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I’m Tired

by Danny 3/24/2015

written by Danny

Things like these are always hard to type aren’t they? Or maybe I’m just awkward, heh.

My name is Daniel, but I tend to go by Danny. I’m 17 years old about to turn 18 in May but I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t want to keep living. Why? That’ s a hard question to answer and I don’t want to bore you with stories but I’ve become really tired. Many think that 17 years isn’t long at all but in my eyes it’s like a century, not that I’m calling people older than me ridiculously old but that’s just how I feel , ya know?

I’ve […]

3/24/2015 7 comments

How?

by hellblau 3/18/2015

written by hellblau

Remember when I asked if
I should do it? Well, I did. I sent him a message, I said happy birthday, have a great day, wish you the best, hope you’re doing fine, may the force be always with you blah blah… And so far he didn’t answer. I guess that’s my sign.

Tomorrow is my birthday, well, in a couple of hours, so I don’t know, I don’t have that excitement I felt when I was 18, that was the last time I felt excited about my birthday. Ever since all has been plain, simple, the feeling of “whatever” and it’s sad. I don’t […]

3/18/2015 1 comment

i hate my life

by beautifuldisasterx3 3/10/2015

written by beautifuldisasterx3

I just turned 23 years old and im a Girl. and i have suicidal thoughts on and off for years. I believe it started in high school. It all began from my dad. He wis an alcoholic and bi polar and did steroids and a manic depressant etc. He didnt take his medicine for bi polar. My nightmare Of a life began in middle but it got really bad when i was about 15. He would get drunk and go in my room and lock me in there with him while he would get in my face, lay on top of me, throw me on […]

3/10/2015 4 comments

Suicide question

by ahannah123 2/3/2015

written by ahannah123

I have only a plastic bag and a razor blade I was planning to wait till I’m 18 and get a shotgun would you put the gun in your mouth?

2/3/2015 15 comments

18 years

by skylarkpro 1/21/2015

written by skylarkpro

the last time I posted on here was when I was 16. Really thought I wouldn’t have to come back

1/21/2015 1 comment

can I trust him?

by wannabedeadcat05 1/3/2015

written by wannabedeadcat05

I want to throw myself off a building but I have a daughter, poor thing shouldn’t be in this wretched world but I was forced to have her (I’m 18 btw), and I know I should leave her with her father but i don’t even know anymore. He doesn’t have a job, his mother takes care of him, his father doesn’t accept the child, my boyfriend is a druggy with manic depression, lazy, and I just don’t know… Help?

1/3/2015 1 comment

Suicide date

by cant.fixme 11/15/2014

written by cant.fixme

Last year i decided to have a suicide date but i couldn’t really decide then i made a list, a list of thing i have and haven;t done and i have a lot of things i haven’t done and that list became like a bucket list for me, the title “Things before my suicide date”. The date i never really had a date all i knew is that i would wait till i’m 18 and that maybe by then things will be great, so i’m really hopping that things get great by then but if it doesn’t i already know what to do, it’s like […]

11/15/2014 0 comment

Fuck i’m young

by cant.fixme 11/15/2014

written by cant.fixme

am i the only person here under 18??

11/15/2014 8 comments

all of my friends…

by pxckll 11/13/2014

written by pxckll

i have none… no friends… not a single one that i can talk to or go hang out with regularly… my friends that i use to have dont speak to me anymore… 4 of them are dead… 2 died by suicide. 1 by heart failure. and 1 by motorcycle accident… im all alone… ive never really been a social person… i dont know how to make friends. im out of school and living with my careless bf and his family… im 18 years worth of nothingness… almost 19… *sigh* i fucking hate everybody i know… i wish to know someone else…

11/13/2014 1 comment

I hate myself

by angelamarie 11/12/2014

written by angelamarie

Ever since I was little I dealt with a tumultuous relationship between my mom, my dad and my brothers. I’ve been abused my whole life. I use sex as a way to feel loved. I’ve had over 15 sex partners and I’m not even 18. I hate my brother most of all. He rubs his achievements in my face like he’s better than me. He makes fun of me cuz I had to stay back my freshman year of high school. I do recreational drugs to numb how I feel. But sometimes, I just want to die. I don’t want to feel anything anymore and […]

11/12/2014 4 comments

College isn’t how I pictured it

by Isabella 10/3/2014

written by Isabella

Here I am, sitting here in my dorm with the light out. The sun is going down, soon there will only be darkness in my room. There is a concert going on and if I go, I will have a panic attack.

I don’t have a roommate because we didn’t get along. Who am I able to get along with? I really want to know. Every social situation has my stomach in knots. My palms saturated in sweat. My stomach a mess.

