It’s been three years since my parents got separated. It was because of my sister… in that year she started to be rebellious and acted wildly. she went home always late at night and sometimes she was so drunk that she could barely walk. My mom also notice she lost respect to our dad and confronts her for that. My sis talk back to my mom shouting that she doesn’t need a father like him and she would never respect that man again…(she used to call our dad a demon since then) my mom was so shock after hearing that and she told me to […]
I was twelve when I wanted to die more than I had ever though possible.
Seventh grade and a kid has a lot to live for yet I felt like I should have been the one in the urn that day.
Aunt’s Funeral, Uncle’s lap… long story short he felt me up, right then and there
during his wife’s funeral.
My mom didn’t believe me
Another knot in the noose, one out of many and because of countless events that happened four years after that it all tangled up around my bruised and bleeding throat. I had officially hit the burning pile and i was dragging myself to be on top […]
hey everyone.
i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.
there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.
the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.
if you’d like to talk about Him or […]
i am here alone in the dark…
i try to shout for help
but no one hears me…
i try to reach out my hand
but nobody holds it…
so i am here still alone in the dark…
I’m a grade nine student from Canada, and I found this website when I Googled suicide on the anniversary of my suicide (today). It has offically been two years since I attempted suicide and I can remember it like it was yesterday. I can only hope that someone can learn from my story.
My parents have been divorced from my sixth birthday and they’ve always been civil (at least in person), but around the time of That Day, they had been badmouthing the other parent right in front of my face and making me choose sides. It got so bad that at one point, my step-father […]
So alone that it’s no longer a feeling
It’s a presence
Following you everywhere
Eyes glazed over with apathy
Tape on a plastic smile
You’ve got everyone fooled
Your only friend is what’s inside
He’s overstayed his welcome
Echos those thoughts over and over
You’re disconnection goes unnoticed
You have no one that cares
It’s just you and the darkness
You’ve never much liked them anyway
Solitude isn’t so bad
The constant numb becomes soothing
All you want is everyone gone
To hear them all scream
As loud as you have been all this time
Then silence can take over
You’ll truly be alone
Let your dark out
well.. i think the best start would be saying that i am loosing my faith or i have lost my faith…
i am an ambitious person and i want to travel the world when I’m still young and i want to do so many things but it’s just a dream and will always be a dream. Yeah I’m a dreamer and i can’t help it. The fact that I’m living a wasted life makes me feel like dying..
back in my childhood days, i thought our family was perfect. We’re not reach or poor either, we’re on the middle and we’re living a simple and […]
Yesterday, November 17th, was exactly one year that I really tried commiting suicide. So many times between then and now, I have tried it~but never gone through with it completly.
Lastnight, I was going to finally finish the job once I returned home. To my dismay, my mother and brother were there~I hadn’t expected that. Due to them being home, I didn’t do it. But I did collect all the medicine in the house before going to spend the night with a friend.
If my mother and brother weren’t home, I’d have finally ended it.
If my friend hadn’t agreed to spend the night and today with […]
when the sky is grey
and the days are long
the birds do not whistle
my life is all wrong
when the rain keeps on falling
down on my head
i lose all my hope
i want to be dead
but i never give up
i always keep trying
to live this harsh life
even though i am dying
there is only one thing
that motivates me
that helps me to smile
it lets me be free
to do what i want
everyday
because nothing else matters now
anyway
it gives me a reason
it gives me a cause
i hope that this feeling
is […]
Mommy Mommy, Cant you see?
What this pain did to me?
Close my eyes, Forever to sleep
To rest in my full eternity
At the age of 15
I got tired and I got weak
It would be to late, Once you found me
Already gone. Already Asleep.
I have no answers. I dont know why
Or how I ended up with the wings to fly
No certain day, no suspected time
To leave you my dear, worth no good-byes
We dont understand.
Until, once in the promise land
Who would of thought of me? I tried…
To keep from going through Suicide.
