In about 8 hours I’ll be leaving for ontario.It’s only when I had finished packing that it strucked me…Not that I’m sad to leave the place where I lived for 15 years.More like that I won’t see the only person that understood me a bit again.I can see how painful it is to my father too.I feel a bit bad that ploting suicide without him knowing anything.I cried for about 30 min in the shower.I didn’t thought I still could.

When I get there,I decided to give myself a month.One month to look at my life and see if it get any better.If not,then I’ll […]

My first thought suicide was when I was really young about 8 years old I tried to slice my wrist open… I am now 14 years old and instead of trying to kill myself anymore I smoke weed to escape… Every now and then I still think of suicide but then I just go and smoke….

So my aunt has had custody of me for a few years now and at first it was just me and her until her husband came into the picture thats when things went bad… For years now there has been content arguing and many times were they almost got a divorce and all because of me.. It’s came to the point were enough is enough and they might get a divorce for real this time.. I feel that if I leave and go back with my dad then my. Aunt can save her marriage with me out of the picture… Should I leave or stay….idk […]

I created an account here to try and help me deal with All my problems.. I fell like this is. Place where I can let out all of my feelings and not be judged or put down… Plus I think it will be good to let all my emotions out instead of keeping it all bottled up….

what!? i swear, 5 minutes ago i was happy…smiling even! today was a good day!! now im fighting back crying??? im worse…now I WANNA FUCKIN DIE NOW?! dear geezus i just wanna be happy an d stay thhat way.. BUIT NO IT DOESNT WORK LIKE THAT!? im sick of this…ok so what if i die? ha im sure my bf wouldnt mind. im sure my family as hell would NOT care, so why dont i just leave. NO SHUT THE FUCK UP! i have to be happy. sorry but bipolar wont let me but only on rare occasions, ugh. this makes everything so much harder. […]

Hi Everyone,

I came here as it seems to be my last hope.  I have been dealing with depression for 5 years and just found out I have been diagnosed with Bipolar Manic Depression.  For the first 3 years, it was pretty easy compared to everything I’m going through now.  I only thought of suicide, but never attempted.  Then, I started to attempt and wound up in the hospital twice from it.  Well 2 months ago, my fiancee broke up with me and I was devastated.  I seeked therapy and was getting hope from my ex-fiancee that we would get back together.  1 1/2 months later, […]

I have had the idea on my mind since I was like 12 (I’m 33 now). The things that always kept me from going were the same as any one else’s (i guess): hurting those I leave behind, to fail the attempt, going painfully or scared. I mean, most of the ways of doing this succesfully are either extreme, violent, creepy or too painful. I know it sounds like I’m the afraid one, and maybe that’s partly it, but also, I can’t get off my mind the fact that someone will find me, and someone will tell my people how i went, so it’s already […]

I just found this site. I’ve been looking for a place where I can talk about wishing for death without everyone jumping on me and talking about the wonders of life.

I hope I found it.

What would you do if you told someone that you tried to overdose on a medicine and they just tell you that next time to just take the right amount… and you kept letting them know that you tried to overdose and they tell you to take the medicine because it would be good for you even though you just took way too much of it?

Ive had a crappy day ,I don’t know how much longer I can stand this.

These are songs that explains what I been going through and how I deal with it:

1. Earlyrise-Narcissistic Cannibal

2. Avril Lavigne- Alice(Underground)

What’s your song?

If i dont fal asleep, im problibly gonna make another attemp to die

Bad things happen. I am aware of that, for some of them i was responsible,some had to happen sooner or later ( I guess because we had to learn a lesson), and some are just tragic consequences of reality which is a cover for “caused by other people”.

I don’t feel suicidal i am not even mad, the emotions are exchanging quickly one  replacing the other. These last few hours i am acting like i am already dead,not paying any attention to the world around me.
What happened was not my fault,it can’t be. But i can say one thing, this experience taught me a great […]

yes i wanna die no i probably wont die idk what to think, everything else on top it all. makes me cray. today: good day. BUT IM SICK OF BEING IGNORED BY MY BF! idk what to say or do anymore. i think i might just stay a while longer..i just wish i had my bf by my side..

I Keep waiting, for something to come up or change everything. I’m done. I just want to feel free.To end up all this pain. I just don’t know if it worth waiting this long. Im just wanting to end this. I don’t know what else to do. I have stayed here for so long, just because I  thought I had something else to hold on. Something else to do. Someone else to make happy.
I just feel so lost. I really don’t have any idea of who I’m right NOW. Holding my life on my hands, cuz is just a matter or a second that […]

So here i am sitting in my closet curled up crying… my family doesn’t see that i’m suffering and they don’t care because they think their problems are more valuable than me and my life. i am at the lowest point in my life and i have been here for a while… everytime i think i can’t feel any worse… something happens and i’m even lower than i was before.

Im 23 and homeless with no friends or family or money..cant work. Ive been wanting to just die necause my existance is completely worthless. I really wish i had a normal life so i dont kill myself or have somebody do it for me but its not. Im not interested in hearing how i shouldnt or go to some kind of institution because i wont. Im asking for an angel, or miracle. Is there anyone who will sincerely help me out of the kindness of heart. All ive encountered has been selfishness and uncaring people including my own mother. I need financial, mental and emotional […]

I think I see things. Like people, who aren’t there, or shadows that quickly go past me. Or i will think my mum is coming up the stairs and go ‘Hey mum’ To ask her something and nobody will be there. Then I will see a shadow. It doesn’t creep me out. If anything it makes me curious. But I want to know, am i normal? Should this be happening?

Also, I have depression

Fucking assholes

Just be fucking honest.

OMFG!!!

I swear I am getting more and more pissed off.

Errands = Busy with other friends.

Fuck you fuckers, just fucking tell me the truth.

And say that you don’t want to hang out with me anymore.

Once again,

I fucking get it.

I have had enough, gotta love sleeping pills and sleep cuz thats all i do