Where? Where was God when the bastard my brothers call ‘dad’ was hurting me? Where was he when my brother’s hand was getting burned? When Mom was beating the shit out of me? When they took me from my brothers? When my best friend and Dad were dying? I don’t fucking know. I wish i did but I don’t. I wish I believed in him everyday. I wish Mom loved me. I wish I didn’t have these thoughts in my head. I wish so many things I can’t have. But most importantly… I wish i was dead, that i never existed. That Mom would have had […]
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On Sunday I moved into my first apartment so I can be closer to my college. The apartments are set up like dorms so I got a roommate and its actually working out great. We’re very alike. I’d say we’ll get along just fine. And then I can’t help but think there is something else that will have to go wrong in my life for this to work out because my life is never just fine all the time. I’m hoping it can be something small.
I made brownies for us yesterday. Nutella brownies to be exact. And when I was pulling them from the oven […]
My life is hell ive been in a house that i hate with bullied for 2 years
my moms boyfriends house his kids hate me and i hate them
they got my hooked on weed and it fucks me up
ive been pushed down stairs they have burned me beat me and one forced me into sex
Im 13 and im not a virgin
ive regretted my life since i moved to this hell hole
people at school bully me i tell them to go to hell or say fuck of or even give them the finger
Some days I feel like my chest is being crushed by all the love and care I would have wanted to give someone. Even now my heart is drowning in a sorrow that has no stars, and no laughter and no sleep.
Some days I wonder if ppl just can’t see how wonderful they really are.. even burned out, or damaged.. There is such beauty in a strong beating heart inside a good person.
I had a dream once , that the gras was greener when I died
that the grass was greener On the other side.
but I came to find out that that was a lie,
the grass was burned on the other side.
Scorching hot and not remaining
My mind woke up no longer refraining.
I opened my eyes and there it was the
monster of lies, truth, and dispair.
I’m friends with that monster it’s my only hope,
I told my friends they thought it was a joke.
If your reading this now, know I’m not lying
and if I am I’m sorry Im trying.
Has anyone on here ever been scared to post or comment? Or is it just me. I just cut myself, and earlier i burned muself.
Its been raining all day. so I wrote this.
Let it rain
The tears will pour
As your fists
Beat down my door
As long as you can go to bed
Rest your little pretty head
For I wont wake up
Next morn
So lets jump right on in… Im a 20 year old drop out, been on probation for the past three years… Ive got two girlfriends right now which is completley out of charactor for me because im a gentleman for the most part, but anymore i dont care, i feel my relationships are going to end the same way they always do me being left for someone else cause im too nice or too caring, or just not a piece of shit! So why not try n mix things up and Im tired.
Everything seems like its about to just explode or implode or some […]