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Close My Eyes

my death day routine

by iwilldie2nitey 6/17/2013

written by iwilldie2nitey

the last time i will see the sun come up as i wake

the last time i will look in my closet for what to wear

the last time i kiss my mother goodbye on the way to school

the last time i walk the halls of the murders that killed my confidence

the last time i wave goodbye to my best friend as im getting off the bus

the last time i will greet my younger brothers home from school

the last time i will help with dinner and dishes

the last time i call my dad to tell him i love him

i now dress in my finest clothes

i get the […]

6/17/2013 0 comment

I need to continue…

by JustKeepDreaming 6/12/2013

written by JustKeepDreaming

Hi again..
It’s little old me.
I figured I would continue my story seeing as it has been really weighing me down lately.
So, uhm, yea, here I go…again..
Things continued that way for awhile, but then things got a little worse…or a little better depending how you look at it..
My mother and that guy got into fights, a lot, and very bad fights..
When I close my eyes I the silence, I can still here the shouting, screaming and the faint sirens in the distance..
Anyways, they ended up taking some time a part from one another, that would be good right?
It […]

6/12/2013 2 comments

i can”t do this anymore

by mark1979 6/5/2013

written by mark1979

i found this site by accedent. i am 34 single parent that has lost everything exept my child. found something to hold me up and now i am loosing that to and i havent been coping and dont think i can cope anymore. the crying, the pain just won’t stop. it is now wensday i haven’t slept since fryday.Â every one tells me to hang on God will make it all beter. when is he going to do it when i sit with a pistolÂ placed and cocked behind my ear. plus everyone thinks they know what i am going throu, but its not them going throu […]

6/5/2013 7 comments

blood on my hands

by nyny 9/10/2012

written by nyny

i lay awake day dreaming

i cant close my eyes

im afraid to sleep

thats where he haunts me now

if i drift off, im tossing and screaming

arms tied up, no way out now

his body pressed against mine

i cant seem to scream loud enough

does anyone hear my cry for help

i pant for one last breath

then he disappears

perhaps to his own room

smile across his face

oh how evil he was

then id lay in my pool of blood

wait until he […]

9/10/2012 5 comments

maybe if i fall asleep i wont breath right?

by nyny 9/10/2012

written by nyny

you know that feeling that you get in the back of your mind? how worthless you feel? how empty your stomach feels. yet, you cant eat. that feeling that at any moment you can completely fall apart? the blade just dosent cut deep enough anymore? the doctors prescribe you with this pill that does nothing but make you feel robotic. and death is never a promise….and when you run and find you really have no one to run to? you feel lost? you dont understand the words that come out of anyones mouth anymore. you constantly fall in and out of conciencessness. no […]

9/10/2012 2 comments

My Dream

by AlmostAWhisper 12/28/2011

written by AlmostAWhisper

In my dreams, I always dreamt I cut myself so deep that I’d lay there dying in an ocean of my own blood. For so many nights, I dreamed IÂ bled more than normal, I dreamt I lay there as the life blood flows from my body. It always has the same end. Everyone I loved runs in my room in blinding fury. They look at me with deadly smiles and wicked eyes. Charging towards my barely conscience body, they reach into my skin and rip out my veins. And I scream…I scream so loud over their animalistic laughter. I’m drowning in my own blood, but […]

12/28/2011 4 comments

I Hate Myself, I want to Die

by Me and myself alone 7/27/2009

written by Me and myself alone

I hate myself, I want to die

No one understands, no one cares

This world would be a better place,

If only I didn’t exist

The pain never stops,

The darkness is closing in

I close my eyes and hope they never open again

I want to scream,

All this rage inside

I wish I had a gun,

To end all this craziness inside in my head

I am so alone,

Â So Much emptiness inside

Why can’t anyone here me?

Because nobody cares.

All these tears keep falling,

I wonder how theres any left

My heart is beating so fast,

I feel like it’s slowly breaking

Why can’t it just stop?

To take one last final breath in this world,

Would bring such peace inside

Why is […]

7/27/2009 2 comments