Can anyone ride a horse down the road? i don’t have a lisence can i legally ride a horse down the road?  If it’s legal to ride a horse down the road, what if the horse takes a big dump? Do I have a legal obligation to clean it up, or can I leave it for the street sweeper? If it is legal to ride a horse on public streets, what about where I park it. Can you legally tie it up to a parking meter while you go inside a store.If it’s legal to ride a horse on public streets, do stores have to allow […]
Hey there… i am teenage girl that has been having depression for over a year now..
I always have family problems and specially this year it has gotten worse i try to ignore the screams as much as i can but in the end it really gets to me.. I don’t really think i have real friends around me i just feel that i am in the background and they don’t appreciate  the things i do to them and they forgot my birthday and didn’t even get me a small gift while  for their birthday’s i plan everything and get to surprise them with cake and […]
Ever since i was a kid really i’ve never had proper friends. That’s all ive really wanted. My childhoods a wreck if you ask me. Dad doing drugs an alcohol, never seeing him. I wanna end it really. Take action of my life. Stop the bulling.
Im really tired and sad, but tomorrow I have a picnic party thing to go to. its about an hour and a half away with a bunch of people i traveled with earlier this summer. i would really like to see them, but i dont know if i feel like going.
my father offered to drive me, but i dont want him to. its a waste of his time and gas.
should i go? of should i puss out? stay home and sleep instead?
Some people on this site are the biggest assholes. Sorry, but it’s true. They have no compassion for feelings. I can’t count the amount of times I’ve received a comment along the lines of “attention seeker” & maybe I shouldn’t be posting on this site if I wasn’t expecting that, but sometimes when I rant and rave all I want is for people to say they care, I don’t need hateful comments..
Sorry, I’m just very annoyed with some people undermining mental disorder -__-
We all live to die .
Life is horrible .
To live shows that it really isn’t getting better .
To all those who say, “Oh you’ll be fine. Life gets better .”
I strongly disagree .
Life doesn’t get better .
It get’s worse .
Happiness is like getting a sample of chicken at the mall .
You only get a little, And it doesn’t last you very long .
Quickly it goes away .
As your world crumbles like crumbs from a cracker being crushed,
People are out there having the time of their lives .
You wonder, “Why can’t that be me..”
Here it is. Okay so i don’t cut but i am anorexic. I am 82 pounds and 5’1 but no one seems too notice. Most people say that I’m skinny but other then that they can’t see how much i hurt inside. I have been anorexic for a while since December and its keeps getting worse. I have thought about suicide alot lately but i am just to chicken.
Why are we so miserable
Why are we suffering
somehow the wish of dying makes me feel rather excited than curious as to what would happen when the trigger gets pulled..
i really don’t have any belief in religion as such neither would i like to mention it since it’s useless…
i just so wish i wasn’t part of this universe today and even writing that puts a smile on my face because i’ve tried too many
times and fallen too many times…
im tired of falling and knowing how messed up life is…nothing can be fixed and i can’t love anyone…
i’d rather not explain why not because i mind what others would have to say when they […]
Because I cant tell you anything, and i dont want you asking a million questions. I just want everyone to leave me alone today. im tired. im upset. im stressed. and i really dont like that fact that you checked up on me.. it kinda pisses me off. i understand why you did.. but still.
i just want to be left the fuck alone, why cant you understand that dad? why? i dont like being around you. at all.
so why am i lying? because i dont like you and i cant stand being around you.
and to my friend and her mother, i really apologize. it was […]
I would want to live in north america long before the days when the explorers came over here. Long before tall skyscrapers and automobiles…. When life was simple but challenging and not painful and harsh. Back then the only challenges they faced were shelter and food….they were truly FREE….not “matrix free” but actually free to do whatever, whenever, and however they wanted…No ridiculous and incompetent Gov’t no  “Marriage license” or “fishermans license” didn’t need a “drivers license” to ride a horse… just the absence of modern bullshit….I just hate the way life is constructed nowadays… It’s a contributing fact to why I will end my […]
to me sadness is me being. sick, bankrupt,homeless, rejected by every successful relative that could just help with words or mats, talented and filled with so many brilliant ideas without a single sponsor or investor, carrying with me the consequence of my mistakes. and rotting away silently with all this gift and curses with no one to tell goodbye.
Since I decided to end things I have found my sense of humour… I feel happy! It feels so strange since I have been living for so long faking laughter, smiles, interest.
I have a very big helium tank behind my couch all set up and ready to go. I spent yesterday getting ready and I found myself occasionally reaching over to touch the tank or the exit bag, all I felt was assurance and comfort. I’m a little nervous, but not enough to question my choice.
How did I get here?
I have got no idea how I have lasted this long. When I was 17 I […]
Define me. They shouldn’t but they do. They are why I tell people to not hurt themselves, that life is worth it yet can’t seem to see it or believe it myself. They are why people give me awkward looks when they see I don’t find anything amusing. The reason why at a glance others see my scars and grab my arm and demand to know why I’m doing it to the myself. They are the reason why I cut and burn, because they want proof they’ve been here. They are the reason why I walk on a Bridge or high ledge, my heart beats […]
No doesn’t change anything
It doesn’t make me feel better
It doesn’t make me stop cutting
I doesn’t make me stop crying
It doesn’t make me want to live
It doesn’t solve my problems
It doesn’t make anything better
So for all of you that tell me “no” suicide is wrong
Your wrong “no” is what is wrong with this world
Every night I lay down on my bed and tell myself that I’m not going to do it that I’m stronger than that, but then I break down, the tears start and I cry myself to sleep and every morning I tell myself that that was the last time
I just realized today that almost every decision that I make has two choices, the thing that i want and the right answer, the thing that other people want to hear you say. And I hate that looking at my life now makes me realize that I have never don anything for myself and I rarely get what I want because it has almost become instinct to just say what everyone wants to hear. And this kills me inside because I know that I can try and try to do what everyone else wants me to do but in the end, Im mot making other […]
Watching a world so desperate for answers
Never reaching a common ground
Failing to make things right
In the end it never even mattered
So dance my beautiful puppets
DANCE