7 Pm. Last Monday.
I took 25 Vicodin pills and a glass of vodka.
I said goodbye to everybody, and then I felt guilty. My first thought was like I’m doing this because I just feel like I can’t do this anymore. I cried a lot. Wrote a few letters and then I don’t know what really happened next.
When I woke up, I was puking all over the hospital, I remember my mom crying and she told me: You have to survive because I have no one left. A few hours later, I found myself in this white lonely room, and I have vomit […]
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2 years
So I’ve been with this guys for almost 2 years. He’s a great guy and we used to be inseparable, but it’s becoming clear that we’re not meant for each other and have nothing in common. However he knows about my depression and my previous suicide attempt so I think that’s the reason he hasn’t broken up with me. I plan to leave the world next week (have surefire method) so I’m debating whether or not I should breakup with him first. Thoughts?
I think it’s time to go and die. well I had good times in this life but my last 2 years were like hell and I just want to die and release all the pressure that I feel . I know this is the wrong choice but the only one. actually I want to suicide just to tell them my pain I don’t want to die. wish me good luck and I love you all and thank you very much
I lost my mom (almost) 2 years ago and ever since then every thing about me has changed. I withdraw further and further in and have no interest in staying connected. I feel trapped… I have 4 kids and I couldn’t do that to them. I have thrown myself into my kids activities just to keep busy and my mind silent.
The busy schedule also helps me have an excuse to not hang out with friends. My family, friends and boyfriend think I have an aversion to fun now. It’s not that I do, it’s that I just don’t feel joy anymore. How am I supposed […]
i’ve been thru so much shit in my life i wouldn’t even know where to begin
then what happens? life throws chronic pain at me…yay! now i’m sitting here wanting to die and in agonizing pain
i’ve had this pain for 2 years now and it’s getting worse every day
the funny thing is that i was suicidal way before i got this pain…now i’m even more suicidal than i was before, which i didn’t think was possible
ughhhhhhh please just KILL ME NOW!!! i fucking HATE my life…
About two years ago, I started to realize that I was feeling very different. Being only 13, I didn’t really understand my feelings. I stayed locked up in my room when I wasn’t at school. I didn’t really talk to anyone. I wasn’t happy with my friends and I felt completely alone. I finally told my older sister that I was feeling “different” and she urged me to tell my parents but I didn’t have the guts too. I wrote them a letter explaining to them that I thought I was depressed and I wanted to go see a therapist. My parents quickly went to […]
Hi im 20 and ive benn doing weed for like 6 years or 7 i tryed once to commit suicide but i was not ready ive benn doing ither drugs to but ive been doing weed every day for the last 2 years and qhile im high i think my self dying couz i cant stand my family problems and what my parents do to my brothers too and im just a fucking punk who likes to sell weed drugs and have knifes so i think very strong a way put by giving an end couz im at my limits cant stand this thing anymore.
I always asked my self this question (why do people change???) but I never found an answer for it. I found so many people changed in my life some are my friends and even my mom had changed these few 2 years maybe even I changed and I didn’t realized that. there are some positive changes but most people if they changed they change into the negative side . when I use to be a kid I use to come back from school and I find my mom baked for me a cake and I sit to drink my milk with the cake but now […]
I’m so scared right now… I’m starting to get enough balls to actually commit suicide. 2 years ago I would never think I would cut myself, but I have. For the past two days I’ve been using a cord and putting it around my neck and choking myself. I take medication for depression but nothing seems to be working at all. I just want to die SOO bad. I feel like that’s what I am looking forward to. I feel like my boyfriend doesn’t want to talk to me anymore about this. I know I’m pushing him away… I just want to go.
Well this is kinda weird being back here after 2 years.. I can say that things do get better if you just wait it out but thats not really the reason ive returned (if ya catch my drift). Things DO get better with time but things can also get so much worse, hence why im back. For me, well, things were great.. then everything went to shit all at the same time. How much worse, you ask? Well:
I’m a female-to-male transgendered senior in high school
I get bullied in school because i decided to come out to people i supposedly “trust”
My mom is moving 400 miles […]
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