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Alcoholic

First Time Here

by bigrod369 3/22/2018

written by bigrod369

I don’t really know whats wrong with me. I’m always fucking up. I can’t control myself. I don’t even know why I’m writing this, i just want to let it all out.

I’m only 21 years old and I already fucked up my entire life. Everyone around me tried to help me, but I was too stupid to listen. I thought I had it all figured out. I thought life was a game. I thought I didn’t need anyone. Now I realize how stupid I was.

Now everyone has left me. They don’t care anymore. I took them for granted. My father doesn’t talk to me anymore. […]

3/22/2018 4 comments

Having alot of trouble not pulling the trigger right now…

by BrokenArrow 4/1/2015

written by BrokenArrow

I know I’ve lost perspective. I’m in so much pain. I feel so hopeless and alone that I thought I might try posting the Reader’s Digest version of my story. I don’t know what I’m looking for. I just want to stop hurting.

I met my ex-girlfriend 5 years ago. We instantly started falling for each other. We both tried to fight it. But neither of us was able to. She said I was everything she wanted that she never even knew she was looking for. I told her that being with her made me so happy that I had difficulty thinking about anything but her. […]

4/1/2015 2 comments

I just want to end it all.

by diamond1473 6/10/2013

written by diamond1473

all my life , I’ve been that fat girl, the ugly girl. The girl noone wants to be around. Okay . I’ve had my fights and stuff but I just still don’t get why nooone has ever liked me. I’ve had ftoends and boufroends but I always find out what they really think of me.. its always my personality .. Im numb.. all I do sometimes is cry. My dad used to be an alcoholic now my mom is an abusive alcoholic.. my first love is now gay.. Im 17 years old.. I weigh 200 pounds. I have acne all over my face and body […]

6/10/2013 4 comments

I’ve had enuff and iv tried and failed night forever

by i hate everything 7/27/2012

written by i hate everything

Well this is it the end of the line for me at only 15 year old and I can’t naturally smile or laff I’m now an alcoholic and a drug abuser messed up and I hear voices in my head so I am going to end it before I turn into a phsycho ***** and kill someone if I kill me then it won’t be a big deal I have no family or friends will anyone realise I’m dead I don’t know and don’t care I have got to the point where I don’t care if I live or die it will feel the same […]

7/27/2012 2 comments

Im new and i need help

by Kelsey Nichole 7/14/2012

written by Kelsey Nichole

Im 21 years old and have attempted suicide 5 times. I was sexuallyÂ and physically abused growing up by my alcoholicÂ dad and emotionally and mentally abused by my mom. Â I have been raped more times than i can count by more than 7 diferent people all belonging to the same group of friends. I got pregnant by one of them and that made me more depressed but then i became to welcome the fact that i would have someone i could love and would be loved back. at 21 and a half weeks on July 17, 2011Â i gave birth to a stillbornÂ 5 ounce baby girlÂ who was […]

7/14/2012 3 comments

Alcoholic

by David 6/12/2012

written by David

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I’m sixteen and i’m an alcoholic already at my age. My town isn’t exactly big on morals so getting a hold of it isn’t a problem

But… I think alcohol saved my life.

If i wasn’t drunk every evening, I believe I would not be here today. I firmly believe I would have killed myself long ago.

I am so disillusioned with the world and the only time I don’t care about who or what i hate and why or how much I hate it is when i feel so inebriated.

I guess i’m just wondering how healthy this is mentally? It’s obvious it isn’t good for my […]

6/12/2012 4 comments

Lost my reason for living

by soulmeetsbody 5/31/2012

written by soulmeetsbody

It’s almost been a year now. A year since I pushed the only person out of my life who made life worth living. Since then I’ve become an alcoholic, abandoned my personal morals regarding premarital sex, am stuck in a relationship that I don’t know how to get out of, and have become even more depressed then I thought I could be.
Meanwhile my closest companion has gone off to better herself spiritually and with an education, and is apparently now in a relationship. Hopefully the person she is with now doesn’t hurt her as badly as I did.
I don’t know if I have […]

5/31/2012 2 comments

This is my story…

by yourfriend82 5/26/2012

written by yourfriend82

I’m 29, almost 30.

You could say, I’ve lived half my life.

I spent most of it depressed and thinking of ways to end my life…but little did I know, that I was destined for something great and amazing.

I’m not trying to tell you what to do, but I am telling you that there IS hope, and better days are around the bend.

I never knew my real father, my mother is an alcoholic, and I pratically raise five of my siblings from the time I was eight years old. I was molested twice, neither person was charged or convicted, so you could say my mother failed to […]

5/26/2012 111 comments

I’m a Fictional Character

by chronometrico 3/30/2012

written by chronometrico

I tried to kill myself two nights ago. Not seriously, I suppose.

I got preposterously drunk and slit my wrists. But I woke up, and now I’m not so sure if I’m alive or not.

This is a test, sort of. A form of existential validation, my fingerprint against the window.

So don’t say that you love me. Don’t hold me.

I’m an alcoholic. I’m lonely as fuck. I don’t have a job. I barely have a mind.

My mum tried to drown me in the bath when I was a kid. My dad left when I was six. But I’ve never seen war, I’ve never lost a limb or […]

3/30/2012 2 comments

please i beg of you please.

by pluto660 2/12/2012

written by pluto660

Iâ€™m in a very desperate position. I want to kill myself someone please help me, I have no one to talk to. I wear this mask to hide my pain but as a result no one knows me and I feel so alone all the time, I have no one. My parents are well were abusive drunks but now since Iâ€™m old enough to protect myself they think they can but my love with shiny objects. I hate them, I hate most people, and Iâ€™m filled with pain and confusion. I cut my self daily Iâ€™m an alcoholic and Iâ€™m only 17 years old. I […]

2/12/2012 8 comments

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by xnoname 4/20/2009

written by xnoname

have you been taken advantage of by every person youve met
have you been nice followed the rules and yet , still gotten in stupid trouble all of the time
have you been physically abusedÂ as a child on a daily basis but lied to afterwards
the police would come too often after you getten chased around your house, yet what a good family life my ass
abused mentally too , every day of your life,
was your father a drug addict, alcoholic and drug dealer?
Did you have no friends , and been alone in your head since you were young enough to crawl

4/20/2009 3 comments