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Just Some Things

by Black_Heart2001 9/9/2015

written by Black_Heart2001

I ran across these two posts today, and I thought that they were really moving.

Even when I wanted to die, to kill myself
To rip each cell of my being apart, not once,
Not ever, did I miss a piece of homework.

Or fail a test or skip an hour-long lesson.
Sure, I skipped three meals a day but at least
I had my priorities straight.

I see these kids walking in front of me to school.
I see them, and they are zombies.
Blank faces, I doubt they’ve slept,
Probably up all night doing that essay
They forgot to do because their parents
Asked them to […]

9/9/2015 2 comments

death

by melodychild 9/7/2015

written by melodychild

death,

it calls to me

I want to answer

but I am afraid

i know answering will be so much easier

than letting it ring

hearing that call

day

after

day

but people say not to answer

say to let death find you

instead of looking for it

9/7/2015 0 comment

‘i,i wanna go, i just have to, i…i…i gotta rushaway’, she said…i remind her melodrama is only good with soap, and then only to a specific subsection of the public, and then only during the daytime….anyways…. this change that’s been feeling me, it dosent the pain fade, there are only big differences these days, but yet,we only have the same ways to walk away at our disposal=duritz

by cathy arsis 9/5/2015

written by cathy arsis

caveats, inherent to their nature and purpose, usu come after, being creatures that covet comfort, but fuck strunk and white (writers know who the fuck these O-muthafuckin-Gs are) but CAVETE*** if I were asked, what are you rebelling against, my bone marrow would diffuse the clichéd and ironic answer,….;”what the fuck you got?’ thru evry poor, every vessel; my body w2ould find itself inclined, not a single fiber exempt, interstitial fluid would provide the bass line….society no longer bothers me, and there is something intrinsicly wrong with that…but i digress….***cavete; the longer thiese linesz proliferate out into the void of the dead that walk among […]

9/5/2015 0 comment

We’ve (I’ve) Got Issues

by kathunt15 9/5/2015

written by kathunt15

Everyday now you hear stories of people who are so upset, depressed tortured, bullied, and how they in their lives so shortly and swiftly and how everyone around them is so effected by their choice and how cruel and selfish they were to take their lives as they did. Honestly, I can’t help but feel like they are the lucky ones. They’re the ones who’ve realized what to do how to help themselves they know their way out. People have always said that suicide is a sin. I want to make it very clear that suicide is not a sin. God would not so harshly […]

9/5/2015 0 comment

;;;

by mranony 9/3/2015

written by mranony

What is happiness?

Is it the money you have? Is it the food you eat? Is it the movies you watch? Is it the books you read? Is it the friends and family you have? Or is it the fire in your heart?

If it’s the fire, where can I find it? Can someone please tell me how to find it?

I don’t know where my little fire go. Is it lost? Or is it that I never truly had it.

9/3/2015 19 comments

Scattered brains

by HereticBlood 9/1/2015

written by HereticBlood

My mind is spinning per usual… This time it feels like it may blow… If anyone’s up and willing to talk find me on KIK at darkestraven1218

9/1/2015 1 comment

Introductions

by PyroFalkon 8/31/2015

written by PyroFalkon

I’ve lurked here for a few months now, rather accidentally discovering the site when I was dealing with a flare up of my own depression-like symptoms. In my time here, I’ve seen how incredibly caring and non-judgmental the regular community is on this site. I want to be a part of it.

Hello. I am PyroFalkon.

Here’s the thing with that username: five seconds of Googling will turn up my real name. Another five seconds will turn up my history. In those ten seconds, I’ve gone from an anonymous writer to a flesh-and-blood person with a real voice, real stories, real problems, and real accomplishments. I say […]

8/31/2015 3 comments

To my last resort

by catty 8/24/2015

written by catty

I’ve always had a theory. Our lives comprises of mainly two distinct aspects, “professional” and “personal” and we’ll need either of the two to at least find a reason to survive. Well, I got none at this point. I’m neither a person with an an amazing career worthy of mention or a perfectly polished personality nor am I a happy unicorn with a handful of moments to remember when I die. I feel I’m the poorest among billions of souls in this world right now.I’m scattered in pieces searching for my identity and I feel I’m doing some kind of favor to the world by […]

8/24/2015 4 comments

Sadness on the way to…

by YuTasogare 8/23/2015

written by YuTasogare

Well, I’m here and I will keep moving forward, yesterday I left my dad’s house, I plan on living with my mom from now on, don’t know for how long and don’t wanna think about it right now, my dad is kinda down, he suffers from “depression” (I think it’s like that, don’t know how to say it in English) so yeah… my departure made him feel very bad, and I keep blamming me for this, being responsible for someone’s sadness like that, that’s very heavy! I feel so… sellfish. I always cared for the others first but they can’t see or feel it and […]

