Its to much to bear. I’m a terrible son and a horrible friend for turning to this. My life’s been going down for awhile and I just want to end it. I know when I go I’ll go to heaven but are there any Christians on here to talk to. Or just people who know what I’m going through. Plz respond
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by Bisban
written by Bisban
It’s weird, man
But I know, more than enough
You know what I mean
Sherry came to my house, yesterday
Christians, with her elder Asian friend
While I was resuscitating my, prayers
Like a climax, just in my zone of an unknown
So I open the door and it was just strange
At the end of the conversation, she asked if she could come back
And I was like, “Na, I’m just, too far away”
Seemingly disappointed quickly leaves
If they just knew the rendered, that they don’t know
Don’t come to my sacred, house, when I’m dying like that
But hey, I know the […]
There’s not a moment where I think about killing myself/committing suicide. I’ve already tried twice, but I couldn’t do it. I tried to drown myself in the tub. The water was just about up to where my head was at. I put my face/wash towel over my face so I couldn’t breath at all. Then I laid back in the water. I started thinking what if I really did just kill myself right here and now? Would anyone care? I’d finally be free of pain and torment. I doubt I’m going to heaven, if it’s even real. I’m an atheist. Just as I […]
I woke up feeling heavy today. I straighten up and I knew why. The hurt and pain and disappointments, discouragement, hatred and sins were all piled up in this sack of mine called pride that it became so heavy I woke up because I knew it’s getting hard to breathe. If I were boiling, I knew it would gonna throw the lid up the kettle and burst any moment. And I heard something within me that says, ‘listen to what Max Lucado says to you today’ and I immediately get it. It’s a minute MP3 kind of like a voice recorded by an author and […]
I’ve had depression since I was around 10 years old. My father used to bash me for every little thing, whilst my mother would just sit, watch and laugh. It’s been some years now, my parents did however get better, BUT that’s only after I finally grew the courage to tell the police, anyways just two days ago, I celebrated my 19th birthday, I thought about killing myself at the end of the night, but couldn’t mostly because 3 of my friends were with me till morning. Anyways, I try to move on, every day, but the memories always haunt me, and it’s not only […]
I found myself writing earlier today in a notebook in the freezing cold as I waited for the bus to that would take me to work… The only reason I decided to write was so I could remember everything that was passing through my mind at the time. Reading back over it now, I’m steadily losing the will to fight with myself anymore again. I’m tired… I want to sleep and just not wake up… I know I don’t deserve that; it’s too easy, too peaceful…
I have a family I support solely, children I want to raise and a decent job by most standards, and […]
In my past entries posted on this site, as well as my facebook page and my website: www.nolenthebeckoning.com, I have mentioned my belief in man’s evolution from fire. I have received quite a few derogatory replies. Most from people calling themselves christians. To those of you on this site who claim christianity, I do not wish to personally offend you, however it is of my opinion that christianity is one of the leading religions to plague mankind. Most of christian history is written in bigotry and the practice of condemning all others…and when there’s no others, condemn each other. As with many of my perceptions, […]
Living is suffering for me. I know some would say that I should feel like I have a great life. But they are only saying that because of my material objects.
They don’t know that I stay up late at night, crying because I have to hide so much of myself. My family is Christians, and they make fun of gays. It’s so hard due to the fact that I am a bisexual atheist. And it’s not like I have the courage to just tell them.
I don’t know exactly how long I’ve been depressed, but I noticed some notes of mine dating back to […]
I am gay
I am Christian
I am in the closet with my family
I moved countries to put distance between us so I don’t have to face up to the truth.
I entered into a civil partnership
The lies are getting more and more
I am tired of christians who hate me for something I have not chosen
I don’t want to go to hell.
I have lost all hope
I want to die…….
I wonder if the new world order is still going to be put in place this year hopefully it will because all christians are to be prosecuted and that would be a nice quick way to die without doing it myself
I’ve felt this way for a while now. I’m an atheist. I considered myself christian for a while but decided it wasnt for me. I’ve never really had anything against people who believe in god but I never understood why they did really. Now though, now I just cant take it anymore. I’m so sick and tired of hearing about people giving god credit for their acheivements and blaming the devil for their misfortunes. That shit is absolute tripe. Where do all the good things come from? luck. Where do all the bad things come from? luck. Luck is the reason for everything. People like […]