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I’m alone.

by skeletonsInthecloset 5/1/2014

written by skeletonsInthecloset

I’m alone. and maybe it’s better this way. I told the guy I’ve been in love with for almost a year now. to leave me alone. I’ve isolated myself from my family. I can’t even find the strength to get up and go to school for the last two days. I don’t want to go back on anti depressants. but I don’t know how to be okay right now. a part of me feels like it’s missing. I said things I didn’t mean but I know they were better to say then try make people understand the truth.

i still don’t want to live. i still […]

5/1/2014 1 comment

Where is the suicide blog!!!!

by Pri Pitt 4/30/2014

written by Pri Pitt

There was a suicide blog named wantdeath.blogspot.com

Is anyone aware of that website? it had a shoutbox! That was the website that saved my life! and many others around the world who are suicidal and want a way out! I had actually made friends there :(( and now the website is gone Â :'( I wish it comes back again

4/30/2014 0 comment

One more year

by bayareaguy 4/30/2014

written by bayareaguy

I think I’ll try to give this life one more year…..I’ll be 60 next year on March 26th……that is, if God doesn’t take me on his own before then…………you see…..since Mom diedÂ about this time last year, I have no oneÂ who loves meÂ andÂ cares for me in the selfless way a mother or partner can…..and there is no one who wants or needs that from me.Â The lonely, solitary life that was chosen for me by illness is simply not any way for a “senior” citizen to live……I’m in that high risk category, by gender and age, for suicide.Â I cared forÂ Mom as companion and helper/care giver […]

4/30/2014 8 comments

Confusion…

by chelseasmiles001 4/28/2014

written by chelseasmiles001

I think I have what I call fat girl syndrome. I used to weigh in at 260lbs almost all my teenage life. I was well liked and respected because I was so big (not to mention small town life) it never bothered me to be fat. One day when I was 19 I decided i’d give the skinnier life a try… I quit eating, (which I found myself falling asleep behind the wheel) so I ate more. I walked, didn’t eat past 5pm (keep in mind I lived at home and was not pressured to get a job.) In one years time I lost over […]

4/28/2014 2 comments

Not the romantic type

by Remnant The Unbroken 4/28/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

But it sucks seeing my ex bf marrying some girl he managed to replace me with so quickly. I mean come on dude you’re 19 and you’re ready to spend the rest of your life with her? It makes me lol and want to cry at the same time.

I doubt any man is gonna want a woman with scars all over her body though =.=

Any of you feel the same way? I want someone in my life to help me along my goal to getting my survivor’s mentality back.

But I now also have a problem with the whole love life thing because of […]

4/28/2014 11 comments

Justifiably Concerned.

by S0r4 4/26/2014

written by S0r4

I feel hurt, angry, a little frightened. One of my best male friends moved in with me and a few other people back in the fall, and we’ve been close. Though, I’ve gotten noticeably more depressed. I didn’t figure out why until today. For our entire friendship, my friend has been trying to get romantically involved with me, regardless of whether I’m with someone or not. Because I’m too stupid and trusting, I had no idea. He’s aware of the fact that I’ve been in a few physically, mentally, and emotionally abusive relationships, and has apparently been using manipulative tactics on me. I didn’t realize […]

4/26/2014 4 comments

mad at YOU

by candyapple 4/24/2014

written by candyapple

i’m not mad at people. i’m not mad at the person who broke my heart. i’m not mad at my parents who were supposed to know that i’m not happy. i’m mad at God. it’s been two years that i’ve been feeling down. then you make me happy. very very happy. then suddenly, when i’m up there u crash me back down? i feel like an ant played by a 6 year old boy. ive prayed. LOTS OF TIMES. YOU NEVER LISTEN. so why should i pray still?????????

4/24/2014 1 comment

The Last Memories…

by Moonshadow64 4/24/2014

written by Moonshadow64

The last memories

He made the excuses

It was his choice; he sent the second message only cause he was going through the same as I was in a way. I just thought he never listened what I had told him. The third message he was right to think of me as a bad guy and after the second message, he stopped caring. The forth message, I confessed, I told him the truth, even though I knew I shouldn’t have. I told him a lie as well just because i was desperate for the truth from him. He never told me anything, I just wanted him to […]

4/24/2014 0 comment

given up

by givenuponme 4/24/2014

written by givenuponme

I am a 27 year old failure in life I have no reason to be on this earth I have never felt so alone then I do today I have been thinking about taking my life for some time now and the feeling has been increasing for the past several months with today being the strongest feeling of wanting to just end it all I feel as if I have no purpose and the people around me see me as being ungrateful and useless I have to fully agree with the later of the two I have a son who doesn’t view me as his […]

4/24/2014 1 comment

To the no ones that care!

by que sera 4/24/2014

written by que sera

When it gets so intense I’m always back again.When I was 15 I did an art piece depicting a face expressing pain. Their eyes clenched tightly and mouth arched viciously downwards as if all was lost. I’ve come to the conclusion that it is the intensity of what I feel that drives me mad and soon to sadness. This idea unintentionally danced through my painting as I realised the inspiration was an image of Lleyton Hewitt winning his first and only grand slam. Ironic huh? Being the bell of the ball and the crazy bipolar ***** whimpering away in her room. And I don’t mean […]

4/24/2014 4 comments

who is out there?

by DaRiot2307 4/23/2014

written by DaRiot2307

I look at what choices i have. i can let it take me under or fight back. ive fought for a decade or more. my insides are shutting down like its preparing for the worst. ive researched meds that can be lethal. i look one last time and ask myself who is out there to care for someone like me. im on my death bed but im the captain. im ready.

