishes. In fact it will benefit society in many ways to allow this, if there is no religious (i.e. nonsense) to fill our society with fear about it. And we admit that a life lived, after children are raised, is less fullfilling and should not be forced upon us. In nature, our primary purpose has been served, and if we are […]

I tried to kill myself in May by drinking a bottle of Tylenol. It was my moms birthday, and by far the worst thing I’ve ever done to her. I was at my lowest, struggling with depression that had been there since I was 11. But I can say that since that day, things have been looking up for me. Its been a bumpy road, lots of ups and downs, but its been going up in general. I never thought I would see the day where I would be confident again like I was as a little girl, where I could actually like myself sometimes. For […]

I know that every time a teenager runs away and leaves a note saying “Don’t freak out,” the parents or whoever freak out anyway. But please don’t. I have a plan, and if things get too heavy, I know your number and our address. I’m not happy here, and I met someone who wants to run off somewhere. He seems to know what he’s doing, and I like that. Yeah, he’s a bit of a junkie, and a bit older, but he also understands me. Oh, how fucking cliche I sound, talking about an older guy who understands me. But I’m your daughter, so I […]

…is anyone on this site not a teenager? Specifically, at least 20 years old and dealing with adult problems like, wallowing in debt, seeing everyone getting married with children and wondering if you’ll be alone forever etc.

I don’t mean to invalidate the pain of the young ones on this site but, being a teenager is supposed to be tough. You’re growing up, trying to become yourself, yet you got parents and teachers telling you who to be at the same time.

If you can get through this tough time, you’ll most likely be fine.You’ll learn that all the playground politics and late homework are […]

Hello everyone……… If you are reading this then obviously I’m dead and have overdosed on pills. I don’t know why I did it but I don’t regret it. It seems like I have been thinking about this for over 4 years now. For someone reason I just feel like I want to die, perhaps I have some sort of depression I think.  I’m not sure whether to keep my secrets to the grave or let them out. I started feeling sad at 14, I always kind of wanted to die at that age. The constant burden of feeling down and nothing could help and I […]

make sure and read “fucken genesis *****” first.
caught in the ever ravanous gaze of the darkness humanity was still in the never ending struggle with death and time and space. death because they wanted their imortality back, time because it sped up the approach of death and space because it confined them to such a small area, yet despite all the shackels the children of darkness and the jealous older brother of humanity placed upon humanity they also helped to keep the darkness at bay, making sure humanity only became part of the darkness bit at a time, instead of all at once, […]

Why do bullies exist? I’ve been bullied since the age of 7, I’m currently 15 years old and still get made fun of. I’m not a fan of social networks because every time I get on something I get some sort of message that would tell me to kill myself and that no one cares about me. I’m young and I let all this get to me. At the age of 10, I wasn’t only thinking suicidal thoughts but also actions.. I started cutting myself, but on my body where no one would see the scars. Cutting myself was my drug, I got so addicted […]

In my health class, we’re doing the “Jason Foundation”. Which is a suicide prevention program our school does for all health classes. We watched a video from it and it showed what these people are going through and it showed a Guy cutting himself. I didn’t want to watch it so I looked at this packet we had to fill out and a Guy said “Why aren’t you
watching? Does your past hurt you, attention whore?”

Honestly, it did hurt watching it. But, that’s complete BS that some Guy, WHO DOESN’T EVEN KNOW WHAT I’VE BEEN THROUGH, would give me crap because I have […]

Born and raised here.37 years old.Male.I never felt like I ever belonged here,never fit in with anybody,it’s such a cutthroat,dirty,overcrowded,backstabbing,drug-using,lowlife,criminal city,filled with degenerates.If I ever had the chance to leave I would and never look back.Seems like im stuck here.Living here has been a major cause of my depression/anxiety.

i quit taking effexor cold turkey a little more than a week ago. i wouldn’t suggest it. been kind of crazy. i am so damned tired. sleeping 12 hours when i can and still dead tired. the weakness and dizzy spells are an added bonus. thinking about stopping all of them as it has been a very long time since i have been unmedicated. my shrink doesn’t think that would be a good idea. chances are good that he is right. don’t think i could handle all the withdrawal symptoms. but it is becoming more obvious to me that there isn’t much left for me […]

lonliness . is it real or imagined ? this is something we all face , yet it can be exaggerated to certain extremes in some peoples lives . && i don’tunderstand what happened . it was only 4 months ago i was happy . && no i’m contemplating thoughts of death ..

It never ever fails for me to go a day without having an outbreak of feeling depressed and suicidal. Today it happened while i was driving and i got the worst road rage ever, then i got home and cut myself 4 times deep enough, but not deep enough to actually feel better. i want to die, i hate my life and i hate that i can not handle anything, maybe i am too sensitive to be alive. But hopefully one day i cut myself deep enough to hit a vein and end all this pain.

if you ask me if i am ok once i am going to think you don’t care, it is just a passing comment.

if you ask a second time i am going to think you didn’t hear me the first.

if you ask me three times i will wonder why you care.

if you keep asking me i may believe that you really care and i will tell you the truth.

but we never get past the second time…

I’ve been depressed for as long as I can remember and I feel it’s getting worse as the years go by. I’ve always been so lonely. My parents are ignorant and support me, I have no friends to talk to, I’m just dealing with my misery all by myself and it’s become too much for me to handle. I’m 17 so I go to school each day and I can honestly can’t stand it anymore. I wake up in the morning feeling the need to kill myself, that’s how bad the situation is. I’ve been telling my parents that I want to drop out of […]

I just want to cry. To let it all out. To have someone hold me. Tell me they love me that everything will be alright. That they will never leave me no matter what. No matter how hard it gets. That they will never ever give up on me. Even wheni have given up on myself. I just want to cry.

THUS SPOKE ZARATHUSTRA

THE TREE ON THE HILL

Zarathustra’s eye had perceived that a certain youth avoided him. And as he walked alone one evening over the hills surrounding the town called “The Motley Cow,” behold, there he found the youth sitting leaning against a tree, and gazing with wearied look into the valley. Zarathustra thereupon laid hold of the tree beside which the youth sat, and spoke thus:

“If I wished to shake this tree with my hands, I should not be able to do so. But the wind, which we see not, troubles and bends it as it tilts. We are sorest bent and troubled by invisible hands.”

Thereupon the youth […]

I will be 21 this month… you think i would be happy… but all i can think about lately is ending it all. At the age of 13 was when everything started going extremely downhill both physically and mentally…All my life i had battled with loneliness from being hated and tormented by my siblings, ignored by my mother, and verbally abused by my father. i was an outcast at school considered too hyper and loud for friendship, in kindergarten i was diagnosed with ADHD which made me even more secluded from my peers. I was alone… the only thing comforting me was my pets or […]

it was my fault before and years later it still is. No matter what side I was on the abused or the abuser it still was me. My sins have caught up to me and it is more than I can bear. Take this pain from me and free the pain I caused. Free me. End me. I was taught this behavior but wasn’t saved from it. Don’t save me now I’m not worth it.  Should I go Out with a bang and take innocent lives with me? Why? They didn’t save me why should I save them. my time has come my cup runneth […]