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“The Best Years”

by apolkadottedowl 9/2/2015

written by apolkadottedowl

“College will be the best years of your life.” “You’ll have fun these are the best years of your life.”

Are the best years of your life supposed to be spent crying in your room because you miss home? You’re telling me the best years of your life are spent being lonely because no one will talk to you? Do you mean to tell me that the best years of your life are spent missing everyone you love? The best years of your life are meant to be spent hoping that someone will give you a chance? Should you worry that your best friend […]

9/2/2015 1 comment

Just Let Me Disappear

by apolkadottedowl 8/25/2015

written by apolkadottedowl

(written about 6 months ago)

I don’t want to exist anymore. It’s not that I would ever kill myself because I would NEVER. I just want to cease to exist. I hate the word suicide and term “commit suicide” because it’s a sin and I’m a sucker for pleasing others and I can’t inflict harm on myself. I’m too much of a baby. I also wouldn’t want to cause emotional damage to my family or friends. I absolutely hate to disappoint people. It’s my least favorite thing to do but sometimes I just wish I could throw everything out the window and just […]

8/25/2015 2 comments

Lost

by hopelessnessisfatal 8/15/2015

written by hopelessnessisfatal

I feel completely broken inside, like a part of me that should be there is missing. I’m constantly surrounded by a dark cloud that suffocates me. I feel like it should have killed me already. I’m surprised it hasn’t. It’s so hard to live with so much pain. My friends don’t understand – the few that I’ve told about it. They think that chocolate and hugs will make it all better. It won’t.

The truth is that I want to disappear. Except I can’t. The problem with having a perfect-on-paper life is that: a) people don’t believe that you could possibly have any problems, and b) […]

8/15/2015 1 comment

Disappear and forget

by hoshi 8/11/2015

written by hoshi

I guess I’ll write something, just to get it out. Suicide. I’m not sure I really desire suicide, I’m kind of just like this one person’s story I just read. Floating in between the lines of life and death. Not really wanting to die, but just wanting to disappear and have everyone forget about me. I’m kind of confused about myself.

Let’s see… about me. Their hasn’t really been any major incident in my life. I guess I was bullied by this one kid when I was young, but I’m kind of over it – just when I hear his name or see him I […]

8/11/2015 2 comments

What it is that I want…. Revisited

by ivygradhc 8/9/2015

written by ivygradhc

I posted my thoughts about this a few months ago and still come back to them…. It is not that I want to die, but it is that I just want to disappear from the world around me and from myself. I would no longer have too deal with the things that bother me, and in time, anyone who would miss me will get past it…. As for disappearing from myself, I just want to be in a permanent sleep state…..That would be wonderful…. I tend to visit good memories in my sleep and I hope that would be […]

8/9/2015 0 comment

Nothing Lasts Forever

by MentallyWeak 8/6/2015

written by MentallyWeak

People need to understand that an ounce of happiness that comes into your life, will disappear in a matter of seconds. Theres no such thing as happiness. You can’t live happily ever after. This world is so messed up that people will convince your mind into thinking that your pain will go away, even though later that person is the actual causer of your pain.

People in relationships think that they’ll last forever and get married and have kids. No. Relationships don’t last. So I don’t really understand why people would put themselves through that kind of pain when they know that it’ll end badly for […]

8/6/2015 2 comments

Secular, Holy And Sacred

by Bisban 7/26/2015

written by Bisban

Malediction defect

I would prefer

To dispose of myself

Makes me wonder

Did I choose, this fate

Highest binary

I hope that you comprehend

Like, the Goat, singing

Centripetal, catalyst

I’ll disappear in my shroud

Forsaken

7/26/2015 0 comment

somebody stole my car radio

by Jess 7/16/2015

written by Jess

somebody stole my car radio, and now I just sit in silence.

I can’t do this anymore. I’ve cut myself 3 times today, and I keep throwing up. i am a sack of shit, bleeding and spewing garbage.

i want to disappear. I can’t live without my sister.

7/16/2015 1 comment

Maybe it’s time.

by dailystruggle 7/7/2015

written by dailystruggle

After years of depression, suicidal thoughts and a failed attempt I think it’s finally time.

First attempt was drug OD. I remember doing tons of research and planning. Dressing up and feeling happy on that day. I’ve never felt more happy than that for a long long time. I was found and therefore still alive.

It was never a rash decision. Every night I go to sleep hoping I’ll never wake up again. Every morning is just another disappointment. Then I had to make a choice or staying alive or ending my life. And I regret my choice of staying alive every single day.