I have never felt truly suicidal until I came to college. I’ve dealt with depression since I was about 12 or 13, but turning 18 […]

10/3/2014 4 comments

Jaded

by griefparty 9/27/2014

written by griefparty

I’ve been depressed for almost eight years now, since my dad passed away. I have 18 days to plan exactly how to kill myself on the 15th of October, which is my dad’s death anniversary.

So far, my options are getting a tank of helium and using that, getting out of the country and buying ******** or simply throwing myself off a building.

Fuck, it’s also such a ***** planning your own funeral. I’m atheist and I need to leave clear instructions so no one tries to give me a religious procession.

Do people kill themselves because life is too overwhelming? Because, personally, I find it completely underwhelming. […]

9/27/2014 3 comments

I can’t do this anymore.

by bringmedeath 9/26/2014

written by bringmedeath

So I turn 18 tomorrow. And I promised myself that I wouldn’t turn 18 like this. I told myself that the fucked-up version of me would not live to see 18. Yet here I am, about to turn 18 the same depressed, lonely, self-destructive wreck that I’ve always been.

How could I have been so stupid to think that everything was going to change by just wishing? I would do anything to feel happiness. To feel love. To feel anything but this pain. But I feel like I physically can’t do anything about it.

I wish I had a gun. My life is such a mess that I can’t […]

9/26/2014 4 comments

What if I’m a bad mom?

by girlwiththetrinketbox 9/7/2014

written by girlwiththetrinketbox

I’m only 18. I shouldn’t be so worried about this. Why can’t I stop thinking about this? I’m so afraid that I’ll mess up when I do have a kid. I’m afraid that I’ll neglect it. I’m afraid I’ll care more about myself than I do my child. I’m afraid that my child will love its babysitter more than it’s mother. I’m afraid I’ll lead the child down a path it was never meant for. I’m afraid I won’t be the mother I could or should be. But it’s more than that. I’m afraid I won’t be able to have a child. I’m afraid I’m […]

9/7/2014 1 comment

Is Something Wrong With Me?

by aeroghost 9/1/2014

written by aeroghost

Basically, this is how it goes. My life has been pretty traumatic thus far. (Loosing my grandparents at age 10, my first girlfriend commiting suicide at 18, seeing so much violence) that kind of stuff.

Since then, I’ve felt myself growing slowly and slowly more numb, feeling less and less everyday. I don’t think love exists anymore, I’ve lost my faith and I just survive day to day basically.

To top this all off, I haven’t had much happiness to counter this. My family is sub par at best, never offering support. (By the way, I survived after my girlfriend killing herself without any professional help or […]

9/1/2014 4 comments

I’m a major fuck up and deserve to die

by nojncohere 8/5/2014

written by nojncohere

I like this guy. He broke up with his girlfriend for me and for some other reasons. Their relationship had gone on for roughly 18 months. See just last night I thought, you know I’ll be honest with her, so I told her that I liked him and that I was so sorry. We had a row. I’d just like to point out me and this girl were close. I hate myself. I fucked up a relationship, a friendship and everything happy in my life. I don’t deserve to be happy because this girl loves this guy. But he likes me and I like him.

This […]

8/5/2014 6 comments

Same old same old

by cheeseball 8/2/2014

written by cheeseball

I guess it’s a bit different. People can get along. But will I ever do the same?

What makes one sane? A bunch of standardised tests for differentiated individuals?

Disorganised and depressed thoughts for the last 4 years. And I’m not even 18.

Maybe I just had a rough day. But, I’ll never be able to talk to y’all the same way.

Sorry for wasting your time. I just felt the need to turn to someone/something. Cause I have a bad tendency to turn to self abuse when I feel low or disappointed or mad at myself.

8/2/2014 4 comments

Fucking life

by wanderlustnebula 7/29/2014

written by wanderlustnebula

I hate my life right now and the fact that my mother is always on my back isn’t helping me. ”get a job” ”pick your ass up and go outside” ”you lazy ass” ”what are you afraid of, people??” ”why’d you quit college in the first place for ?? ” ”it isn’t that hard” ”quit the drama”

Well you know what ?? FUCK. YOU. you selfish, ignorant, mean *****. she has been depressed, she should know better than to treat me like that. I am so anxious about turning 18 next month, and her comments aren’t making things easier for me. I KNOW i need a […]

7/29/2014 2 comments

no escape

by noescape49 7/14/2014

written by noescape49

I have no idea why I feel so down all the time, why? My mum used to say when I was upset it was my age between 12 and 16 now I am 18 and I can’t seem to get out of this constant feeling of depression. I have attempted suicide in silly ways that didn’t even come close to working.. Then I for a while used to cut myself but in all honesty I think that was just a cry for help hoping somebody would notice as I was to scared to open up about my feelings to anyone. From when I turned 16 […]

7/14/2014 0 comment

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