I will try not to cry myself all the way to work.. But I know it’s useless to fight it
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You are strong and couragous
No matter what life throws at you
Always have courage and strength
You think that you don’t have a reason
to live
A purpose
Think again.
You say that you’re weak
not worthy
You are worthy
Have faith
Adversity may be at your door
Be ready to fight like hell.
Your life is a flower quickly fading here today gone tomorrow. If you need to talk add me on kik my username is AngelWarrrior16
I wish to terminate the continuance of a certain existence,
though it is obvious that the identity is of someone regarding myself,
I do not wish to expose the exact identity of the person[s] involved.
So I will simply yield this Inquisition:
Why not?
The hour grows short; hasten your responses
I am quiet because it pushes normal people away and attracts the ones who will understand. I cut because I like the way it feels. I am addicted to the pain. I don’t feel like myself if I can’t see a scar. I am emo. If you ask how I am I will say I’m fine, because you can’t understand. I used to be like you. I’m human, just a strange type. If I could only take off the mask you could see me. But the problem is, I don’t remember what I am without putting on a show. If I were to tell you […]
Why was I the sperm that won?
Maybe if it were not me they would be happy
Maybe then, they would care
Maybe then, they would be able to love each other
Maybe them I am the reason
Maybe im the reason my mum and dad fight
I am not what everyone expect
I am not there little angel
I am a devil indisguise
I am the reason you cry
I do not like rules
I do not like structure
I like being me
However, you do not see
You love to control
You want me to do well
You do not understand I want to be me
You love to know what I do
However, If I told you wouldn’t believe
You do […]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42MAk4_DBFc&index=44&list=PL_lfsNREdSwx5eGkEOsFse8sWdjwSUi-K
As the shadows assume
shapes
I fight the slow
retreat now
my once – very promise
dwindling
alas, it is dwindling
now
lighting new cigarettes
pouring more
drinks
it has been a beautiful
fight
and still
is.
Sorry for the double post; something got mixed up.
Its been a while. Well not as long as for some people.I have heard stories of some people who have been tacking depression for 10 years, 15 years and I used to think to myself that there was no way I had the strength for that shit. Here I am , about 6 months into severe depression and it looks like this aint gonna go on for too long. Â I even started reading depressing books. People would say that this is the worst time for it. But honestly, reading books about good people being screwed over makes me feel like I have company. Like Im […]
cut lip, swollen jaw and eye. dysfunctional families can be fun too
Lost all hope, lost all light.
Tired of living, lets end this fight.
I gather myself for my last stride,
I have no regrets, my sweet suicide.
Moby – The Sky Is Broken (Markus One Strings Works Remix)
The song is preparing me for the incoming advent with one rule; rather burn out than fade away so it’s full throttle or nothing.
Love for life is gradually fading and the sunsets are getting lesser. As far as I’m concerned – I’m almost done. Can’t fight the endless war of growing pain. I just might get lucky and get a heart attack; death is coming soon for me nevertheless – just pray the God that my demise will be painless. I fear of no death, but the pain.
Maybe this suicide mania of my mine wasn’t […]
Alakazam. Is my favorite pokemon.
the highest mind. the closest to the heart.
a jewel. a diamond. a vision. a suffer.
the fight. versus the world.
the countdown to nevermore, has begun.
I have no more weed. today, alpha. take me to the next stage.
flower evolution. we all seek the same do not forsake.
I seek nature in order to heal my blood.
I am the ‘thing’, a swamp monster.
Alakazam was by my side, thank you.
The time when I was out at sea.
I think I saw the obtruding shell of a Lapras once.
And it’s vast size shadow. It was quite scary.
Lapras is a creature of peace.
Tripping out on Gyrados.
Statement: Over. The […]
I can’t take it anymore. I am breaking into pieces , I’m just tired of life , that’s all!! 🙁
I’m sick of all the shit. I can’t fight the Demons inside me , I just wanna drag the blade on my skin 🙁 !!!!! 🙁
One day I woke up, and things just weren’t quite right.
I hid from the windows and their bright shining light.
In darkness I sat there, refusing to bite,
On the food set before me, a former delight.
All senses seemed muted, though they left with a fight.
My thoughts they weighed heavy, on my mind into night.
Nightmares and dreams snares, woke me with a fright.
Went searching for meaning, but was nowhere in sight.
Nothing is sacred, this just can’t be life.
Use the ledge at the ball park, one day I […]
Ever since I was a little kid maybe just 5 years old I was always extremely depressed. When all other kids were thinking about growing up, getting a job married etc. the only thing I would think about all day every day is “I can’t wait till I die” I always would tell myself that I won’t live to 18 then I said I won’t live to 21. As a kid my dad was very abusive towards me my mom and my siblings. I have a neurological disorder that makes me grown little bumps on my body. It causes me to walk slightly slanted forward […]
Idk why but I wanna fight ppl not so ill win but so they’ll win
Recruit.
The first album. The man to his death.
Abyssal, abyssal. I am the only one counting the number.
There is no number, here in this singularity.
Today, burnt away again. Army of Seraphim. I need to die. Take me.
The new age begins with the walking, death, and the white horse.
The ancient text, the journey to the holy pilgrimage. Death…. is a number.
I am an obliterated splattered rot. Transmogrification of hell.
Build me an iron mask. The warrior, to the fight of the story of the living hell.
We gonna be heading, to the Squatch. Did you hear about the Star-Child skull yet?
Next month it will be a year that she left my side. She didn’t give me life, but filled me with life. If Nate would have just let me be i would be with her.
Loss is such a painful part of life. I still don’t understand why the people i need in my life are taken from me in such horrid ways. My daughter would be getting her license this year. I can’t believe i only had eight days with her, but i wouldn’t change those days for anything in the world.
I suppose i am lucky that i have turned all my pain into a […]
there was this huge fight over facebook about 7 months ago between a lot of people and me, and i was getting told to go kill myself and today i just went back and looked at the fight and started crying. I hate how people can be so mean to me. its like, what have i ever done to you?
anyway, im not really posting because my laptop crapped out and its not working so im using my dads until i get a new one.
i might not go back on this site anymore because i dont really now what to do with it. I’ll end up […]
I give up. I can’t fight my ex anymore. I really like my job, and the people I work with aren’t jerks or anything. But I just can’t anymore. I think I’m going to give my two weeks notice and then use the two weeks to finalize my plans. Its time to leave
In spite of the upward trend in my life over the last couple of months, tonight I am just feeling so alone and deeply sad….both indications of a depressive episode. All indications are that my life will continue to trend upward. But Sam Harris’ rendition of the Bonnie Raitt classic I Can’t Make You Love Me is just speaking for me. I love the phrasing, his obvious pain and the fact that he didn’t over sing it….none of those ridiculous runs that prevent you from hearing the raw ache of the melody. I was able to sing like this until heart failure and other complications robbed me of my […]