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Asperger

Suicidal but not depressed

by blue-eyed-suicide 10/25/2015

written by blue-eyed-suicide

Most suicidal people want to die because they are suffering and want to escape the pain. I feel like I’ve overcome my depression, but I still want to die because I think I am not worthy of living. I used to be in an extremely dark place, but now I can feel happiness, but the problem is I don’t deserve it.

So I am socially retarded, diagnosed with Asperger’s. My face and body language barely show any emotion. It’s hard for me to say something as simple as “Hello” or “Goodbye”. I can’t hold or start a conversation, when people ask me questions I literally can’t […]

10/25/2015 9 comments

Is there a link between Asperger’s and AEA?

by transition32 3/2/2015

written by transition32

I am wondering if there is a link between Asperger’s and autoerotic asphyxia? Considering that AEA is not talked about nearly often enough, it is difficult and frustrating to come up with a determination? I get a feeling that a high percentage of people who have died from AEA had Asperger’s or were on the autism spectrum? Based on their profile, they were creative and had rather high IQs.

Even though a lot of people who are into AEA have Asperger’s, there are very few people with Asperger’s who are into AEA, however many people with Asperger’s feel awkward in social situations, have a difficult time […]

3/2/2015 7 comments

Everyone is suicidal…everyone

by ofifoto 2/3/2015

written by ofifoto

I’m suicidal and have been for over 30 years, living one day at a time. That method of surviving has made life long and exhausting. I’m not suicidal because of some previous abuse (physical, sexual, etc.) or anything traumatic such as that. I’ve had a great life by most people’s standards. I just observed early in life as a shy, quiet, Asperger’s kid that there was not much to look forward to other than going through the same motions as everyone else–get educated, further that education, get some sort of job, advance in one’s career, make money, and pay bills–oh, and die. Sure there are […]

2/3/2015 3 comments

Newbie observation:

by siouxisidol 8/22/2014

written by siouxisidol

Hi, I’ve just found this site and – due to being bipolar, having Asperger’s syndrome and having physical health problems – since I feel suicidal 99% of the time thought I would join.

Mea culpa; I didn’t read every post – most from 2011 only – but it struck me how intelligent everybody sounds. I really do believe “ignorance is bliss” and unintelligent people can live in a healthy bubble unlike more intelligent ones who just exist.

8/22/2014 7 comments

An Eventful Couple of Weeks

by FreakShow2 2/6/2013

written by FreakShow2

In the last week or two, I have been taken to the hospital for breaking down in class and revealing my suicide plan to the guidance councillor. I could say that I was surprised, but I wasn’t. The moment I said, “the fact of the matter is that I am suicidal,” I knew I was screwed.Â So, my parents were notified and I was shown the doors of the ER. However, I was able to avoid admittance, if only barely, by bravely lying my way out. On the exact same day I planned to kill myself, I smiled, laughed, and maintained my composure. So it’s only […]

2/6/2013 3 comments

Little more about myself

by TheUglyOne 8/22/2012

written by TheUglyOne

Well it wasn’t until about aÂ coupleÂ months ago that I found Â out I hadÂ Asperger’s autism. In some ways it doesn’t bother me, in fact I like knowing so I can get help but on the other hand now that I know that changes some ways I see life. I was told that I might never be able to drive a car because of my lack of a sense of direction. Now I have always been afraid of the idea of me driving. To many risks. I know now that I can relearn things but even with years of therapy and being included in many social gathers […]

8/22/2012 5 comments

i suck a lot

by aging 5/31/2012

written by aging

I am socially retarded. Everyone I’ve met ever has understandably hated me. I’m aloof and unaware. People think I’m selfish and mean and awkward, etc. I have Asperger’s. Between my friends there is always a boundary between us because of this. I’ve wanted to die every day for a while, but it’s getting worse. Basically I am remembering everything that ever happened to me, and I know the phrases the past is past and only now counts, but I literally can’t forget. So I’m not sure how to live with the burden of days of years of things I’ve done. Life sucks a lot.

5/31/2012 3 comments

Do I even need to stay here…

by WhyAmIHere 5/14/2012

written by WhyAmIHere

I’m a semi-normal thirteen-year-old. Sitting at his computer desk, eating milk and cookies after he gets home from a hard day at school. But in my hand is a pair of scissors, worn from use. I am cutting myself. But once you look past the fat and scars (physical and mental) I am a good person. And I accept that. I don’t hate myself, it’s just my douchebag brain making me take everything the kids at school say to me like they’re true. And some of the things are. I feel mostly carefree, except for the fact that I fail at everything, including killing myself. […]

5/14/2012 2 comments