growing up I had such I hopes of what the world had in store for me, but now that I am about to turn 19 I find myself not wanting to know whats going to happen next in my life. I can’t find anything in this world worth being happy about. The only way you are truly like in this world is if your pretty. Well I am fat and ugly and ya people can try and argue and say “only whats on the inside counts” bull shit. you try telling that to a little girl who’s self asteam as been lowered so much she […]

People think I’m such a happy positive person, and part of me is, but I don’t ever let them see the rest.  Sometimes it’s so hard to hold it together until I can get home and be alone.

I try so hard to pretend to be a real person.  Someone who matters, someone who’s not…broken.  And I’m less broken than I used to be;  I am.  I did that myself, I got through some stuff.  But it’s just not enough.  I don’t know if it ever will be.

I used to think that someday everything would just be okay, somehow.  Now…I find it hard to believe that […]

I feel trapped in my own misery.
I can’t connect with new people.
I fear any form of commitment.
I haven’t dated since I ended a perfectly good relationship 2 years ago.
I tried once but it didn’t work out and that took whatever dating energy I had out of me. I probably would have tanked that relationship too. I don’t know why.

I’m a narcissist and it’s apparently quite obvious.
When I try to relate to people, I either sound like I’m bragging or I come off as entirely boring.
I don’t want to get another “job”.
I feel stuck in jobs, then I get […]

Feel hopeless. Was with him for 6 months, not that long really, but oh boy did I fall in love with him. That feeling where I’d lie in bed feeling so content and warm just thinking about him, even better when he’d lie next to me. But then things changed and his ex came back into the picture, and he broke it, he broke my heart for her. and it hurts more than I can write down. I know he feels terrible, he has told me enough times but I can’t cope- i miss him so much. so I turned to cutting. and it felt […]

I feel alone dark and completly gone from everything. I want to be gone. im only 15 i shouldnt be this way i should be having fun and not thinking this way. it feels like the only option. why cant i just be gone and way from everyone just take me away. i dont want to be here. no one cares. i have the best fiance every but i just wanna be gone!!!!!!!!!!

Hello it’s me again. Today was a drag. My entire family hated my attitude of happy. No matter what don’t forget that who you are is who you should be! No matter what anyone says! Love, xLifelessx

so this past month ive been thinkin of killing myself,i just feeel like nobody likes me, everybody calls me a whore,ugly,&fat…I have one close friend tht I telll everything too, i just dont know where to go from here,@ this young of age i shouldnt be thinkin this way, my mom hates me , my dads always out of town, im stuck in my room alll day,icry everynight , my mom dosnt care about me, i have no where to go & i dont know what to do with myself, everyone is so mean to me! I need help:(

I don’t  know if this is the right thing to write on this site. Probably not, but gonna do it anyway 🙂 .

Any Evanescence fans? If so, what do you think about them and about their ‘almost’ new album.

I personaly love them from my heart. Perhaps their biggest fan .

Didn’t kill myself. So.
Just wanted to let people know.
But I’m not coming back.
And I might be dead one day yet.
But probably not.
I’m sorry.

Do you ever smile, just because you want to brighten someone else’s day? I do. I smile at random people at the grocery store. I smile at people in the halls at school. I smile at people I don’t even know all the time. And you know what, smiles are contagious. 99% of the time, the random person I’m smiling at smiles back. I try to smile at everyone, because I never know what battle they are facing. You never know who desperately needs reassurance, and a smile gives a person that. One smile. One smile has so much power. It can make a person’s […]

i met my boyfriend  at work in march 2007.  i was heavily attracted to him.  he showed me around the workplace so i spent my whole shift with him.  he bought me lunch, was a complete gentleman and at one point he took me to his locker to give me his jacket.  i felt him lean towards me to kiss me but being an extremely shy person, i thought it was just wishful thinking on my part so i didn’t respond.  i was married at the time with a son and decided to do the right thing of talking about my family to dissuade him […]

Wow, I haven’t been this down in so long.

I know it’s wrong, but I read my sister’s diary. I mean, who could honestly say they wouldn’t be tempted if she wasn’t home and her diary was lying right there…

She wrote that she wants nothing to do with me.. and that I drive her insane..

My parents call me a brat and selfish and all of that shit.

I just don’t want to be here.

what do u do when your not meant to be happy, when your told since the day u were born that you caused your mother pain, im all grown up now and iim still the reason she cries at night, itz my fault shes sick, it my fault shes in pain, she even told me iim her hell on this earth, maybe if im not here she wont suffer anymore

I keep a very brave face on. I’m an easy-going person, and most people take me for what they see. Someone who is generally happy, who knows who they are and accepts everything they are as well. And for the times they see me, that’s generally true. The more people I’m around, the more confident I tend to be. The biggest problems they think I have is a lack of sleep, and I put a lot of effort into helping them think that. Someone at work messed up, a harmless mistake, and they were talking about whether I was mad or not. Everyone immediately said […]

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So…every one at school and at home, etc. known me as a bright girl, very playful and just happy. But…i am not. I have been bullied since 2nd grade just because i was so bigger than everyone else. People used me just for my money and turned their backs on me. I had been in love with someone for 5 years and everyone also made fun of me because of that. In the 6th grade i moved to a new school and thought everything was going to be fine. But no. I was also […]