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Cardiac Arrest

meditation

by bornalone 8/31/2013

written by bornalone

Its actually possible to coax yourself into cardiac arrest through careful meditation if you are trying to die.

You sit, with you eyes closed, and try to enduce what many people call an anxiety attack, or what i see as trying to remember where you were before you animated your body.

As a baby i can remember categorizing every experience i had, and knowing that whatever i was in-my body- was a highly advanced prison, designed to fool me into keep myself inside it.

I can remember taking account of and noticing my breathe, how many times i had inhaled and realizing that if i didn’t stop immediately […]

8/31/2013 3 comments

I’m suicidal for three years straight. I’m a victim off bullying, I cut, I have no friends, I love the wrong person and I have no perspectives in life. I tried to kill myself by overdosing and cutting veins but it didn’t work.
I want to combine jumping, drowning and poison in my last seconds of life. I want to do all of this at night. Here the European Yew grows wild in the parks. My aim is to collect several hundreds of seeds and about 200 grams of fresh leaves, mash it and ingest it. It will make me die of cardiac arrest. […]

6/12/2013 11 comments

There’s Something More

by jlandisy 4/25/2013

written by jlandisy

This is coming from an agnostic…but I can verify that there is, in fact, something more. When my partner left me (you’ll excuse how disjointed and crazy this is, it was many years ago) when my ex left me at my best friend’s apartment he asked me whether or not I was “stable” I…of course…answered “yes”. I requested on the way there that we stop at the pharmacy so I could pick up someÂ Excedrin. (I got my Benadryl instead.) Â I’d never been asked that question before, nor had I considered myself “unstable” I told him I was fine. Â I asked him to take me to […]

4/25/2013 2 comments

Suicidal….

by JaneDoe822 4/19/2013

written by JaneDoe822

I’m 17 years old(will turn 18 this June),5″3,39 kg,underconfident,anxious,afraid,failure,looser,quitter……Ive been heavily suicidal for like five years now!!!
Mostly due to my academic stress….till highschool i scored great and was a bright minded geeky kid but for some odd reason i started to grow more and more fears and day by day the roots of those fears anchored deeply into my conscience and i ended up being a fiasco….i fail at everything….i cant reach out for even the simple mundane goals…apparently i am still bright and healthy but inside there is a neverending armageddon and mental anguish…I am dead…I’m just a breathing corpse without any genuine […]

4/19/2013 0 comment

Gone, But new.

by theblackpool13 1/2/2013

written by theblackpool13

I’m alone. Sad, tired of trying, of living. Tired of waking Â up to a bright happy world, and seeing nothingÂ exceptÂ grey, and things only I can see, hearing sounds of joy, but only hearing the voices of myÂ despair. Franks gone now. Replaced, forgotten. Austins here. He’s just as bad. Eyes areÂ staring, watching with a pointedÂ loadedÂ gun, Â or a knife waiting for the right time. I am forgotten, none cares for the sake of me, waiting for the right time. 17. The magic number. 15, countdown. They say if I die, I’ll be back in my world, back in Hallaqu, with Austin, and Goob, Frank, and 200. My […]

1/2/2013 0 comment

Cardiac Arrest

meditation

Poison and bridge

There’s Something More

Suicidal….

Gone, But new.