Well, I’m the girl everyone thinks is happy. They all come to me with their problems. No one would suspect that I’ve dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts as long as I can remember…
I know the first time I remember wanting to die was when I was 7 years old. When I voiced this thought to my mother, she said she would hit me if I ever said that again.
I remember I was about 12 or 13 when I first started cutting and starving myself. No one thought anything of my rapid weight loss; kids go through stages where they suddenly lose […]
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Control Freak
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Looking for some help, if that’s OK. I can go to places I have been before, no trouble in travelling there if don’t have to walk too far. But if I have to go somewhere new or speak to someone outside I really panic. Literally freeze. I cannot wait in line anywhere, and when I walk and someone walks towards me I freeze, so they walk into me. I live in London, this happens a lot. Does anyone know what I mean? Can you give me some pointers? I have to do something about this. No point in living if cannot buy myself a cake […]
I’m 17 Â years old and i really want to die right now. As a child i was sexually abused by my uncle. My dad is a jerk. My mom is a control freak. She wants me to do things that I don’t love. I even cried in front of her for like 10x already. I begged her many times that I really want to do what I love. They are all the same my grandma, uncles, aunts. My friends they just love me for my money. I was bullied in school for being ugly. I have low self esteem. I really want to make some […]
When I am somehow surprised that I am living with a control freak narcissistic person and that I will be hurt repeatedly until I find a better life
When I ignore for too long what matters to me, what feels good even if I can’t feel it at the moment
When I don’t make a plan, a strategy to try consistently to get someplace better than I am now
Forget there is more compassion in the world than I experience at home or have ever at home …OK so there is less also but mostly there is more because the human race would not have survived this friggen […]
Put yourself in my shoes and see what you would do.. in all honestly. I’ll take your opinions into account and within 20 days I’ll either be still alive or dead.
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Ok.. My name is Ollie and the only thing good in my life is my beloved grandma. she lives out in the country with 16 dogs and kennels she has alot of land and we love each other so much. I go out once a week on a saturday when i’m not at school (i’m 13) and occasionaly dont go becuase shes showing but if its local i go with her. The bad things.. I’m […]