8/23/2015 77 comments

When Depression Can’t Be Cured

by amar 8/23/2015

written by amar

I grew up with a father who has never been happy, has always been depressed and we as kids were always trying to find out ways to make him happy. Nothing ever did. And that hurt us as kids not knowing that it was not us making him unhappy, that that was just her state of being and there was nothing that we could do to bring him out of that funk. Eventually I know that is what killed him, you can’t live and thrive with that kind of sadness and depression in your life all of the time. There is no one who could […]

8/23/2015 1 comment

My last night

by rubdoo50 8/22/2015

written by rubdoo50

Hi guys,

so it’s decided tonight is my last night. Tomorrow evening I am staying in a motel room & am going to hang myself there (so my family don’t have to find my body). I really wanted a more painless method than hanging but after researching and researching it on CO poisoning or the helium exit bag these options are too logistically difficult for me. I feel quite happy right now knowing that it’ll soon be over, but will no doubt be extremely nervous tinorrow. I also feel extremely guilt ridden knowing this is really going to hurt the ones I love. I try to […]

8/22/2015 22 comments

Quick question.

by Sui_RC 8/22/2015

written by Sui_RC

Does anyone know what happens after death?
Like, i know its nearly impossible to find out and is a pretty stupid question.
I wanted to know your views. And any “spiritual” experiences yall might have had.

8/22/2015 4 comments

Time is a circle

by The Mad Hatter 8/20/2015

written by The Mad Hatter

Well, here i am, back again after a year or so. I left just after the lonelyplatypus incident, anyone find out if she was OK? Nice to see some of you still alive here, and I hope those that aren’t are in a happier place. To everyone else, hello, and it’s a pleasure to make your acquaintances.

8/20/2015 2 comments

Help i need advice!!!

by runfree 8/18/2015

written by runfree

Hello, people reading this i have a huge problem and i need your advice. I am 17 years old and i have tried to commit suicide more then 5 times. Everytime something in my life goes wrong aall i think about is how to kill myself , but this time i might really do it. So i will be entering the 12th grade this year and there is a HUMONGOUS amount of pressure on me to go study abroud and get into a Great University, but the thing is i TOTALLY FAILED my international AS level examinations and those grades are really important to get […]

8/18/2015 10 comments

Killswitchon

by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden 8/17/2015

written by thegirlwiththecinderblockgarden

Just wondering whether anyone knows where killswitchon is? It’s just that he hasn’t posted in a while, and I can’t find any of his old posts. I just miss his presence here, his videos gave me a bit of hope. And I just wanted to make sure that he’s okay.

8/17/2015 9 comments

by Imhere4U 8/17/2015

written by Imhere4U

All who are thinking about suicide as an answer…. before you have your attempt at it please do yourself a favor and get the book “The Reason” by Lacey Sturm. It may help you find perspective.

8/17/2015 3 comments

To Sui_RC and people who feel useless.

by BrokenDreams 8/17/2015

written by BrokenDreams

I was about to answer Sui_RC but I felt like making it a post instead because I felt that it could maybe help other people here.

Hi, from what I just read from your older post you are telling us that you feel useless. I understand that, you feel like the world would be the same without you. But I also saw that there is time where you laugh, I’m not going to tell you such a thing as ‘’live for the happy moment’’ that would be disrespectful of your wish but let me tell you something: if you can smile with others that mean you […]

8/17/2015 2 comments

There is a continue.

by BrokenDreams 8/17/2015

written by BrokenDreams

Life always have a continue, sometimes you will think you are in front of a game over screen,

But you need to find the strength to put a coin in this machine.

Sometimes the coin will be in your pocket,

Sometime you will need to borrow it from your friends.

Sometimes you will be alone and feel like there is no more continue,

It may be hard but those times you will need to craft it yourself,
But you need to craft even if it’s hard because maybe this ”game” have a beautiful ending.

It may be a silly cheering but I’m with you guys!

8/17/2015 2 comments

Life

by Harlot.Rebel 8/16/2015

written by Harlot.Rebel

Life for me it just a reset. Nothing is What it seems happiness is a temporary lie so why indulge.?? Because you want it so bad.. But once you get a taste its taken away from you and your left more broken than before. You just find ways to cope with life until it kills you or you end the suffering and do it yourself

8/16/2015 3 comments

Suicide Note

by hannahmarie2 8/11/2015

written by hannahmarie2

My name is Hannah, I’m 22 and I plan on ending my life. It may not be today, tomorrow, a week from now or this month, but it will happen. I already have it planned out. I know exactly how I’m going to go. I’ve written a will and what and who I want at my funeral, not that it matters since I wont be alive to witness it. I’ve done my research if I will go to heaven or not and I got the answers I need.

I have everything going for me, why would I do such a thing to my loved one? I […]

8/11/2015 3 comments

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