I can’t even explain […]

7/7/2015 8 comments

I just wanna disappear

by cysco17 5/31/2015

written by cysco17

I’m already invisible

5/31/2015 2 comments

sorry if you thought i was dead

by death bunny 5/31/2015

written by death bunny

It’s been some time since I last was here. Sometimes I just disappear for a while without telling anyone. Like a rabbit down in the rabbit hole. It’s comfortable, disappearing at once, for an unknown period of time. People don’t like me doing that, but sometimes I need that air I can only breathe underground, here and now.

5/31/2015 0 comment

Anymore

by Alonelyfool 5/25/2015

written by Alonelyfool

I wish I could hide out. Hibernate like a bear. Or fall down a hole and no one finds me. Like I wanna run away to Mexico where nobody knows me or my past. Then I could be whoever I wanted. Or if I could disappear. Or be a fly on the wall. [because they have short life spans] I just don’t wanna be me anymore. I don’t wanna be here anymore. I don’t wanna hurt anymore.

5/25/2015 1 comment

Everything crashing down

by persephone 5/18/2015

written by persephone

Everyone depends on me I do everything that I’m told with no questons and I get no appreciation, everyone and everything is leaning on me while I have nothing or no one to lean on… I just wanted to disappear from all of this negativity peacefully… But I don’t think I can muster up the courage to take my own life even though I think about doing it often…. I need a way OUT

5/18/2015 2 comments

I wish I wasn’t me.

by WhereIsTheSilverLining 4/8/2015

written by WhereIsTheSilverLining

Can i just disappear and start out fresh somewhere?

Can i have second chance at happiness?

4/8/2015 0 comment

Look for help, please

by comomequieranllamar 3/24/2015

written by comomequieranllamar

I guess that my mum’s depression and the suicide of his boyfriend made me learn a lot this past two years.
I know that everyone always say it, but you know it’s true: you need to look for help. Just tell someone what you are going through, call somebody when you have a crisis. They won’t make everything disappear, they won’t be there forever and they won’t probably fix anything, but having someone holding you in the worse moments does help a lot.

Depression tends to take us away from other people. We disappear of their lives and then we feel afraid or ashamed to call […]

3/24/2015 1 comment

Paradox

by AarinaDaae 2/14/2015

written by AarinaDaae

Paradox

I am a paradox,
I am neither happy
nor I am sad.

I smile at pretty things,
and laugh at funny things.

But late at night I become
a mess of emotions and thoughts
and I wish I could just disappear.

-I’m not sure of the author but I do not own the rights to this poem. I’ve never encountered something that spoke so truthfully to me.

2/14/2015 0 comment

I don’t feel

by somegirlhere123 2/1/2015

written by somegirlhere123

I’m not sure of anything. I don’t feel anything anymore. I really just want to disappear. I don’t want to die I just don’t want to live either. My life is just nothing and has no worth. Yet, I still don’t want to die completely. I don’t want it all to just go black but I also just don’t want this life to continue this way.

It’s hard to put into words how I feel so bear with me.

I feel nothing. I never feel anything anymore. When anything happens I feel numb. Numb to the pain, sadness, joy, and fun. I don’t know if I can […]

2/1/2015 3 comments

Watching.

by WhereIsTheSilverLining 1/23/2015

written by WhereIsTheSilverLining

It was one of those nights where I was hanging with a large group of friends.

Even though I say friends, i just felt like an outsider looking in, I didnt have much input to give on their conversations. I just wound up sitting there thinking if i wasnt here it would make no difference. The group consisted of my roommates and some more friends ( we were at my house).

One of the friends is debating living with us next year so they spent the night entertaining everyone with stories. Everyone was so happy and lively. When i’m around i have never have good news or […]

1/23/2015 0 comment

by breakeven 12/30/2014

written by breakeven

I don’t believe anything you say to me anymore. You lie so much. And I feel like I’m nothing to you. Day by day you push me away more and more and I wanna just disappear. You act like you’re better without me. Maybe you are. Maybe I iust need to leave.

12/30/2014 0 comment

Have you ever wanted to disappear?

by infinityonnhigh 12/20/2014

written by infinityonnhigh

I’ve been thinking a lot in how would things be if I die. It’s complicated. I don’t want people to suffer because I’m not here… is not anyone’s fault. But it’ll be awesome to know how many people care about you, even if it’s just for a moment. Wish I could take things better so I wouldn’t be thinking in suicide as the best option. Good luck everyone.

12/20/2014 3 comments

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