4/23/2014 2 comments

Unwanted memories

by tacomonkey287 4/23/2014

written by tacomonkey287

Do you ever wake up feeling like today is going to be another bad day? Thinking that nothing will change, that it will just be this daily routine of negative thoughts and feelings in Your head? Well maybe you do, maybe you don’t. But me…well this is only just the frosting to the cake.

all My life I’ve felt like i don’t belong anywhere i go. Whether it is family, school friends, outside of school friends, sporting teams, swimming squad, whatever. Ive always felt this sense of isolation and separation from the others. At first, when I was 5, it didn’t matter to me, I just […]

4/23/2014 3 comments

Relapse

by DarkWeasley 4/21/2014

written by DarkWeasley

A few days ago I wrote an update. I wrote about how much better I was doing. How much happier I was…

Why is it that one little thing can cause me to go spiralling back into what I was before? I don’t want to go back. I don’t want to be that person again. I don’t want to lose any more friends. I don’t want to live every day in pain. I just want to be me.

My parents split up almost two years ago. Some would say that alone is traumatising, but I was surprisingly okay with it. It was for the best at the […]

4/21/2014 1 comment

Rants

by TheImmortalYoshi 4/21/2014

written by TheImmortalYoshi

So..today I had a panic attack in the middle of second period today..I hate it, I hate having anxiety. I know others must hate it too, it like ruins things so know I m on meds to control it but my dose needs to be higher cause it isn’t working anymore and my anxiety is back like it was before without them..Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh meh meh*dying whale noises* I also have bipolar disorder meh and borderline personality disorder..Meh *More dying whale noises* But if everyone else can ‘live’ with it I can too :/

4/21/2014 11 comments

bipolar? or hormones?

by mbaerr 4/21/2014

written by mbaerr

I’ve recently been told that I could possibly have bipolar disorder. I looked it up, and it sounds similar to what I experience. This isn’t the first time I’ve been told that I have some sort of depression, I’ve heard friends talk about me or even tell me to my face that I should get it checked out. I always try to look my best and happiest when I’m around others but sometimes it apparently either looks too fake and they know something is wrong or they just catch me off guard. I have mood swings, but I’m 17! I thought that was normal. […]

4/21/2014 8 comments

Numb all the time

by blue_moon 4/20/2014

written by blue_moon

Nothing really matters to me anymore. If you need a listening ear, I’ll be there for you. If you told me something funny, I’ll smile and even crack a joke back. If you cried, I’ll offer you my shoulder and spend all my time comforting you till you feel alright. And then I’ll feel really numb, I don’t really know how to describe it, but I don’t feel happy anymore. It hurts to laugh and smile sometimes, when I just honestly want to curl up in a corner. I think I’m just being insecure, but all these thoughts will rush into my head, and I’m […]

4/20/2014 2 comments

optimism

by sophie 4/20/2014

written by sophie

i get overly optimistic after smoking.. does anyone else get that way?

i have this whole game plan for life. then when the high wears off. i’m back to square one. suicidal and damn near tears

4/20/2014 4 comments

A Hero Maybe?

by HERO1 4/18/2014

written by HERO1

Since i was young i have felt a sense of belonging. I was the Football star even went to college of it. Was in the military and served in crazy places, then I was a Police officer. Now i cant see what the next step is. is it possoble that you can feel accomplished like HERO or that you have done everything. Now i feel like the world is getting smaller that verybody is covered in Bullshit or waiting for a pat on the back and thats the only reason they try. what if your back is covered with hands and you want them all […]

4/18/2014 1 comment

Alcohol…

by samishii 4/17/2014

written by samishii

After the best summer of my whole life I find myself back here for the first time in a couple of years. Kind of the only place I know to turn to when I really really really need people that understand to lend an ear…

Depressed lately… I just can’t be proud of myself anymore. I used to do really well at uni and now I’m in my final year I feel all the passion and spark I had for my major and my future has been snuffed out by the brutal machine they call the system. It just gets me down… I can study and […]

4/17/2014 2 comments

Some Days

by KnightMonster 4/17/2014

written by KnightMonster

Having a new kid in the house has been hard. Already had a 2 year old and now a 16 month old…. Its enough to make you feel like you are losing it. Went from working 50+ hours a week to now a strict 36 hours. Working on interviews for a 2nd job. Have been off my medication for 2 weeks now, not because I was trying to quit them but because I’ve simply been too busy and lazy to deal with refilling them. Not sure it was a great idea to avoid getting them refilled but hopefully it doesn’t set me back too far. […]

4/17/2014 2 comments

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