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Empty Void

One of the worst days ever…

by butterfly_free 5/10/2013

written by butterfly_free

i don’t even know what to write. i had a kind of crisis within myself today. i do’t really know what happened. i just fell. i felt nothing and then i felt sick and then i just .. i dont know. and the person i reached out to got very angry at me. and now wont answer my calls. and i keep thinking i cant feel worse,and then i do. this is worse than the despair, sadness, worse because it feels empty, void of feeling , even bad feelings. the only thing i feel is fear.

no, i do feel llike crying. i am not even […]

5/10/2013 6 comments

At the end

by sara23 1/30/2013

written by sara23

I’m 23 years old.

In two week I’m getting kicked out of college. I allowed my depression to take over my life to the point where I couldn’t get out of bed for class, I would sleep for days and not do my homework. Now, after months on probation, I’m actually getting kicked out.

I have no where to go. I can’t bear the thought of telling my family that I was so stupid I got kicked out.

My entire identity and life is tied up in going to school (for math). This is all I’ve ever envisioned in my life. I don’t know what else to do […]

1/30/2013 9 comments

Just kiddin’ Abraham

by Nolentwohundred 9/6/2012

written by Nolentwohundred

This entry is somewhat of a re-cap of things I’ve posted before, but I feel that I can’t say it enough. I hope those of you who read this understand that I’m not preaching or exaggerating. On the contrary, I suggest you do your own research and make decisions based on your own findings. I believe that society has failed this generation far more than this generation has failed society. I believe that this culture is probably beyond repair and has been for quite some time. I believe it started at the dawn of civilization when man invented religion. Society condemns itself without question. The […]

9/6/2012 14 comments

Lonely

by Jibbles 8/1/2012

written by Jibbles

I just wanted to say thank you for taking the time to read this post.

My whole life, I have felt two things: loneliness and the hatred towards myself.

Why do I hate myself?

I am not smart. I am not good looking. I am not talented in anything at all.

I really am useless.

I have classmates telling me, I can’t do anything right; leaving me out of the social life. No matter how hard I tried to fit in, I end up seeing pitch black of nothing, my existence shouldn’t exist in the first place.

I have read a numerous amount of quotes motivating me to never give up, […]

8/1/2012 3 comments

Tips to stop a binge?

by crimson regret 5/18/2012

written by crimson regret

I don’t know where this post will take me, but i just need to write to take my mind off walking to thesupermarket and buying a binge fest. I have already eaten 6 bars of chocolate, 3 packet of crisps (potato chips?) 1 tub of ben and jerry icecream… Been for a run, had an extremely hot shower and my empty void is still there.. Add to that the half block of cheese i just ate and the two cheese toasties that are cooking..

I am also going to my dads for tea, his fridge is stockpiled with binge worthy food…. Argh… Anyone got any tips […]

5/18/2012 9 comments

My Silent Scream…

by Shelly 4/7/2012

written by Shelly

Everything I touch I taint. Everything I do I botch. Everyone I know I hurt. Iâ€™m in pain almost all the time and because Iâ€™m in pain I feel a perverse need to inflict that pain on everyone else; my friends, my family and even my pets. Iâ€™m suffering and because of that suffering I have to make everyone I love, value and care for suffer as well. It isnâ€™t fair, it isnâ€™t right but I honestly canâ€™t help it I’ve become the sort of person I despise. I have interests that I take great pleasure in and which help to pass the time; collecting […]

4/7/2012 8 comments