this is the first time i can remember.. since about 16 years old (im 30 now) that I’ve felt this kind of negativity and depression..
i remember all those years back I used to feel so hurt and depressed and sad.. and I was always really quiet and insecure..
its all because I had all these negative thoughts.. like insecurity.. just telling myself i’m no good i’m no good like every second of the day..
life’s been quite shit lately and it’s all beginning again and I can see the core of my problem..
i am in a f*cking rut.. unemployed.. just broke up with my gf.. and im […]
She grew up near the beach, it was paradise. You know how they describe them. Swaying palm trees, white sandy beaches, blue sapphire seas, the ocean stretching out as far as her eyes could see… and the coolest part – It was all hers! Not much tourists ventured out that far, so there she could dream, and make up stories, and find secret places, and laugh, and sing, and swim. She loved swimming. A dolphin – that’s what they called her. Sometimes, when it was low tide, the ocean dries up so much that she could literally walk all the way out to the edge […]
She’d pray each night. Wasn’t there a God out there? Doesn’t Jesus love her anymore? Why does He allow bad things to happen to good people?
She prayed for years, each night, the same prayer. But with each passing year, her prayers grew less and less until one day she just stopped praying…Her faith in an Omnipresent, Omnipotent, Omniscient God ended in disappointment. Maybe her suffering wasn’t that important enough to make a dent in God’s busy schedule…
Lets have a show down of writing skills!
Create a short/mini poem in the comment section.
As people add their short poems, try to keep the poem going.
I will try to refrain from joining in, because we all know how great my lyrical prowess is! 😉 hehe
can you explain why you are dying with not more than 3 words?
Mine=scars
I find it more than appropriate that there are sites online that provide ready-made suicide letters. I think its the best way to express to the world that they don’t deserve any more effort…a little bit of reciprocity for the absolute cold and apathetic way the world treats its members. In just a few minutes I can google a suicide note generator, and not even have to give fucking people one extra fucking minute of thought. I’m done with them. im done with not fitting in  and being awkward. Im done with being fucking ODD. I’m done existing in this fucking shell that keeps me […]
I know that I will always feel alone in this place. Just an odd number, either nuts or an embarrassment or someone to bullshit for an easy distraction. I want to curl up under my heated blanket, pull out my only true friends ( books) and for one minute forget that I am so alone in this monotonous, bullshit, cruel fucking world. I have completely given up on believing in a loving and powerful deity. I can’t believe it, but its true. 27 years of believing in religion and purpose and fate and love and everything falling into place just as it should, only to […]
I’ve written my suicide note too many times to count. I’m so weak! I’m a failure at everything,  including taking my own life.  All this stress. All this pain. I just want it to go. Goodbye.
I did something that was really hard for me yesterday. I went car shopping. Only to find out the money I had was no good and you need at least 5,000 dollors to put down on a car to get anything worthwhile that will last a while. Just another way society just points at me and says you don’t belong here. Your money is not useful like everyone else’s. No one needs you. You’re a nuisence, get out. All those things pop into my head when I try to do anything. Seriously feeling like getting the amonia from the closet and drinking it. I can’t […]
I didn’t think I was going to have to trade words in exchange for anyone’s life tonight :) but if there is even the slightest chance that my story will help you….
I grew up on a farm in a rural part of the world. My father is a cold hard man but beat me every time I didn’t do as he told me to. I still have nightmares about his rage that make me feel as helpless as a child sometimes. My mother was a loving but very quiet person she used to try and stop my father when his temper boiled over but after […]
Sick of the city’s cold stare
Emotional branding that you’re wearing..
Can suit the curb side as you walk alone.
Maybe it’s just common sense.. Maybe it’s my faith that..
I’m needing room here to exist.
Contemplation of the sun set..
Will it bring me down to set with in..
Or maybe it’s this dirt pile..hide me from the sun’s kiss.
A struggle running from the past.
And all the foot steps that you’re hearing..
Getting closer and their closing fast.
Maybe it’s a quick death..you keep running in the end..
We are fools! Always playing by the rules! Won’t you let me loose, oh […]
So I finally succumbed to the need to vent on this site.
From time to time I’ve been checking it. There’s lots of posts that I sympathize with.
I understand the need of some to be completely alone and away from useless people, and although loneliness is not healthy: still better than dealing with people that stink.
I understand that some have tried and tried thinking that their lives will get better but in fact only got worse.
I understand those that have trouble dealing with this world as it is.
I think that I understand the depression, the ennui, the love pangs, the family conflicts, the […]
I will try to keep it short but I believe some background is necessary, also this has probably been asked before many times on this website but I would appreciate if someone could give me insight about my particular case.
I am suicidal, no questions I don’t know when or where but it will happen soon.
I need some advice.
My family is very loving and caring the only thing that has kept me from committing suicide so far is my family.
I could not have asked for a better family, I know what I am doing is selfish trust me but there is only so much I can […]
Hello.
I will be around for the next hour if anyone wants to talk. I don’t mind what it is, I just want to listen and advise. No judgement.
<3
I will refresh page every 5 mins.
I don’t really play games anymore, not in a few years anyway. But their was a time when I was obsessed with Elder Scrolls IV. It was a time when I was deeply depressed and all I wanted to do was either die or escape into the world of Cyrodiil. I think I played through the entire game at least 5 times using the different characters. It was one of the worst and greatest […]
beat. beat. beat. broke.
everything i touch it will break. i don’t know to take care of things. neither of people. people around me are also confused, depressed, desperates.
it seems my sister will commit suicide. every day i think about it. one day, my parents or my brother would call me: “your sister is dead. she’d commited suicide”.
i think about mine suicide most of the days, but i’m managing to control it, with a little help from my friends: prozac and rivotril. fuck.
i need to finish school. i had abandoned it because i became a coke addict. weed too. and it’s fucking awful when the best […]
I have failed you all and this world it’s time for me to say GoodBye…
Im a girl and I’ve started arm wrestling. I am 2ed in the state for my divison in arm wrestling. I was wrestaling some adults and my left isn’t as strong as my right. I pulled a muscle and it felt so good! It felt almost as good as cutting!
It’s because, well, I’ll just leave this here.
http:// www.oddee. com/item_98706. aspx
Go ahead, girl. Cut your wrists.
Punch the walls and bloody your fists.
Give the cheater one last kiss and hope he never finds you.
Have you ever been as lonely as I? Have you ever been hurt and pretended not to care but cried? Have you wished that all the grass has died or prayed that all the wells run dry..that all the birds would cease to fly and that black would cover every eye? Why? Why wouldn’t rain fall down from every sky and poison come from every lie? Oh, my. Do you ever think as dark as I?