well, its been a year today since i have started feeling suicidal and depressed, i wanted to end it so bad teh other day but for some reason i want to keep holding on, i dont know y people r posting valentines day greeting on this cite, there is nothing ot love about the world or the people in the wirld, we are a hopeless and pathetic race andi cant wait for the world to end on december 21st. i have a valentine but only because i didnt want to say no and hurt him. i am sad and depressed as ever… but something is […]
HeHe What Fun! Today my brother saw me jump of a 50 story rooftop what he did not see was me pulling my parachute! And I am sorry for the post he made, he thought I was dead. Only  he thought I was dead, I told my family! Oh hehe, I do love pulling pranks. It is the last thing i Can love in this world. Though my death date is still March 14th :(. And today is the worst, i was going to ask my now dead girlfriend to marry me! I thought it would be so romantic to ask her to marry me […]
Dear world, it is truly lovely to be alive today on this day of love. I couldn’t be happier because of these amazing people around me.
You all made my day, and my life. Because i don’t want to be a alive, but I DO, for all of you. Because i love you all.
Happy Valentines Day, Family, Friends, Past Lovers, Present Lovers. Everyone, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY.
Sorry, I’ve been away. I am alive. I won’t be around much, I’ve got a lot of fixing myself to do, I lost the one thing that kept me sane.
Everyone dies.. but not everyone truly lives.
“If a person were to awake from a dream in which he experienced a hundred years of happiness, and another were to awake from a dream in which he had experienced but a brief moment of happiness,
Once awake, the situation would be the same for both because neither could ever return to that happiness.
In the same way, whether our life is long or short, at the time of death everything ends just […]
For what is love? You will think i’m cynical, but aren’t we all. For me love is bitter and twisted, it plays cruel sick jokes on you. It give’s you something you have wanted all your life and then it rips it away from you. I say this because I have been in eternal bliss of love and have it ripped away from me by death. Love, you bitter, twisted, cruel, sick, kind genourous person are horrible and lovely at the same time. You are kind and funny, but cruel and bitter. For you, Love, You are sweet on the outside, but sour and bitter […]
hi all, just registered here hopeful for some sound advice.
basically my father died when i was 2 and my mother when i was 9. this  has left me with an empty feeling that i cant just seem to fill. i have no sense of belonging in this world, where i come from or why i am the way i am. i know noone else who has been through this and so just feel so alone. ive tried explaing it to my gf but she wont get it, and my friends ultimatley dont care (why should they? its not their problem, they have their own shit […]
I had surgery two weeks ago after car crash and they used cadaver, a dead person’s body parts to keep me going. This totally freaks me out. Try getting that thought out of your head!
How great would it be if we had a legal suicide assist shop like Starbucks on every street corner?
What do you want me to tell you people? i just dont like myself and who would like me for what i do? who would like a lier?  in general i dont like my body, the way i dress, the way i take desisions, my whole way of  thinking, the way i talk, laugh, act … thats preatty much everything right? ive got parents that dont want me to look the way i want to take desisions or even speak up… im supposed to be a doll right? is that the way life is going? to shutup and listen and obey?  also people cant have […]
Let’s cut to the chase… no one really cares. Yesterday I asked my friend, the only one who knows how badly I want to die, how he’d feel if I told him that I was going away and never returning… never contacting him again. I’m not about to whine to you because my girlfriend stabbed me in the back or because I never got the pony my poor ass family could never buy me… actually, in most ways, I have it pretty ‘together’ and most people who “know” me wouldn’t get that I’ve wanted my life to end every day for the past 11+ years. […]
Hi People! Again its me! no joke… i dont write that often x)
anyways! this night, high again but this time on speed… thinking about some things ive done
today for a change i went to my moms place to see her (ya she kicked me out umm.. 1 month ago) so yaa i went to see her to pick clothes and my guitar and also talk and mayb arrange things… abviously she talked to me in a bitchy way this made me FUCKING angry i tried to calm down but i started replying back in a stupide way to joke around (btw i was […]
What part of the day, night or weekend do you fear or hate the most? …for me its the first part of the night because I don’t sleep and my mind spins out of control
I am 12, almost 13. I wish i could have a normal, happy life. I just got out of an eating disorder treatment center, like 2 weeks ago. I still have to go back there for family therapy and doctors appointments and today, after i did my vitals(peeing in a cup and being weighed) they found something in my urine that was the first sign of starvation. And they said my weight has been dropping. I hate my life. I hate the way i look, i am so fat and ugly. I want to be skinny. I want to go to school online. I want […]
It’s been a while sine I even thought of this place.A guy I know was helping me and I was happy,I was even smiling and laughing.It felt so good because it’s been a while since I’ve done either of the two.But then he just ignored me and brushed me off.Later,he apologized and said he was having a hard week,but it was too late.He has been saying sorry for a long time now. It’d too late though,I have put my mask back up and have no intention to let go.
Hello Again,
I haven’t been here in a while, or maybe I have. I’m having issues telling how much time has passed. But same as always, I still want to kill myself (no shit sherlock). Something new though is my ability to be incredibly happy one minute and holy shit kill me now the next. Something old is cutting but it’s much worse then when I started last year. I’ve stopped cutting but once again I could not tell you for how long because I apparently can not tell you if it’s been a day or a week that has gone by. I think it’s […]
People always tell me suicide is most selfish act anyone can do to Thier loved ones, but they never think how selfish it is of them to make someone go through hell just to keep thier feelings safe, if that makes sense.
I’m not necessarily talking about myself, but there are people with mental disorders or really bad problems that suicide is thier only way out. like schizophrenia for example, even though I believe it is not the only way out but it’s a choice.
I’ve just been reading yall’s stories for the past couple of days and let me just say my story is NOTHING compared […]
I’ve been struggling for so long.
I’ve battled self harm for almost a year now. I can’t stop.
My parents found out, but they don’t know the truth and don’t know how bad it is.
I feel so alone.
I’ve attempted suicide three times. Three fucking times.
None of my friends ask me how I’m doing. Not even my boyfriend asks me anymore.
I’m so alone here. I’m so scared for what I can do to myself.
If I pick up that razor again, I’m afraid I’ll go too deep, cutting something important.
But the sick thing is, I want to.
I do badly want […]
Every day I must face the life of harshness, so cruelly given to me. Every day. And every day, as of late, does my desire for death increase. Now, I have posted on this site before. A horrible post, much like this one, but still. A post. And now, I lay here, in my bed, thoughts of freedom from this life filling my head. I am 14 years old. I have survived 2 suicide attempts. Am I happy about this? Of course not. Why would I be? It would be so much better if I had died back then, when my 3 closest friends still […]
My name is Joe, I live in England and I am training to be a hairdresser. I started my training two months ago, I am 19 years old.
I’ll be honest with you my life so far has not been easy, like the majority of people in this world I’ve faced issues and encountered problems which has hurt me, which is fine bad things happen. I was bullied at school, people made fun of my physical appearance a lot, and I didn’t fit in with the popular crowd. I hanged out with the more geeky group, and didn’t mind it, I got on well, but as time went […]