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My Invisible Family.

by Good Adjective 8/24/2014

written by Good Adjective

My Invisible Family. My Fallen Foes

Crammed into a room with no corners, no ceiling, no floor.

There was nothing but us, scared, blind and ready for war.

It was the last time I saw Shannon, my long lost twin sister.

She was sexy and sensitive and smart,

but I was swifter.

The last time I saw Josh, my long lost twin brother.

He was brave and bright and brought joy to all,

but I was tougher.

I am the hero knight sperm who rescued my imprisoned princess egg but I am also said damsel in distress who waited […]

8/24/2014 4 comments

Yesterday I was arrested on the GG bridge for a suicide attempt. I was there. I had it. The motivation was there. My leg started to climb up over the railing. Then I saw the police coming. Now this was REALLY it. I could either just use my other leg and take the leap, or go back the other way and let the cops take me into custody. Unfortunately, I’m still here which means I succumbed to the arms of two policeman.

To those who haven’t seen it, the view is incredible. Such a serene feeling knowing that you could take your life right then and […]

8/22/2014 8 comments

by Namelessqueer 8/21/2014

written by Namelessqueer

Feeling overwhelmed, meds are working perhaps but not really. I don’t believe in meds, I’ll take em so i feel like I’m doing something but moving has helped. I’m in my own place now. nervous at the cost, nervous at the waste of space that it is to be in a one bedroom or for me to exist. Anxious that i will fail, always on the verge, always begging for death to pre-empt that so that folks can smile and admire how hard i worked and not how hard i fell. Nerves getting the best of me. I can’t focus, don’t want to focus. I’m […]

8/21/2014 1 comment

To Whomever May Understand

by depressednihilist95 8/21/2014

written by depressednihilist95

It seems like all of my life has been predetermined, as if my thoughts and actions are actually beyond my control. It’s like existing without really existing. It sucks because no matter what I do, I feel that I am not doing it. I sometimes feel like life is just a movie with sentience included. That’s depressing, because all of the pain that I feel is much like an illusion. Perhaps I’m not feeling pain, but I am experiencing a set of physiochemical processes taking place that make me think that I am feeling something, when ultimately, I am no more alive than a rock. […]

8/21/2014 4 comments

“No more…..”

by PeelASquid 8/18/2014

written by PeelASquid

World doesn’t care,

About this life you bear.

Dead or alive,

It’s the evil who thrive.

No room for the good,

No room for the best.

No heart that beats,

Inside my chest.

All love gone,

All hope lost.

The game of life,

Too high of a cost.

Time to pay dues,

My plan I will use.

Go out on the sea,

No more of me.

8/18/2014 2 comments

Poem

by apple21 8/15/2014

written by apple21

The darkness is death – we can speak, but we are not heard. We can scream but they turn their backs. We can run, but we cannot catch them. It is the dream where arms and legs won’t work they way they should, and the air is too thick to breathe. Loved ones walk a mile ahead, forgetting to stop as we fall behind. This is the reality of the darkness. We are buried alive inside ourselves. ”
– Dana-Christene Umanetz

8/15/2014 1 comment

Carmen

by tctc 8/12/2014

written by tctc

“Baby’s all dressed up with nowhere to go
That’s the little story of the girl you know
Relying on the kindness of strangers
Tying cherry knots, smiling, doing party favors
Put your red dress on, put your lipstick on
Sing your song, song, now the camera’s on
And you’re alive again”

8/12/2014 0 comment

La Finale, I Can’t Cry

by Bisban 8/8/2014

written by Bisban

Armitage
Tonight I became
The eternal
Morlock

My tale
Fated
As if
Written

I went
Bitten
Never
Coming

My wings
One day
I will cry
Again

Archangel
Michael
Has come
For me

I hope
We shall fare
Our escape
Pray to well

The undead
The journey
Is to the
The afterlife

If you can cry
You are alive
Only crystal
Will farewell

Until the next
Thousand year
I will see you
Again

Ten is freedom

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=An9j2MPN24Q

8/8/2014 0 comment

enter new life hear take sword forget life for a week

by why i dont no 8/5/2014

written by why i dont no

my littel joke has always been i tick the remember me box when i sine in cos that way at least some one will its a sham that its becomeing more and more true iv just come back from a larp event a place were NO ONE GIVES A SHIT WHO YOU ARE OR WHATS WRONG WITH YOU AS LONG AS YOUR UP FOR FIGHTING RP AND DRINKING AS LONG AS YOUR A NERD OR A GEEK AND AS LONG AS YOUR NOT A DICK UP FOR A LAUGH AT EVREY AVALABUL TIME YOU ARE COOL non of them give a shit about my spelling or […]

8/5/2014 0 comment

Misery

by darkseraph777 8/3/2014

written by darkseraph777

Take a look around don’t you see it?
See that you are the only real face in the room
No one here has a clue what you’re feeling
Don’t feel bad keep your sadness alive

Look at all these happy people
Living their lives
Look at all these plastic people
There’s nothing inside
Look at all these shallow people
Telling their lies
Look at all these empty people, people

