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36 Days

by filmg1rl 3/25/2016

written by filmg1rl

That’s what I’ve decided to give myself. I’ve got until the end of April to turn things around or I’m calling it quits.

I haven’t had any significant work in 8 months now and while I’m still waiting to hear back about a couple longer term contracts, I’m completely out of money so if I don’t get these, I can’t go on living. I can’t even just go get a regular Joe job either because of my physical disability.

So that’s it. End of this month I’m giving notice for my place and all of April is basically going to be an Everything Must Go Fire sale. […]

3/25/2016 2 comments

Scared

by skittish 2/4/2016

written by skittish

My boyfriend physically hurt me during a fight a couple days ago and ever since I don’t feel safe around him. I’m 8 months pregnant and I’m thinking at this point the best option for us both is for me to just do it. I’m planning on doing it Monday I just keep getting sad about how my dad will take it and my therapist… I thought I had finally found a reason to live and to be happy I survived my first attempt 8 years ago… Only to have it shattered. I am going to write my goodbye letters this weekend. I wish I […]

2/4/2016 5 comments

I just wanted to say…! I’m making progress

by tiredthoughts 12/30/2015

written by tiredthoughts

I started getting involved in things I do love. I hung out with family today, even though I didnt want to. I tried being nice, also I didn’t want to. I’m applying to jobs, reading and talking about the walking dead books and show.. And doing things I love. I watched tv. Again. I like the show fargo. About to watch homeland. And I’m figuratively and literally putting one foot in front of the other.. Even though it hurts. I’m always going to try bettering myself.. I hate that it took 8 months to cope and maybe more.. But I’m trying and it does feel […]

12/30/2015 15 comments

I’m writing this…

by tiredthoughts 12/29/2015

written by tiredthoughts

I’ve been considering dying for awhile now like 8 months. Since I got let go by a girl that made it seem like it would work. I’m still hung up on it, i was told I did nothing wrong blah blah. But I never stopped believing or even, I never had let go of it. For months of self sabotage and begging and pleading respectfully. I got nothing but a “I don’t care, it was nothing” to her. Although everything to me. I self sabotaged, cried and sought out everything. Really the ppl of sp is all that ever helped. But I lived with it […]

12/29/2015 26 comments

Finally nothing to live for

by theanonymouschild1997 12/7/2015

written by theanonymouschild1997

Today Im on lunch and i get a picture message on instagram from an ex showing my gf on her exs page. Earlier saturday I brought up the fact she hasnt been talking to me for a while as she has been. we used to call every night and until saturday we barely called once a week so i knew something was up. then the last pic showed her on oovoo with her ex when she stated she hated oovoo. for 8 months we dated i spent about 700 dollars on her(I calculated) for her to leave me for a “gangsta”. I told the guy […]

12/7/2015 3 comments

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by heartless 12/3/2015

written by heartless

I’m drunk so if any of this is kind of drunk sounding… lol
I spent the last 8 months planning it. Now someone I thought was gone is back in my life. Kind of, anyway. Don’t know what I should do. I set everything up. I made sure everything would be as hard as possible to fix and get put back together in my life so I couldn’t chicken out. Even if I an turn it around, what would be the point? Is there even a point to life, or a place in it for someone so screwed up?

12/3/2015 0 comment

Any of yall watch those Ricardo Lopez (Bjork Stalker) suicide videos?

by wndozh8er 8/9/2015

written by wndozh8er

its famous, liveleak.com released all his videos. It’s about a 21 year old dude that’s so obsessed with Bjork that he documents 8 months of his life to his plan. He builds a bomb, sends it to her address, than comes back and shoots himself on camera. It was back in 1996

8/9/2015 3 comments

Wish I wasn’t a wussy

by dataspy 7/8/2015

written by dataspy

I contracted an STD from an ex about 8 months ago (always use a condom, even for blowjobs!), it’s chronic pain in my dick among other things. The doctors are no help and I’m having trouble sleeping! I’ve also had severe anxiety and depression most of my life, on the positive side my family is not too bad. Grew up in a nice house, family vacations, blah blah blah, but what I wanted most that I never received was love! I mean I got some love but I feel like they didn’t want to exert the effort, I guess I can blame that on both […]

