I don’t know how all you europeans feel about it here but we can hardly get any guns in europe. It would seem so simple to shoot myself in the head with a 9mm, then again, I wouldn’t want my family to find me. It’s one of the two choices I have been thinking about, shooting or inert gas. If I would travel to the usa, could i get a gun as a foreigner or is that quite difficult?
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The weather is beautiful, either hemisphere. I don’t understand, but there are many things I do not understand.
I’ve been in 4 armed robberies, and I won every time. Why? It would have been so much easier if I could have lost.
My best friend and I were both going for a big bucks cab ride, and I won, I got the $200 ride. The consolation prize was a fellow with a 9mm in his pocket who simply wanted to become a member of the Aryan Brotherhood, and needed to commit a crime to get into prison so he could join. A little 16 year old kid, […]
Ok so I posted a little poem I wrote on here called Wake Up Call. I wrote it quite a while ago actually, but I didn’t know how I could make it work. How was I supposed to end my life in a way that woke people up? But thanks to a stroke of luck, that problem has been solved, so I decided to post the poem. And I decided to put up some backstory here: Very recently I went to an old friend’s house. His uncle was in town and he had brought his key to a gun safe they keep at my friend’s […]
Every day I hope that something can happen to make this easier for me. On my way to work, can someone run a red light and hit my car, can I just not wake up, can something out of my control happen, to just get me out of here. I don’t want to be here, and I haven’t for about a year. All these people who die in accidents, who are murdered, who just DIE… and here I am. Nothing…
I’ve been cutting for almost 10 years… I’m 24 years old, with the same habits I had in high school… it was never a ‘I want […]
I realized I could kill myself at a young age. When I grew older, I realized that being suicidal brought attention. Even more older, I realized being suicidal would eventually alienate people. Eventually I realized, My feelings of suicide, were real, and instead of providing help, people would rather compare and challenge my problems with theirs, just to justify they were a bit more troubled than I was. I suppose that’s how my friends justified ignoring me.
I found that when my “symptoms” didn’t fit textbook examples of typical suicidal people, that psychiatrists started shortening my visits, yet still wrote out prescriptions. I found that only […]