What do you think needs to change in the world and what do you thinks are the sets needed to make make that happen?

if there was a pill that killed you instantly.
without pain would you take it.
if you had to live and smile
would you always fake it.
if you had no friends.
and reasons to die becomes a list.
would you give it all away.
and maybe slit your wrist.
if you decide to not live again never.
then why are we forced to live forever.
it’s illegal to kill.
but if its your life would you take the pill.

In 2011, I started praying for a meteor to hit the Earth so that the human race would be erased from universal history.
I’ve since then gotten more angry- for what should probably be obvious reasons. Although I am sure people don’t understand, because most people do not understand honey boo boo plots – they are simply too advanced. hmm where should I begin here?

I was born on September 11th, 1986. Well, maybe I should have taken it as a sign and offed myself on the day I turned 15 or whatever.

Well, I could begin by talking about a father whom I didn’t know because […]

I am really sick of people telling me to shut up when I voice my opinion, if you disagree state your argument …. Arguments are heathy ….don’t just cut them off and be one angry…..it’s not good for you to be angry at what I say…. I am not angry when you shout and yell, throws insults at me and talk behind my back…..sometimes I Laught a little know ing that you are upset about my opinion of the world……its funny watching close minding people dance of my thougths thinking that they are rigth just becuase they can’t look into other peoples minds lol

O.o ……due to westerner ways Japan, America, Canada has made lolliecon illegal. Lolliecon is not real children it should not be out lawned…..America is too strict……and Japan is kinda foolish to ban things like lolliecon just becuase people take other countries and stuck up people take offends

Note I do not like like lolliecon that much rape Hentai is as addicting as normal mangas/anime …..I prefer it a million more than porn, maybe even real s.x…..(real s.x seems scary)

I think that banning such things is things is wrong on the goverment, they have no rigth to harm the innocents who never physical harmed any […]

Even so.. a soft kiss from him is like that of a child’s innocence.. why does it feel so forbidden?.. such a thing like a first kiss is like a mark that shows ones rebirth yet ones own self destruction. I am a whore, a greedy one at that. I have stolen such innocence, many in fact. In my eyes the virtue of men has no value, no meaning. No one gave pity or sorry to mine, my own stolen virtue. The only thing that seems to ever matter is that kiss, the first kiss. A kiss that was taken because of my sheer stupidity […]

My dad hung himself on March 18th, 2013. Actually it could have been the 19th no one is exactly sure. It was my spring break and I was at the beach with a few of my friends and my girlfriend. I didn’t find out til that Thursday which I think was the 21st. My phone had been dead for a day or two and I didn’t bother to charge it, I guess I didn’t think anything important was going to happen. I finally charged and turned off my phone and saw that I had received a text from my rabbi and a woman in my […]

People always say that I am the best to have around I am their best friend. They don’t know I am only good at being so amazing because I am numb. I feel no pain, I used. to have bad depression smile all day, cry all night now I just fight my anxiety. That’s the only emotion I feel besides dead. I keep myself here for my husband and kids cause they need me. I just worry that my anxiety will kill me before I do.

I saw my therapist today yipfuckingyee… she doesnt understand anything, its so hot and i feel as if everyone is screaming at me, even the little sounds sound like freak explosions, i dont feel suicidal just more attached to pain and mutilation, why do i still plot my inevitable suicide anyways? Ive just become obsessed with the idea of suicide as of late. Nothing can change my mind, besides getting expelled from school, having shit grades, and seeing/ trusting no one, everything seems gross. Masturbation is possibly the only relief i get from this gross thought process. I wish someone would kill me now because […]

I can’t believe I let my manipulating ex back into my life! All he does is use me. My best friend/sister has been gone for over a month and I have no one else. I was weak and vulnerable, and he took advantage of me.

My family, needless to say, notice nothing. My dad is too busy with work, my step mother is a self ***** and my grandparents and aunt prefer my younger cousins over me. My mother hasn’t tried to contact me sine Christmas 2011.