7/8/2015 0 comment

It’s all over

by disgusting 6/3/2015

written by disgusting

My job is going under, so I’m out of a job. I’m homeless already and can’t pay to stay anywhere now. I’m disabled too but they say I’m perfectly fine so that I can’t so much as get a disabled bus pass. I have been promised full time with benefits for the last 8 months and now they are going out of business. And my love is begging for a place to stay too, and I had hoped so much to be able to get my own place so he could stay with me. I know he’ll never be mine and now what can I […]

6/3/2015 0 comment

Ideas?

by effystonem 2/23/2015

written by effystonem

Last summer, I was at a camp and one day I was really upset. My friends kept knocking on my door but I didn’t answer because I didn’t want to speak with them. After about 10 minutes, the counselor came knocking and I opened the door. To sum things up about the 6 hours after that, they thought I was attempting to kill myself. It was 6 hours of interviews, crying and honestly, a lot of people thought I had died. I told them people had misinterpreted the things I wrote in my notebook, the things I said and this one event. They believed me. […]

2/23/2015 1 comment

First post

by CosmicWind 2/12/2015

written by CosmicWind

I made an account last night…Im not really sure what say.

I’ve been battling chronic depression since I was 14 I’m 24 now. I attempted suicide my first time when I was 18, and again at age 23. I was given one glorious opportunity at peace about 8 months ago, leaving this world with someone, someone that took all the pain way. I can’t go more then two days without wishing I would have just said yes.

2/12/2015 5 comments

You’ll never see this, and I’ll never tell you.

by IndianaRed 1/20/2015

written by IndianaRed

27 weeks. I was gone for 27 weeks. And you were the closest thing I had to home.

Granted I didn’t know you for 10 of those, but hey training has this way of flinging the unexpected in your face. More often then not, it’s a hot steamy pile of crud… but not you. I remember walking through the hall past the other platoon females room while you unpacked your duffle. I remember thinking to myself how beautiful the lines in you shoulders were. How the cut of your jaw was strong and masculine yet soft and feminine. you were the most beautiful creature I had […]

1/20/2015 0 comment

Lost mother

by qge32 1/5/2015

written by qge32

My life has truly been a rollercoster these past few months. Ups and downs left and right ….. I wish I could see where my future would take me to see if its even worth all of this constant heartache. Every time i take one step forward I feel like I take 5 steps back…. I had a child with who I thought was the love of my life, he was cheated and lied to the most with in the first 3 months of being pregnant …. I decided to take a chance and leave him to look for a happier life…. That has lead […]

1/5/2015 2 comments

Giving Up

by fallenangle21299 11/12/2014

written by fallenangle21299

It has been over 8 months since my last suicide attempt. I was finally some what a happy person, but now I just don’t think I can do it anymore. I know I’m a teenager and I’m obviously going to get upset but my suicidal thoughts have never been this bad. The pain that I feel inside is starting to become unbearable where I have started cutting myself with razors again. I thought if I started cutting again the pain would go away a little bit but shocker it didn’t. I bet we’ve all been here, thinking about life and how different it would be if we were gone, wondering if […]

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11/12/2014 5 comments

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IVE BEEN GOING DOWN HILL OVER 3 YEARS NOW BUT RAPIDLY SINCE YESTERDAY

by owlpal 10/28/2014

written by owlpal

Where do i start eh?

I am 48 yrs old, married to my gorgeous wife Victoria. we got married in 2006, we’ve had our ups and downs liek all couples do and we have come through it because i thought we were strong.

I had major back surgery in 2011 that failed now i have disc degenerative disease throughout my spine and survive my days on large amounts of morphine just to get me walking.

My Mother passed away in Nov 2012 and i felt a part of me died too, my Father died in 2007 the day before my Birthday and that is crippling me big time. […]

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10/28/2014 5 comments

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