I have to wake up early in the morning to go see a pyschiatrist.
I’m really scared though.
I mean, what if he/she thinks I’m some crazy person? Or thinks I should be locked up in some mental hospital?
My anxiety is being a big bother at the moment, and I have no mecidine to control it at the moment.
Wish me luck for tomorrow .. er.. today I guess since it’s 12:00 a.m.
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crazy
(Long post. Sorry.)
Only in the last few months have I felt this way, and it seems to be getting more intense (although manageable). I’m in my second marriage to someone that I love, respect and adore, but that is quickly falling apart. She can’t stand me. This morning she told me that she wants a divorce, and she’s serious. I will give it to her for her sake. Left up to me I’d fight her on it, but she really, really just wants out, and I’m 100% the reason why (her words).
My ex wife always said I was controlling and abusive, and I initially thought […]
i spend most of my time, thinking to myself. trying to tell my self that yes, these people exist, they have feelings, their heart beat and they feel sad sometimes too.. but then again, how can I be so sure? and i can’t tell anyone how i really think, they’d think i’m crazy. who knows. Maybe i am crazy.
I spend most of my time wanting to die. the anxiety in me, the feeling of wanting to do everything at once, but having no purpose in doing it, not wanting to, why does it all matter? all what we do is grow up to get […]
scared of taking life
You get a chance to see lot more fun on earth with lot more crazy humans
Because some times you can think intelligently
Dead beings cannot have S3x
You can watch crazy movies and serials
You can spend time on sp
I think I’ve officially lost my fucking mind. When someone that I love doesn’t talk to me for an hour or I haven’t heard from them in like a day I will make up this whole story in my head that something’s happened. I will actually talk to myself and feel the actually pain that I’ve lost them. For example I’m freaking out now because my boyfriend hasn’t talked to me since last night and he’s not online. I have made up this whole story that I’m going to eventually call his phone and his mom is going to answer and tell me he died in a car accident […]
Here’s a little about me. I’m a girl. I’m 17.
I’m bipolar.
It’s hard living with it. I don’t take medication for personal reasons.
One thing I hate is when people say suicide is selfish. In a sense it is, but people say those words out of ignorance. Nobody knows what that person was feeling, how hard their life was, or their reasons.
Bipolar disorder causes me to do some really crazy (and generally dangerous) things. It’s an odd thing, because I do these things in a snap decision, and then afterward think “that was stupid of me” – though I don’t think through the consequences at the time.
I’ve […]
I haven’t cut myself in over a year.I think it has made my life worse. I have no way to let all of this pain out, so I lash out on the ones I love. Ones? Who am I trying to fool? I have no friends. The only people I talk to are co-workers, my parents, and my boyfriend. He’s the reason I am still here, but he is also the reason I haven’t cut. He says he’ll leave if I ever do that to myself. Sometimes I feel that if I did cut we wouldn’t have so many problems. I’d take everything out on […]
I learned this recently. The story is very confusing. Are you ready?
This is who I thought I was: a severely schizophrenic German boy, who was severely abused as a child, alongside his twin sister. He has a boyfriend, who also has a twin. He is in Foster care.
Who I really am: a Canadian girl, less severely abused, with no twin, no boyfriend, and no Foster care.
What happened: I have multiple personalities. I suppose I’m transgender, because all the personalities are male. I am also schizophrenic, though not as badly as previously thought. The original personality, the female birthed 18 years ago next week, is gone. […]
I know this seems like I have let myself into another slump… but yeah… We all do anymore don’t we… Alright where to start. 10 months of an on and off relationship with the girl of my dreams. My everything my who heart my castle that I could rely on for the most part. I am now in need of you all… I am trying to figure out what I am going to do here. I have again fallen in love. Deeply. I can’t live without my girl. I can’t live with her. When she’s on … She isn’t really there. When she is there, […]
If you have fibromyalgia, then you can understand the pain, the never ending pain that stalks your life. The pain that comes at night, the pain that comes when your child tells you a joke and you are unable to laugh, the pain that comes when you see that your pain prevents you from an activity with your wife or son. When the pain first came, I didn’t know what it was. I thought that I had a cramp in my left shoulder which led to my neck. From the first time I felt the pain, to when it began to immobilize me, took only […]
i think my body is telling me to die. when i am riding my motorcycle, i tend to lose myself in imagining that i crash at the road, lifeless body, or hit a trunk of a tree with a branch piercing my heart. when i in a trance like that, my body tends to press the oil even harder, making more speed. i smiled everytime i skidded a little on the road.
i have a couple of friends that i always hang out with in order to release pent up stress but now i felt that my mind is going crazier by the minute. when my […]
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