The pain is eating at my insides, but I have no way to let it out. I used to cut […]

I don’t understand why I feel pain like this. It’s completely unbearable. Two years ago I was diagnosed with severe depression. i’ve spent these last two years in therapy and searching everywhere for something to make me feel better. I’ve tried therapy, ten different anti-depression drugs, hypnosis, acupuncture, acupressure.. the list goes on and on. on top that i’m victim to horrible anxiety attacks that can strike at any moment without warning, i usually get about two or three a day. they make me curl up into a ball and wait to die. my family has abandoned me because i cause everyone around me pain […]

someone said we are all destined for greatness
then why is the world this why today
wouldn’t they have realized they were
“destined for greatness”
looking deeper into the meaning of the phrase
we are all destined to be the greatness of our capability
she could not help that she was brought up into a family with enough money for one school outfit
though no one knew she had the voice of an angel and could be a famous singer
but instead she died at 19 in gang shooting
he was not a piano prodigy
his parents paid for the countless hours of practice so […]

She got up and grabbed her things. Escaped to some empty common room, opened her laptop, and methodically pulled that hairband against her wrist.

“Haha you know you shouldn’t do that, it could hurt haha,” some guy says, nodding at her wrist. She smiles up to him and nods slightly. He moves away and she goes back to snapping the hairband. She holds back tears and swallows deeply. She turns on her laptop and reads sad stories, all the while tugging at that damn hairband. People wander past, but none even glance her way. She is alone, lost, forgotten. Her phone buzzes, waking her up from […]

I feel nothing for myself. No pity for all the pain. No hope that things will get better. No nothing. There is nothing inside me anymore telling me to live. There is nothing holding me back from saying bye to this world and the the people who live on it. Because the people that live on this world the ones who created me, the ones who see me everyday, the ones who say they are here for me, the ones that are supposed to care about me but don’t, make me not care either. It only seems right that if I feel nothing that I […]

its not the same but its getting more familiar and easier. its hard to forget the past when the past is so painful and still fresh. every time i see her i think of that one post. So i pack another bowl and take another hit to forget it. But i swear her words are burned into my brain. I wish i could tell her but i feel like i would break down and thats the last thing i need. I need to be fine but im afraid its getting bad again. 

Since I was seventeen I have suffered from an anxiety disorder so that’s four years now. It gets better then it gets worse. The constant up and down exhausts me so much. I have tried all types of treatments and I consider myself quite a worldly and wise person for my age. I have tried much self therapy and my own things to help with recovery but I have only gotten so far and fallen back in the hole that is my disorder. I have contemplated suicide numerous times but have never actually attempted it. I’m sick of it and I’m just tired so tired. […]

This Saturday, I’m going to a One Republic concert. I was really excited because I was bringing my best friend Kathrine and my other friend Morgan. Morgan and I used to be best friends, but she started ignoring me this year. In school, she would give me these short bullshit answers every time I tried to talk to her. We used to sit right next to each other, but she put two people between us. And then when we got home from school she would text me, acting as if she’d never done those things. So, I started ignoring her outside of school. She got […]

Is it wrong to leave suicde letters? Does it just make things worse when you are gone?

I do not understand why I keep coming back to this forum.. it is kind of morbid but its almost like being on this site makes me feel better when I get down. I read all these stories and they make me cry. But at the same time they give me some sort of comfort.

If this offends anyone. I do not mean to do so. Im only sharing my thoughts..

Going on here, I know I would never be able to commit suicide. I’m too much of a wimp to do it, and would only be able to do so purely on impulse depending on my mood and surroundings. But I still have suicidal thoughts. I don’t know why I’m here or what my purpose is for being here. I don’t belong anywhere. Ever since I was a child, I’ve felt like an outcast. I’ve never had a clique of friends I truly belonged to, and if there was, I wasn’t important enough to be invited to hang out, I was more the person they […]