My life has truly been a rollercoster these past few months. Ups and downs left and right ….. I wish I could see where my future would take me to see if its even worth all of this constant heartache. Every time i take one step forward I feel like I take 5 steps back…. I had a child with who I thought was the love of my life, he was cheated and lied to the most with in the first 3 months of being pregnant …. I decided to take a chance and leave him to look for a happier life…. That has lead me into a deeper depression … Within a month he had a new gf and disappeared from my life …. I had a hard pregnancy alone, always seeing couple together was so hard on me. Now that my son is 8 months old ,,, I’m still single jobless living at my parents house …. I seem to be playing by men, thinking that they may take me serious … I have a bachelors degree and can’t get any job possible ! I’ve tried to pray but I wonder if anyone is even listening … I’m so lost in life I feel I just want to give up
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I’m sorry life is so hard. I know what you mean when you say you want to know that the journey is worth the pain you are going through. ((((((Lost Mother))))) I would hug you in person if I could. Please know YOU are worth the journey. Keep going. You have dear son to help. I know that doesn’t make up for feeling as you do. Truly.
Listen to yourself. Listen to your pain and have compassion for yourself. Be kind. When you feel the frustration, tell yourself what you might tell another person, a good friend who was facing hard times.
I am learning to be kind to myself. Oh! Sometimes! But to be a bit kinder in your words and deeds towards you is something you can do. Even a little at a time.
Best wishes to you.
No matter how hard life is, you can always look deep in your sons arms and know you will overcome any obstacle that’s placed in your path. You are a strong woman just in knowing you’re raising him all alone. Your son is your reason for living. Things will get better in time or as I say, things must get better.