They’ve called my father in for parents’ evening on wednesday. I know what will be happening there. They’ll make me look like a right fool and this teacher will break my trust and tell him about me wanting to die. He’s going to be so disappointed. I guess I’ll have to persuade him not to attend somehow. I am dead. I’ll get locked away because I’ll be considered a danger to myself.

I have never felt so trapped in myself… It doesn’t make sense to me. I’m the girl who won’t stop laughing and making silly jokes, everyone will laugh. I’m the girl who’ll save everyone from themselves and give them solutions for their problems, how can I not get out of this?
It’s been months, it’s been years and I’m still the same, I’m still stuck with myself… I’ve changed so many things and I wonder why these changes don’t seem to show.

My anxiety is up again… I’ve stopped eating which means I have to lie to everyone… I’ve started cutting again which means I have […]

I just finished formalities and now i’m fully pledge organ donor! After my death my organs will give other people’s chance to live..

But I wish I could donate my vessel (body) to someone else. I wish I could terminate my mind, my feelings, my thoughts but give my body to another who would love to use it. Someone who would take care of it much better than I have so far.. My body is of no use to me when I feel like this.

I don’t know how to start this.. I pretty much decided to make this to be able to vent about everything. My life is eating me up day  by day now.. It started when my dad had died. Suicide got to him. It was last year, January 7th. I know, I know, dude that was a year ago why are you finally talking about it? How about this- I didn’t have as much depression until now. Not many people understand how fucked up you can get from a suicide, bullying, and no one caring.. Everyone thinking that you’re fine. When in reality, you’re not. My mum […]

Singing… we all have to sing.. or cry.. it doesn’t matter because no one hears us.. well they do… no one bothers to even care.. people are so vain right?… I I I… ME ME ME… vain little bastards right… well… so are we.. we post about how shitty we feel…. and act like the norms don’t understand.. because they’re too occupied with other shit but.. sigh.. There’s no point of understanding.. I’M not even sure if this is even sounding right, I’M not even looking back on my words.. well.. because fuck it.. sigh.. WE’RE all feeling like shit.. and all WE want is […]

No.No.No.

Kill me, anybody.

Please.

I can’t do it anymore.

W cruelty such as these

Pushing people away is what I’m best at. They’ll be glad to hear of my death. I can’t stand the fact that everybody hates me.

I haven’t thought about methods. Maybe I should think about this. It needs to be a success.

I’m so upset

This is what happend today.I was walking home from school and I saw again that boy eho knows who I am,knows my name (I think…),but he doesn’t know that I like him.I’m just a shadow.And I wonder if there in this big and fake world is a boy who feels the same thing for me.A boy that feel his heart beating fast when he see me walking on the street.I don’t think so.There’s no one.I don’t wanna live this way.What am I supposed to do?I’m alone.

I saw her. She saw me. She ignored me. She’s sick of helping me. I get it. Now she’ll start avoiding me

All I keep hearing from people is ‘don’t do anything stupid.’ Suicide ISN’T stupid. I just want to die. Please don’t make this any harder than it already is. I think it’s time to cut.

Hi ya Kane here, I lost my mum when I was 3, she had bad asma, never new her, I got played around with as a kid and lost my verginity when I was 7 , got raped by my step mother age ten, after she sleeps with two guys, went two 18 primary schools be for heigh school, started living in youth accommodations / hostels age 13, I got hold of yello Asenoc, powder form, I mixed it with coffie and it taisted like rotten eggs, I started throwing up un controliby with in 10 mins, I wonted out so bad, still do, any […]

I am 53 years old, a professional, and one who for a long time has successfully supported my family.   Because of the economy my practice is suffering.  I don’t see any light at the end of the tunnel, and while my business is still solvent I have a sense that it will collapse soon.  I have been successful in my investments, and I am fortunate in that I have planned for my death.   I have life insurance policies and retirement accounts which would secure my family’s future. 

After all the time and effort in getting to where I am, I realize that this is really all that […]

I’ve been feeling vervy down uncool and worthless i feel like a piece of shit. Have you just ever felt so guilty the thing is I have so much drama in my life it makes me sick i mean and its not like i want drama idk whats wrong with me or why iam such a fucked up person my ex was right when id be all alone and i wouldent be able to love anyone else i am having such a hard time not talking to my ex and i want to give him space but its really hard Dose love just make things […]

I’ve been feeling vervy down uncool and worthless i feel like a piece of shit. Have you just ever felt so guilty the thing is I have so much drama in my life it makes me sick i mean and its not like i want drama idk whats wrong with me or why iam such a fucked up person my ex was right when id be all alone and i wouldent be able to love anyone else i am having such a hard time not talking to my ex and i want to give him space but its really hard Dose love just make things […]

Hi all
I hope everyone feels at least as well as I do.

Today was weird, really weird. Well, oha its hard for me to explain what I want. I must give it a try.

Hum…. Honestly I don’t know what I want to tell you.

In the afternoon I got those stomach ache’s I get from lovesickness. Maybe it’s because I spend the last 4 days a few hours with my love, yes the same person from last year.

I struggled hard with myself this afternoon. I was pretty much nearly crying, … I don’t know what happened. I thought I am okay, I am done with my […]

I know it is stupid to think that anyone i know will read this……

but, I really hope today is my last day.   I think hanging seems like the best way from what I have read.  

I wish better luck to the rest of you

i would post my whole story but im told it sounds like a lifetime movie and that i am not  telling the truth ….ill post it one day hopefully before i die …. 🙂