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Finally Met with Someone

by capricious 11/10/2014

written by capricious

I finally got my case pushed through to meeting someone. After waiting 40 minutes in the foyer he finally came out to meet me. Thanks for the promptness. Just proves how important I am to these people.

With the last 20 minutes of my session remaining the guy asked me all the same boring shit he should have got in the fax of my assessment. Oh wait. They didn’t fucking send it to him.

So now here we are, more than halfway through and with no past history on the table. What a great start. I was so mad at this point that I could barely answer […]

11/10/2014 5 comments

Only 12 more days

by greyrainbow 10/19/2014

written by greyrainbow

I am done. Tired. I’ve tried DBT. I’ve tried & i’m tired. I love Scott!! I can’t tell him that though. I dream about him & wish he was in my life, other than being my therapist who I can’t & cannot appease. So, I’ve decided that death will finally take me, as I’ve always felt it would. You see, I have no friends. I can’t & don’t keep them. This world sucks!!! All you see is hate & killing. People who think they are owed, who don’t shoot for the moon themselves. They just want everything handed to them. So, my Suicide is planned […]

10/19/2014 2 comments

Well… a shit day….

by Still Lost 9/17/2014

written by Still Lost

So… I woke up and intended to kill myself today. I decided to give it one last shot with my MD who abandoned me. I sent her a text asking if there was a bed available at her hospital. That I was serious and was very genuinely asking for her help. Nothing provocative. Well, I had text her a bunch over the past few weeks asking when we can meet soon. Nothing provocative. But she wasn’t responding which was unusual so it created more distressed for me. Note: For those of you who haven’t read my posts, I have been through tons of treatment (ECT, […]

9/17/2014 9 comments

@ nias

by Still Lost 9/12/2014

written by Still Lost

(Didn’t want to highjack that other post again)… Have you ever been so tired and exhausted that you are too tired and exhausted to even sleep? I thought about treatment options today. I really don’t have any. I’ve done it all. I can’t bear to go back into DBT. ECT fried my brain last time and I am still suffering the memory consequences. I really don’t have any treatment options anymore. I’m out of options.

9/12/2014 24 comments

Probably Dead Tomorrow

by justanotherteenagestatistic 4/30/2014

written by justanotherteenagestatistic

I’m 13 years old.

In and out of depression for two and a half years.

Screw it.

I’ve been in hospital for suicide too.

Therapy, DBT…. the works.

I don’t care anymore.

I. Am. DONE.

Time to die?

Yeah…

That sounds about right.

See ya.

4/30/2014 28 comments

I don’t know why I thought I could change

by greyrainbow 3/22/2014

written by greyrainbow

I’ve been in DBT for almost 7 months now. Why did I think it would be my saving grace? I think that sometimes you can’t be saved. Sometimes we aren’t supposed to be saved. I have never been whole. Death has been watching me for a very very long time. I wish it would get it over with.

3/22/2014 0 comment

straight jacket super model

by kristink 4/4/2013

written by kristink

love the song. should change my username. had a 3 tissue session with wendy today. discussed what i meant when saying i felt like i was blocked. that my short bursts of intense emotions are maybe cracks in the “wall”. and that is why they come and go so easily. and what is on the other side of that wall? i don’t know. and the thought of finding out is terrifying. wendyÂ says to embrace those emotions and try to see what is causing them. but the “blocking” comes so easily i don’t know how to stop it. i am scared of losing control. i […]

4/4/2013 1 comment

I Dont Want to Turn 33

by sunbird 1/16/2012

written by sunbird

My birthday is at the end of the week. I dont even want to make it. I am trying like hell to make it to my vacation in 2 months,and end it then,but this week is hard. My BF keeps leaving and spending all of his free time away from me.He refers to spending time with me as “sacrificing.” He now threatens to move away b/c he doesnt want to listen to me explaining how bad I feel,refering to the end anymore. I wonder if my vacation is worth it. Wouldnt it be easier to just end it and not have to face another birthday […]

1/16/2012 11 comments