Don’t you know that misery loves company
Yeah I heard, the misery was looking for me
Happiness is a face that don’t look good on me
Yeah I heard, the misery comes looking for me
Woah, misery’s my […]

8/3/2014 0 comment

Beautiful Lies (Poem I suppose)

by I-dont-love-right 8/3/2014

written by I-dont-love-right

Soot filled lungs and fire in my veins.Exhale smoke and breathing in pain.The air is a curse, it keeps me alive. It could be worse, but I still wanna die. Institutionalized. Darkness clouded my eyes. I’m so sick of the same old lies. God please put the sun in the sky. Staccato bursts of pain and I cry. Little lines etched in my thigh. I keep whispering my beautiful lie, we keep saying our beautiful lie. I’m okay, yes, I’m just fine. I’m so sick of these same old lies.

8/3/2014 1 comment

by lostchild445 8/2/2014

written by lostchild445

So this is life?
This is the great mystery?
When every day is so predictably painful that I see no point in waking again?

What have they told you? That life isn’t fair? They know not the half of it.

Voices. Voices whose mouthes I cannot find speak to me, they speak my mind, my mind, my mind will not stay it’s breath, oh why won’t it let me be?! I cannot think clearly for these clouds of despair block my vision to a brighter tomorrow that they say exists out there.

With every day the same tragedy and the memory of what I used […]

8/2/2014 1 comment

something ill never understand.

by Procel 7/30/2014

written by Procel

Why do people insist on celebrating the day you were pulled, kicking and screaming out of your mother, so much so that they do it every year. Why do we have to celebrate another year alive. Another year of underachieving and mistakes. Instead of moving forward with life i go backwards since last year. And this year its worse. Another year… Fuck it. Promised i wouldn’t ever see this birthday. Another promise gone…

7/30/2014 1 comment

its an option…….

by PeelASquid 7/29/2014

written by PeelASquid

suicide should be an option if you have absolutely no answers or other viable options for your situation. I don’t care about “justifying” it to people, that guilt trip only lasts so long. How do they justify trying to keep someone alive that doesn’t want to be nor feel they have a reason to be? they says the suicide people are selfish well I agree it is very selfish that they want someone to be miserable every freaking day just so they don’t have […]

7/29/2014 2 comments

My story

by mav123 7/23/2014

written by mav123

The truth is she’s a mess. Once so well put together. Once was that happy girl that smiled twenty four- seven. The girl that had great friends and was nice to everyone. She was complete with joy. That girl faded. That girl doesn’t exist anymore. A gloomy depressed girl now exists. Battling for her life every day. Battling with life. She went from going out with friends to staying up all night crying. She shut down. No words spoken. But she woke up the next day and painted that smile on her face. Look in her eyes and you will see a world filled with […]

7/23/2014 3 comments

Life dosent seem real anymore

by Pope 7/21/2014

written by Pope

Who am i.

What am i.

Is any of this real.

I was brought into existence so why the fuck cant i feel.

I’ve thought myself crazy

Nothing seems benign.

I cant bring myself to distinguish good times from death that passes by.

It’s fake.

A lie.

It’s all just in my mind.

It started with philosophies but now i don’t know if i’m alive.

Who am I.

7/21/2014 0 comment

Living with a demon.

by rekotsmarb 7/17/2014

written by rekotsmarb

Certainly not the spiritual kind, just an emotionally and physically abusive, narcissistic and controlling human woman.

It feels like only one of us will make it out of this war alive. On nights like tonight I often think about taking the situation into my own hands and exiting this war on my own terms. I’m tired and I’m dreary.

Then I’m reminded that I fight back harder every single time. Tonight, when physical abuse came at me, I did not allow it. I fought back, I defended myself physically. That was my first time.

There must be something in that, I wouldn’t be fighting so hard if I […]

7/17/2014 1 comment

I’m alive and free. (For everyone who saw my post yesterday)

by SeasOfBlue 7/12/2014

written by SeasOfBlue

I’m alive.

And I’m free.

I’ve never been more free in my life.
It feels so good.

I suppose I should explain what happened when I stopped posting yesterday. Basically, the pills were making me really tired and weak. I was dying, basically. It was getting really hard to type, because the simple movements were taking all of my energy. So, I said goodbye to all of you, and I fell asleep. I’m pretty sure it was closer to dying rather then sleeping, but I didn’t know at the time; I was too weak. Anyway, I never moved my laptop from on top of me, because the movement […]

7/12/2014 45 comments

Stars

by WiltingFlowers 7/7/2014

written by WiltingFlowers

7/7/2014 2 comments

Why am I such a failure?

by theDWARN9 7/5/2014

written by theDWARN9

So let me just start by saying, I hate myself. I have for a long time (almost 7 years). I’m 16 (almost 17) and male.
Just about everyday i’m told about how i need to get a job and get a liscence and get a car. I spend all my time in my room, on the internet because there i can do what i want without getting picked on. My whole school life people have made fun of me. In primary school i didnt give a shit. But in highschool, with 4 times the people (and people from other grades) picking on me and making […]

7/5/2014 6 comments

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