Hey, I’ really just looking for someone to talk to. I’m tired, an more than anything just don’t wanna be alone anymore. An I don’t mean it in a gay way… -.-‘
Me an people just don’t seem to click, but for god sake I don’t wanna be alone. An I truly know how much that sucks, an I don’t want anyone to be alone either.
He hardest thing to get to terms with is knowing there’s people as lonely as me, an I can’t help. I just don’t want anyone to be alone anymore. I just don’t.
Jkota

I have a story like everyone else. Not sure it would help though. So I’ll write about what may help someone?

I have been on a journey the past year and a half, and I have had some breakthroughs, though recovery comes in fits and spurts. Most recently I came across an author and teacher by the name of Marshall Rosenberg. He has a number of video presentations on utube.

He teaches about empathy and connections, and about feelings and needs. He thinks our culture has got things screwed up pretty bad because the system is one of domination and authority enforced by retribution. Everything is divided […]

I’m at that point where nothing matters. Where I don’t hear what people are telling me. I fucked up my friendship with my ex by not telling him something I want to. Every time I almost told him my chest felt like it was getting tighter it got harder to breath and the room started to spin. He knows I want to ask/tell him something and that I’m losing sleep over it but because I won’t tell him he is pissed off at me. I even told him what happened every time I almost told/asked him. My other ex who is one of my beat […]

Okay, so this is my first post on here. I don’t know how to work it that well so I decided to write a post of my own. I’ll just give you my life story? I don’t know..

I’m 14. My names Ashley. When I was around the age of four I watched my Dad abuse my Mom physically for around a year or two, they eventually had a divorce. The beating stopped and I lived a pretty normal life until the age of eleven. My mom began to hit me a lot more. Not for just “punishment” but also because to her, I’m a ” […]

I liked this site so much more last year. Much more…Idek. Something changed. And a lot of something.
I used to go here to get away from all the drama. Vent and have people around that actually understand. Even though I usually only lurked anyway. That damn shyness, can’t even talk to people when I know I’m anonymous, ha.
It’s just everyone seems so much more hostile lately.
Too much drama for me. I get enough of that in everyday life. :T

I finally have the trigger that makes me manic enough to not give a fuck. and now obviously the trains dont ride anymore.  why do i live in such a pathetic place. I should have been two hours early. Or 4 hours later.

Ok think fast: what other things do i have closeby that can make me kill myself. Do we have bleach in the house? No I dont think so.

I cant even take 1 pill and od-ing is so unlikely that its not even an option.

more options?  FUCK.i should be able to come up with more things.  why dont we have a high building i […]

The black ominous shadows loomed up and faded away as I ran through the halls of what seemed to be a dungeon.

Up a head a figure sat in a curled ball against the dingy wall, as I approached I saw her bruised eyeless face “ indulgeo quis is has perfectus tamen nunquam alieno “ it hissed at me.(forgive what she has done but never forget)

Spasm’s of pain racked my body as memories forced there way into my head.

My torso convulsed as more waves came upon me, worst than the next,its like standing on the bottom step and having throwing knives  hurled down stairs.

But no matter how […]

Finally the physical is matching the way I feel within. My car broke down shortly after a spinal injury followed by my computer breaking down so its hard to even be here. I’m dying whether by my own hand or just my will. It’s coming I can feel it deep in my bones its time to go all I have to do now is sleep and let the death take me. Good bye to all who loved me to all whom I love. Everything dies its just my time now. I’m dieing farewell.

take me way to a better place things havent been so great down here theres evil everywhere in the deep and darkest place and right in the light right infront of your face looking at you watching you as you look over your shlouder wondering when they will strick when they will take you away when they will make your life even worse then it already is… some people have an angel watching over them others have a demon making things worse for them every corner they take every move they make watching them as you sit there not kowning what to do next how […]

All of the beautiful lies.., all the empty promises.., ignorance and stupidity bringing me to lay in my mistakes. Unable to run,, nor hide. Suffocating in fear. Closing my eyes, unable to protect me or hold me tight. Tears rushing to satisfy my pain. The cut that wanted to make me forget.., only bringing more memories. Stuck in the past. Unsure of the future. Slipping through the cracks. Surviving but not living. Always miserable and never happy. Don’t worry little butterfly.., life gets better.

