Hi i’m Dylan,I’ve been cutting and buring myself for 3 years and my family beatsme. I came on this site to find people who have the same problems and talk….. I’m not always on here but if they let me you guys that want to talk to me if you have a phone text me at 1-760-508-4060….

you told me you had feelings for me the  first time you saw me, you told me i was beautiful, amazing, and that i was to good for you. you told me you were going to break up with your girlfriend for me. you did after we hung out one day then you begged for her to come back. you told me you would do anything to be with me or see me. when we would talk all of my problems would go away, i cared about your feelings more than my own. why did you leave me here all alone. it’s been […]

I had a couple handfulls of cigarette butts and loose change thrown at me today from a pickup truck.
They were all screaming ‘******!’.

I hate my face.

I don’t know what I did wrong, but I have no friends to talk to.

I don’y fit into anyone’s clique in highschool so I’ve just taken to skipping and getting high all the time.

I’m pretty sure weed and music are the only things keeping me alive because I never eat anymore.

My life has no purpose, I’ve missed work again today and I’ll probably be fired.

I know how to tie a noose and I have a support beam to hang it.

Any comments […]

I have been sort of wrestling with myself for a couple of weeks over if I can kill myself.

I know exactly what I would do, and have concluded the best time both symbolically and practically and that is 3.08 am.

~ some history~

From around the age of about 14 I have continuly overdosed and poisoned myself, mainly because I wanted to die slowly and in pain. About 2 months ago I lost my job, attempted a more serious method of suicide, survived, was released, went out and was sexually assaulted, funny enough it was in the aftermath of that, when I got sectioned. I was safe […]

I genuinely can’t deal with this shit any more. I planned out how when and where a long time ago, I bought all the things I needed at the same time as well ready for when I’d finally had enough of dealing with the shit that is my life! So this is goodbye and a message to say that I hope you all find what you are looking for

So you know how i did the butterfly project a few months ago? well, i’ve created a website/blog for people who want to tell their butterfly project story and share pictures. so yeahhhhhh.

http://butterflyprojects.wordpress.com/

I must say: I’m tired of being alone. I want a friend. A real friend.  I want to care about that person. I want to smile whatever I see her/him. I want to be happy with him/her.

I have only one friend. She ignores me right now and I have no idea why. I want to make her happy and I’m always trying to be a good friend. I think I just can’t be a good friend. I’m egoist. I love myself way to much… Maybe what’s why she hates me? how can I show her that I care for her???

Hi…I’m kenzie…
-my uncle commited suicide
-3 of my closest friends want to commit suicide
-my dad verbally abuses me all of the time
-my mom is always out working
-popular kids at my school laugh at me behind my back
-nobody cares unless they need something from me
-my kind nature gets taken advantage of
-I’m told that I’m worthless
-nobody believes I can reach my dream
-most people don’t think I’m that pretty
-sometimes I sit in my room and cry
-my grandparents are mean to me because I have pretty tan skin
-nobody cares how I feel
-I’ve been told to kill […]

Soo…I heard that some people missed me..and I want you to know..I’m okay, everything is good. So if anyone wants to talk…I’ll listen. How is everyone doing? I’m pretty sure I can help…(:

I’ve been wondering how people take their minds of what they are feeling, and those thoughts of worthlessness and pain. My own personal ways are punching and beating my legs, in order to leave bruising which hurts to touch, as well as excessive chain smoking. I used to drink a lot but due to my job I can’t really any more which sucks and cutting had to stop as well for the same reason. So how do others take themselves away from the pain and the thoughts in their heads?

but I cant people will tell you your insane
They are the crazy ones… only crazy people can live on this planet and prosper
I…HATE….OTHER PEOPLE

they talk and talk and talk about the most absolutely fucking retarded things and yet I listen
and when I speak they are deaf…. FUCKING deaf. and I cant take it anymore
I wish they would just outright tell me what they find SO wrong about me… i try to be “normal” act cool and stuff …friendly even. yet they are scared I can sense their fear ….fear and pity….pity and malice.

maybe I am insane (would an insane person know […]

Well, I guess I have proven that I am a waste and a fuck up.   Even when I try to help – I just fuck everything up.   Well no more.  

I am SORRY for upsetting anyone of you on this site.   It is a good site with good people.   I have 5 minutes before my lunch break.   I will NOT return.   Ever.

This will be the first thing I have done right in years.   Cya on the other side.

Wow! I sincerely sympathize with all the folks whose stories I’ve read on this site. With all the pain and suffering in this world I guess I just never considered this particular genre (the only term that came to mind.) Pain and suffering, like beauty, is in the mind of the beholder.
I too am planning to end my life soon but not because of depression or disease. Well, I guess I do have a terminal disease. It’s called old age. I consider it a preemptive strike. I feel the effects of old age creeping up on me and I will decide when and how […]

hi there.. can anybdy help me.. i really wanna end up my life.
m jus tired of livin in dis shit. i love a guy but he doesnt really
care.. i have no nothing to live for..

Unfortunately.

I spent the entire summer not getting a job like I told everyone I would. I can’t get a job because of my anxieties. School is starting back, and I haven’t registered. I just found out I have a hold on my school account that prevents me from registering (due to having a ridiculously low GPA), anyway. Just walked out of my adviser’s office and he didn’t even bother to tell me I had the hold on my account, so I must make another appointment with him. Driving out there just makes me want to smash my car into something.

Lately my suicidal thoughts have been creeping back. […]

Random Reminiscing , cos’ I let mom read the instructions..

(just like the bubble gum components being molded by our mouth, exchanging places to nowhere )

My clothes, school books, mags, and other toys for big men were designated to be inherited by my close relatives. I really thought she would be happy when she realizes my breathing identity is about to disappear from this lively planet, instead she scolded me, saying I had to help my brothers raise their family. So I wondered again, Am I really just the one selfish? or does it just runs in the family? Nah, we were programmed both from our […]

I can’t get out of the house to get alcohol but have about 150 pills altogether. I have a very disabling, chronic physical condition that renders me in 24/7 severe pain and distress. I can’t be helped and living is not an option. I have suffered too long like this and need it end for mine and my family’s sake. Please advise only if you can guide me if it will work. I have had counselling and hospital visits to no avail. My pain never ends and need to know if this will definately work. Thank you.

I know a lot of people will respond with […]

Sure we may not to be able to access to the weapons, or be forced to go and fight, but that doesn’t change the fact that we do. We viciously attack each other in many shapes and forms. Bullying, rape and assault are just some of the extreme ways that some people use to do this. The figures we look up to are the same. Sure they teach us all their good traits and beliefs and aren’t forcing children to kill each other, but it is like Paul says in the book All Quite on the Western Front; “They were suppose to be the ones […]

3 months!!! 3 fucking months since I’ve bruised myself… And i broke it RAWR RAWR RAWR

I’m thinking about starting to cut to see if it will help release the pain like it used to. I used to do it like over 10 yrs ago… I’m sooo much older now. I always think only teenagers do it (not to put down anyone) but I’ve been thinking about starting it back up lately just to see if it helps. Does it really help? The pain has been getting really bad again… been thinking about going thru with suicide and using helium to accomplish this… but gotta make sure a few things are in order first.