Our time together felt like a storm, like wild wind and rain, like something too big to handle but too powerful to escape. It blew around me and tangled my hair, left water on my face, made me know that I am alive, alive, alive. There were moments of calm and pause as there are in every storm, and moments when our words fork lightening, at least for each other.
I’ll come, soon….and we’ll have our love again.
Everyone’s moving on without me, into a world I don’t understand -sophie kinsella
Broke is a relative term, like sister, cousin, or Uncle Sam -jarod kintz
Most people who think they’re happy are really just stupid –Tok Kitt
“Dead, but not allowed to die. Alive, but as good as dead.” ? Suzanne Collins
Perhaps depression is caused by asking oneself too many unanswerable questions.
I’m too much of a coward to kill myself. And too much of a coward to live
Sometimes you just gotta hope for the hope of having hope some day.” ? Jeffery Thompson
“Maybe you think life is not worth living, but is death […]
I’d never felt more suicidal than I had felt today. I was so determined to put an end to this life within the next couple of weeks. I thought that since I had stooped so low I might as well try heroin, it’s not like I had any further to fall. So I chased the dragon, not intending to kill myself at that point but just for a release. It didn’t feel orgasmic or incredibly intense at the time, just relaxed like I could nod off at any time. So I thought that was that and I went to bed. All of a sudden I […]
Every day I come home to being screamed at my family hurting me calling me worthless ect. I was just so tired ive been bullied since 4th grade I am a junior in high school and all the bullying bullshit hurts some people don’t know what bullying can cause to you I have scars all over my body but yet I liked the pain I felt when that raz0r would cut my skin and the blood drip on the floor I ran to my room and I got the razor 1cut,2cuts,3cuts,4cuts I looked down I was in my own puddle of blood I was and […]
Do what you can to stay alive, my friends…….try as hard as you can to keep yourself safe….and then take a well deserved nap.
Peace and prayers,
Bayareaguy/Jay
hello,
I am from new zealand. I am a 35 yr old man who hears distressing voices 24/7 and for the last 7 yrs. There really is little hope for me as i have tried all of the world’s medications without success. I have also tried acupuncture, psychological therapy and hypnotherapy without any luck. When you reach the end of the road with respect to possible fixes you just feel like crap and wonder what the point of it all is.
For me its quite ridiculous that i could still be alive 20 years from now. It means a whole lot of suffering occured from between now […]
There is no order to most of my life.
Just as there won’t be much order to this post; my mind yields only things of its own nature and characteristics.
My poor mind, relatively young yet feeling so old. Worn down, like a war ship incessantly buffeted and berated by the interminable winds howling across the vast expanse of sea and darkness; never letting up, allowing no time for reprieve.
The wood creaks, the boards swell with moisture, and the sails test the very limits of the ropes that hold them, seeming as though they might snap at any moment.
But there is no ship. You know this, as you […]
I dream of a world where people can just try to understand each other, rather than judge them for their problems. A world where no one is criticized for who they are and what they love. Unfortunately, a world of peace doesn’t exist.
I dream that I am on my own planet, where there is no misery, violence, hatred or discrimination, with only my closest friends, family members, animals and people who get me. Like I said… I dream. If only dreams could come true for those of us […]
I hate living life and I just want to die. But I don`t know how to effectively kill myself without fucking it up. I cannot mentally survive. This game of life is not for me. It`s torture! I don`t understand why we are not allowed to legally kill ourselves with help when we don`t want to live anymore. Fuck!. What`s the point of keeping people who are clearly unfit to live, who cannot function, alive? Fucking cruel. This life. This earth. Is hell. It`s a prison. It really is. I don`t understand any of it. Don`t want to participate in it. Why can`t we get […]
Anyone affected by my death,forgive me…
First of,I want to clear the fact that this is not an impulsive action.
I have been thinking about taking my own life for a long time now.This is NOT an impulsive decision.
I have tried to get better,but I failed…Only choice I got left is to start a new life…in the
afterlife…
I have tried to make people understand how I feel.Nobody cared.I guess I am a pathetic idiot,so there’s
no wonder people would not care.I mean,who would care about someone as pathetic as me?
I have tried to be a better person,and I failed.I failed as a son,I […]
About 3 weeks ago I said that I was going to kill myself. Well, I am alive now. At least for a little while longer, I am seeing a Psychiatrist and now she’s the only person who seems to listen after my best friend passed away and I don’t just want professional help, I want people REAL PEOPLE I can talk to. So for those who wanted me to write to, I will write to you and for those who want me to write to you, comment on this post. I didn’t really read any of your comments until today when I got back online.
So […]
there are times when i really want to dance the line of life and death, and others where i am glad to be alive. lately though it seems to be the latter of the two. Â there have been times when i have tried to slice my wrists, i have tried to take pills. my question is this: is there a reason i am still here?
So ive not been working for the last few days I’ve called in sick and tried to explain to my boss whats happening even though I don’t know myself… its so hard for someone to grasp when they haven’t been through it.Â
I hate feeling so empty and scared. I don’t want to see anyone or do anything, yet I know if I dont go back to work how will I survive? Its so hard 🙁
Remarkably, two years from its onset, I’m still alive; still fighting. By some odd twist of fate, I’m still here…still on this beautiful earth that once was forgotten in my mind. I’m still here to speak of the taboo disease that is depression…this stigma that is an incomprehensible sadness. The sole disease that many encounter, yet the sole disease that no one wants to admit to. The sole disease that is so easily swept under the rug. The sole disease that is too disgusting to talk about, so it’s kept to a whisper. The sole disease that is too embarrassing to ask for help, so […]
those who are there helping,listening and offering advise,
you are heros. the greatest people alive tonight. bless you, your are brings of great passion  EXTREMELY strong hearts
So I don’t think I will be…
…People think I’m sad. They always do. And I don’t blame them – I used to be sad a lot. I suffer from bipolar disorder, and I’ve had a few rough times in life, such as sexual abuse as a child, and my sister’s death a few years back. I’m currently 16, and with gcses added to the stress of, well, living…I hate it.
If I’m honest, I’m only still alive because I can’t bear the thought of leaving my girlfriend behind. Of never seeing her again. She’s also the only reason I keep it together – I have to. You know that line from Frozen, […]
How does one find hope when having a terminal disease? How can one withstand all the pain it causes while knowing it’ll never end – only gradually evolves, gets worse and finally eats you alive? Is hope even a slightest of possibility?
Expecting a miracle perhaps gives something to keep one’s head up. But preferably person just has to accept the facts; this really was perhaps my unjustified destiny and the clock is ticking ever faster like it has for so many people before me. Fear, tears, a mountain of hopelessness and beside me a conjurer of never-ending agony and despair.
Where do those people […]
I have been back home to my country to attend my niece’s wedding, it was beautiful event, but it made realize how so alone I am and I have nobody to say all this to as my family doesn’t know that I am ill with my mental health and that I have been suicidal for last for months and that I had made 7 unsucessful atttempts at ending it all and was twice in psych hospital to stop me killing myself as on those two ocassions I would have not survived if they hadn’t stopped me.
In my visit to my country, my friend told me […]
I’m still alive. Miracle I can do what I do and function. This is pure pain, and we don’t sleep forever when we die. I’m scared.
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