Hello Again,
I haven’t been here in a while, or maybe I have. I’m having issues telling how much time has passed. But same as always, I still want to kill myself (no shit sherlock). Something new though is my ability to be incredibly happy one minute and holy shit kill me now the next. Something old is cutting but it’s much worse then when I started last year. I’ve stopped cutting but once again I could not tell you for how long because I apparently can not tell you if it’s been a day or a week that has gone by. I think it’s been a month since I last cut. I was reading some of my old posts and noticed a lot of comments you guys left that I’d never seen before. While reading my posts it made me kind of ashamed that I would post such things. I’m kind of a whiny little annoying ***** when it comes to posts. Sorry.
Thanks for reading,
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To be straight up…I can’t diagnose or w/e. Possibly bipolarism? Then again maybe not. It’s funny though that I know exactly what you mean. I was severely depressed…then things started to get better and I could finally be happy. But…it would never last. The smallest thing could tip it off and then back comes that freaking depression like herpes (no I don’t have it, was a joke from “two and a half men”). Now…I’m just awake…can’t sleep…exhausted from life. I am literally stuck…both mentally and physically. Not to bother you with my shit but I think you are making progress :). At least I was until of recent. It’s always like 2 steps forward and 1.99999999999 step back. It kinda sucks but I believe in you and hope you are successful. Good luck :). (Why is it so much easier to try to help someone else but so difficult to make progress myself…..this sucks)