My dear, Stand clear from the […]
Im not sure if im suicidal or just depressed its happing more offen now the headaches the tears the breaking shit ig i can say that i have tried to before but i can never go threw with it i have done the pills but threw them back up have had the gun but could not do it i dont know what im going to do any more i just want someone like me 2 talk to to help get me threw this someone that will understand me
ps i dont need a doctor phil
I’m losing it, can’t hold it. No more. This feeling of pain, that’s what I wish I didn’t feld, but how can you not feel it when it’s basically what you have everfelt? My friends don’t have any idea about this hurt, this pain killing me, my family just gets it worst. My mask is falling, my faking mask is falling appart, I’ll keep smiling for them, even if tears come out too, I’ll keep smiling and say they’re happy tears. Life it’s not wonderful, neither grateful, just the opposite. Breathing gets harder everytime, just as faking, but I can stop breathing. Maybe just […]
hey everyone.
i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.
there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.
the only way things fall away from goodness is because of a lack of God. so basically what i’m trying to say is that if you really want to make your life and yourself better, you need Him, and you need Him more than just an hour a week.
if you’d like to talk about Him or […]
I just found out that our posts in The Suicide Project, are public for who search something on Google.
I searched my name on google, and in one of my entries (of the TSuicideP) was my e-mail, and my e-mail contains my name, and what happened? I found, on google, my entry, with my e-mail.
If my dad saw this, i would be pretty fucked.
The problem was just the e-mail, that contains my name. If you put an e-mail, it has to be an unknown e-mail, without your name.
Be careful.
I dont think they show our usernames or something like this.
Bye
I think its safe to say that I’m not a normal teenager. I don’t know if normal teenagers are hypersensitive like I am. I don’t think normal teenagers wish for some freak accident to come along and kill them. I’m pretty sure normal teenagers enjoy their youth and want to live. But we have established that I am not a normal teenager.
When you look at my life you can say I have it pretty well. I have a caring family. My grades are average. I have friends. These things would make anyone else happy.
But I am not happy. 🙁
I am on an anti-depressant and […]
I have a funny story. I guess it’s funny to someone like me, anyway. But I had planned on dying today. And as it turns out, my wallet was stolen. The only pills I have are Tylenol, which would make me suffer a horribly painful death if I lived because they would make my liver shut down over the course of a week-ish. I could cut my wrist, but I’m afraid I would panic, call someone, and then get shipped to some nuthouse. But this wasn’t the funny part…
…I’m in college, and I’ve spent $7,000 in student loans on this semester alone. I’ve gotten myself […]
He broke up with me 5 months ago, for very selfish reasons. I’m trying my best to forgive, forget and start anew…but it’s been painful. When he left, he took away all my hopes and dreams with him…and now I’m trying to hang on with everything I have for the sake of my family and friends.
I’ve had insomnia ever since. I can’t sleep except when I take sleeping aids and drink alcohol. And when I wake up in the morning, I wake up anxious, with a constant question ringing in my head : Why am I still here?
I never thought I would be one of […]
GOD IS REAL – http://media.causes.com/564010?p_id=99131565
Wanting to die makes talking hard. I don’t know how else to talk but through ink on paper. In the meantime, I’m almost hoping someone will find me out soon. I keep dropping hints to the thing I can’t come out and say, but… I just don’t know how much longer I can take this. I love the suicide project… Whether people care or not, they’re reading. At least for the moment, that’s enough for me.
To paint a picture of my heart tonight,
I’m trying to find the words to write,
That will tell the story behind the scars,
But all I have is this […]
I dont know what’s inside
Unaware of all that’s outside
All that’s left is the other side
Is it my time?
Fearful of the inside
Detached from the outside
All that’s clear is the other side
Stop me this time
Screaming on the inside
Forever silenced outside
Hiding from the other side
Will they find me this time?
Darkness from the inside
Tore apart my outside
Took me to the other side
There’s no such thing as time.