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How do I fix my unpleasantness?

by que sera 3/20/2014

written by que sera

So for a while now I’ve noticed that I have an “unpleasant” energy. Some people would assume I’m weird or awkward, I feel like I repel people from me. When I was younger I use to believe it was people being intimidated by me.

I’ve been told that I’m an open book. No matter how hard I try to suppress these emotions and try to fake it I show no progress. I work in solitude, where I see people on a daily basis. A seedy looking man walked in and reeked of cologne. He had his top button loose and a greasy looking Elvis curl. I […]

3/20/2014 29 comments

Yeap…

by CrimsonDream 3/17/2014

written by CrimsonDream

She’s 13

and can already

tell you everything about

self destruction.

She can tell you how

to dress fresh cuts

in the dark with

makeshift bandages.

And which foods are easy

to throw up.

She knows a thousand

excuses,”I already ate”

“I’m just cold” , “the cat did it”

She learned to hold

all her feelings inside

until late at night

and cover her mouth

with her hand

so no one hears her.

She […]

3/17/2014 4 comments

Make It Go Away

by Miss Katelynn 3/16/2014

written by Miss Katelynn

I think we all have those things in our heads that just won’t leave. An example of this would be the saying “Nothing lasts forever”. Because of this, I am incapable of commitment. If someone tells me that they’re here for me, i still can’t trust them because they won’t be here for me forever. They will move on like everyone else. It’s the same with relationships. They end. So what’s the point. Itll just end in heartbreak so why the fuck would it matter.

I also can’t seem to shake the thought that everyone is capable of pretending. Pretending to be my friend. Pretending to […]

3/16/2014 1 comment

by LetItGo 2/15/2014

written by LetItGo

I’m alone again
I don’t know when this will end
I don’t know how long I can take it
I woke up today
My heart was beating so loud
Like it was taunting me
Saying that I should die
Saying that the sound of my heartbeat makes people cringe
I try to look on the bright side
But is there on anymore?
For the occasional sunset or sunrise there really isn’t a bright side
The person I fell for will never like me back
The people I give love will never truly love me back
The people I comfort will never really comfort me back

2/15/2014 0 comment

Done

by creeper tales 2/11/2014

written by creeper tales

i get high

i want to die

let me be

so i’ll be free

my life’s a rut

i always cut

i can’t escape it

so i fake it

the people won

now i’m done

2/11/2014 2 comments

what’s fake, what’s not

by sad_face7 2/11/2014

written by sad_face7

How do you know who are your true friends and who’s not?

2/11/2014 7 comments

Adjusting

by LetItGo 2/10/2014

written by LetItGo

Adjusting to the lights dimming
Adjusting to the hurt
Adjusting to the hopelessness
Adjusting to the lies
Adjusting to the late night cries
Adjusting to the mental pain
Adjusting to the terrible images
Adjusting to the temptation
Adjusting to the suicidal feelings
Adjusting to the suicidal thoughts

Adjusting to being alone again
Adjusting to being hurt again
Adjusting to being lied to again
Adjusting to being left again
Adjusting to being ignored again
Adjusting to being not cared for again
Adjusting to being something that doesn’t matter again
Adjusting to being a nobody
Adjusting to being just a fake
Adjusting to being nothing but a lie

Adjusting […]

2/10/2014 1 comment

fake smile

by sad_face7 2/4/2014

written by sad_face7

I started cutting myself when I was 11 years old, after my best friend die from cancer. My mom was everything to me, when she left I felt like there was no point in being happy when the person you love is gone now. With my mom I feel like im nothing with out her she was my everything. People ask how im doing all I have to do is put a FAKE SMILE on so that they dontsee right through me. WHAT IS LIFE ABOUT ANYMORE!!

2/4/2014 2 comments

by ferds 1/28/2014

written by ferds

It’s almost my birthday. I’m so depressed, I just think about dying.
Fake smiles, fake hugs. Nobody cares..

1/28/2014 5 comments

Cut

by Hesitate 12/3/2013

written by Hesitate

I don’t know what is wrong with me. I was doing well, I almost lost track of myself. For me, coming out of all that darkness was a miracle. I was on track, I felt like I had a direction, besides the anger and hurt and pain. I don’t know where else to write this, to speak it out loud, because this, my most recent and inevitable collapse, cannot be heard by anyone else. This is my only voice, the clack clack of my computer keys. I feel pathetic, spilling up the words here like bloody vomit, because I cannot be alone. I need to […]

12/3/2013 5 comments

Treachery

by Hesitate 11/26/2013

written by Hesitate

While there’s a lot of other things going on in my head right now, I have to get this out. In a way I wish this really was a letter to you. You nine sided whore. but then I would have to speak to you, to look at you, and I can’t stand to even think about you. Your lies, your games, your betrayal.

The worst part is I really never saw it coming. I loved you, and you were one of my closest friends. I have known you for so long, held you through so many disasters… I really thought I knew you… But all […]

11/26/2013 3 comments

No Clue

by Miss.Mayhem 11/20/2012

written by Miss.Mayhem

I guess I didn’t notice I loved you until you held my hand. I didn’t know you loved me until my friend told me what you said. But you don’t know me. You know me….but you really don’t. You think I’m perfect because that’s how I display myself. I make sure I smile and laugh. I make sure not to show any emotion I would regret latter. You just think you love me. You don’t, truth me. Once you find out, you’ll change your mind…they all do.

But if you want to know the truth, fine:

Yes, I do have scars I hide.

No, I’m not the girl […]

11/20/2012 0 comment

I Feel Like I’m Making This Up

by icantsay 8/26/2012

written by icantsay

I feel so confused… One minute I want to die, and the next I wish someone was here to tell me everything is going to be okay. I’m so unhappy with myself and I feel like such a failure. I know it’s all growing pains but I’ve felt so sad since I was in high school. I hate these hormones, or whatever is causing me to feel so sad. It’s a cycle. I can’t eat because I’m sad, and I feel sad because I don’t eat. I can’t make up my mind whether I want to live or die.

The boy I live with, whom I […]

8/26/2012 4 comments

I’m Fake.

by xXxWrAtHxXx 3/27/2012

written by xXxWrAtHxXx

I learned this recently. The story is very confusing. Are you ready?

This is who I thought I was: a severely schizophrenic German boy, who was severely abused as a child, alongside his twin sister. He has a boyfriend, who also has a twin. He is in Foster care.

Who I really am: a Canadian girl, less severely abused, with no twin, no boyfriend, and no Foster care.

What happened: I have multiple personalities. I suppose I’m transgender, because all the personalities are male. I am also schizophrenic, though not as badly as previously thought. The original personality, the female birthed 18 years ago next week, is gone. […]

3/27/2012 2 comments

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