1) bf and i are back together..happy, yet really depressed that i took him back again-_-
2) i have been starving for 4 days I WANTED FOOD so i make a grilled cheese my dad catches me and says “what the fuck u think ur doing? ur ganna get so fat no guy will want u..u shouldve continued with fasting, it wouldve done good” and when i started crying “SHUT UP! ur being the biggest fucking baby! i didnt think id ever get a daughter this horrible” umm yeah:/ hes mean sometimes
3) i now have 100 new scars all over me

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I have every answer to heal the world to stop depression, to cure all illness, create eternal bliss an love in life!!

But I am only an intelligent slave, I can’t be a slave, it drives me crazy looking at how the world suffers for no reason. I was raised better then most. I got everything I ever asked for, but I rather die because I am not a one up person. I don’t want to have more then people, I want equality, I want love, I want happiness, I want FREEDOM FROM WORK, FORCED LABOR IS RIDICULOUS WITH MACHINES THAT CREATE ABUNDANCE WE CREATE SLAVERY […]

Nobodys going to be home tonight
When the silence gets too loud
When the dim light from the window
Becomes my only friend
Im feeling a little suicidal
Would you care to join me?
Ill bring the pills
You bring the gun
Itll be fun
Trust me

It’s raining harder than I’ve seen in 15 years. I’m sitting in my car facing the boat launch typing this on my phone. My stupid fucking phone that’s responsible for all the hell I’ve suffered  for 2 years. But we’ll get to that later.

Or maybe not… The engine is running, and I have it in gear with my left foot holding the clutch down. As soon as I release it, the engine wil engage, and 120 horses will drag me over that launch and into the waters of whatever-the-hell river this is. My foot is getting tired…

I took 8 sleeping pills which is more than […]

Everyone is such in a rush, doing there own thing…. No time for me, no care for me, to include me in anything. These strange beings called ‘people’ just judge and harm others constantly, they see one thing and think its another, they dont stop to understand anything and just hate… I’m sick of this hate and misunderstandings…

The biggest thing that’s bee completely ruined is gay people, they parade around and give a horrible message about what it is… Lust and sex? is that what they want people to think? Cause they’re doing a good job at beings total flaming faggots letting people think thats […]

I have a boyfriend. We’ve been going out for almost 9 months. NO, I’m not killing myself over him. I broke up with him today. I realized that I depend on him for everything. When I wake up in the morning before school I text him. During the day I’m always leaving class first so I can see him in passing period. When I get home I call him right away. I’m one of the least but busy persons out there. I never have anything to do. I barely have any friends, only the ones I talk to at school. But I never really […]

Everyone seems to hate me. No one wants to talk to that weird and annoying emo girl who sits in the front of the class.

I think I need to be heard. I’m not looking for any help or something like that; I just need that people shut up and let me talk.
Well, all this start with me when I was a child. My grandfather is a pedophile and he raped my cousin when she was eight. When I knew about it I start thinking about all the time I spend with that man when I was an innocent and weak girl. By the way, I knew about that because my cousin told me, no one else in my family was enough decent for telling me about it. In my family what […]

BEEN READING YOU ALL. WE R ALL THE SAME. 4 years ago my wife left me after 13 years. I am still so fucking devastated. i spent the first 2 years taking the pistol in and out of my mouth, untill i loaned it to a homeboy for some dope (been on methadone and heroin for 20 yrs) and never saw it again. my wife and i had cars, bikes, huge house cash but most of all i had her. she was my life. ive been shot , stabbed numerouse times, addicted, imprisoned, and no pain can ever compare to loosing my soal mate. after […]

Please don’t tell me not to do it.  I just want some information about suicide while jumping in front of a train. How do you actually do it, like just jump in front of the train or just stand on the rails and wait for the train to hit you? Is it painless? And what are the chances you succeed? Thanks -Crashhy x

i just want to end it all. i just want to cry and cut and bleed until there’s nothing left in me.

i have tryed commiting suicide 4 times but  none worked my parents know but they dont care , they want me to die they say i bring too much problems for them , i have tryed to talk to my friends but they told me just commit suicide so you can rest in peace i am only 16 years old and im already sick of my life , i used to live in newzealand which i loved then we moved to dubai i have no friends and everything is different . the most painfull thing is the guy i loved and cared about and would […]

Hello everyone,

I know everyone here likes a backstory so here it goes : I am contimplating suicide, and currently at college. I am 19 years old, and been having thoughts like this for awhile. Everything has seem to come to a head, and I don’t know how much longer I’d even like to move on. Before anyone says “Suicide is a solution to a temporary problem”, this statement proves false for me. My depression/OCD is a very permenant problem, one that I believe that I will live with all my  life.  I have tried counseling, medication, weed, alcohol, just about everything. Living with it is […]

Maybe that is why he left…he hates me like everyone else…he just expects me to be okay?after everything I told him and he told me?

Fuck you

You hurt me real good this time asshole

Maybe it is just fates cruel joke to do this to me

But it’s  whatever I should be used to stupid shit like this but it still cuts harder  every time………maybe one day I’ll move on with a few scars

Well with the way I just tore up my arms maybe a lot of scars

The past couple of days I’ve been really going on about this. I might just do it during the next days. My only worry is leaving things the best possible way for thos I leave behind, but the simple thought of finally going through with this is somewhat of a relief

I’m  not sure how much longer I can take this. How much longer I can allow myself to care.

I wish I was a robot with no feelings, then I wouldn’t feel like crap every time you do this to me. Then I wouldn’t forgive you afterwards.

Better yet I wish I never existed in the first place.  Would make things so much easier.

broke up with the love of my life six months ago even tho it has been a wile i miss her with all my heart she ended it in a cruel way through a txt message i think about here every day i wonder if sheas ok and all i want is to hold her again and hav her look at me with the love in her eyes she ust to i feel theres nuthing left for me and i no that alot of people say more fish in the sea but 2 me she was a prize marlen that ill never catch again just […]

I’ve just done it again. Lost my temper at something so insignificant that it shouldn’t matter. Basically what happened was my sister was complaining about how much her life sucks and that mum and dad are so horrible to her (trust me, they aren’t) and all that and I just lost it. It’s not even because I’m pissed at her saying it, I mean I did the same type of thing at her age, but I’m just so jealous. I’ve always been jealous of her, I mean why shouldn’t I be? She’s the popular, normal, pretty one that everyone wanted to be around and I […]

Today i took a Harley for a test drive, during the ride i felt one of those MEGA incredible farts brewing,( you know the feeling), so i leaned back and fully committed to knocking that sucker out of the ballpark, but followed through and comprehensively “shat myself’ …DOH !!!!!!!!!!!

Was assuming that hate is the polar opposite of love.