I’m done..
Is it rape?
Is is sexal abuse?
– I don’t know
Why?
Why dad?
Why you did this dad?
…yesternight
…tonight
You said you love me.
is that love?
You said I’m your angel.
just because I’m your angel?
You said “sorry”
sorry for what?
for the last five years?
that you ruin my life?
that it hurts so much every time?
that I don’t have a father?
Sorry for what?
It’s time for a rant!
Sometimes I just need to get things out of my system, otherwise they stay there like bologna someone has left on the counter for ten days. Nobody wants it there but everybody’s afraid to touch it now because it’s green and crawling.
So, here are today’s things that irritate the crap out of me.
Coupons I don’t find until the day after they’ve expired.
(“Nooooo… one day… late… Must save… twenty-five cents….”)
Loud rambunctious people in public, including kids who shout every sentence while their parents don’t take the time to teach them appropriate volume. Meanwhile the kids just shout louder.
Me: “Wouldn’t it […]
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