Seriously?

That’s what it comes down to?

For those of you who don’t know SP chat used to be a great place to vent, find friends, even be yourself. But the tides have changed. An influx of immature Moderators and Admins has made it a living hell. No one can get along when there is always a side to be chosen. The chat was closed TWICE last night. Whatever happened to talking it out?

When the chat closes you aren’t just making the people fighting angry you make EVERYBODY angry.  Oancu needs to learn to stop complaining all the time, and let someone else speak. Custard. STOP DEFENDING HER. […]

Hello folks,

I came here because I was really desperate and thinking to kill myself but something made me change my mind.

What?

I felt the injustice that others want to kill themselves, and the ONLY reason is despair, misfortune, violence and loneliness.
Not a deadly disease, not feeling dangerous for others.
No, just VICTIMS.

IS NOT FAIR! IS AN INJUSTICE

I would like, I want! to help everyone to stay alive AND have a better life. I have to do something for this.
IS ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY.

This give me the reason to live. I cannot find reasons to live just for myself, but I want to stop all this, and […]

Can someone just hit my face with something very hard for a couple of times?

I deserve pain.

I have lately been crying often due to the problems involving my family. It all started of when i hadn’t been talking to my dad for atleast 5 months.

Cause you see my parents are divorced and now i live with my mum and step-dad and siblings. Anyway, I didnt end up going on holiday with my dad. Kinda sad. Once the summer holidays i had sent him a message saying that im sorry but my phone didnt work so i had no contact with him and i told him that i now am back at home.

He hadn’t called or texted me .. i was getting […]

If you were to die out there in the battlefield…I would want you to know how I feel about you before you go…4 years is a long time and it could be longer…You were, are my hope…And kept me moving even when I felt I couldn’t go on anymore. “I may never walk again but I’ll be fine crawling…” “You won’t crawl forever! You will walk again!” Will I be able to walk once your gone?…I keep crying…tears rolling down my check! I don’t want you to leave…But, I have let you go in the past but of course that was only for a week […]

I’m like a paper man cut into pieces be my own pair of scissors, should i forgive her?

I love you, and i would die for you because… please tick

a) You’re the most kindest person ever
b) You’re so inspiring
c) Your beauty is incomparable to anything or anyone
d) Your presence gives me pins and needles in my neck
e) My heart speeds up when i see you
f) My mouth loses the ability to swallow or produce interesting sentences when I’m around you, yet you still put up with me
g) You always seem like you’re looking up at people and you show respect to people even though you’re far more superior than anyone in the whole world
h) Your wacky and weird in a wonderful way
k) […]

being hurt is possibly the worse feeling someone can ever get it feels like your being punished for the mastikes you made in life not knowing how much it could acturally hurt someone by saying the wrong thing or saying nothing at all being treated like your not there that noone can see you so noone can hurt you but that hurts more being treated like a pieced of trash that you can just throw away isnt how your suppost to make people feel everyone desreves to live life the way they want too and not give a care in the world but as the […]

Fooling everyone, telling them she’s having fun.

I really need one of those rooms they put the crazy people in when theyre not allowed to hurt themself. With those cushions on the wall.

I need to stop banging my head to the wall.

I wsh I knew how to act like a normal person.

Maybe I shouldnt wait till D-day. What is stopping me now? Nothing. No one.  I have no reason to not do it today. I have no reason to never do it. I have no reason to stay.

I wish I had a reason.

I know…it’s the right thing to do…but…I…CAN”T IMAGINE MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU! I’M NOT READY FOR YOU TO LEAVE…The army…If…I lose you…what am I going to do…I can hardly make a step without you for one day…what am I going to do for four years….It hurts…IT HURTS! Please…I’m so lonely…already…without you…I will be in pain…I will be shattered…My soul is but my heart will be too!…..This hurts…it hurts…I don’t want to lose you…I don’t want to lose you…