so im sick of this…. my drunk 15 year old sister is now bullying me to. she was my last true friend….. imma take all my sleeping pills tonight and all the pain pills i can find. i am srry i cant go one in this pain. imma just end it. i love you world i just wish u loved me back…. 
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Good Bye
i want to cut severely deep.
i want to hit myself with the hardest things, as hard as i can.
i want to drown in my tub with heavy rocks holding me down.
i want to never speak again.
i want to take all the pills i can find.
i want to purge until my throat is raw.
i want to never eat again.
i want to say good bye and mean it.
i want my body to fail me.
i want the blood to keep pouring.
i want the darkness to eat me alive.
pulling me further and further down.
i will be no more.
nothing.
gone.
if only […]
dont be fooled by the title , i havent cut for two days now that may not seem like a lot to you but it is to me , so i have decided to take a break from this website , i want to forget my past of self harm and i cant do that when i have this page i hope you understand , i am thankful for the people on this website who have helped me to realise that u dont have to be perfect for people to love you , im not fully convinced though 🙂
another reason i wont be using my […]
So I am about to turn 30 in about a month. Looking back at the past 17 years of my life (of which, parts of 12 years spent on struggling with depression/suicidal thoughts), it has been a roller-coaster ride. Here are some highlights. I don’t expect you to be interested in my life story, but if you have time, read on!
17 years ago, I migrated to Texas, and started in an ultra conservative high school. Language barrier was one, but being bullied non stop for not speaking English well was another. It was even worse being bullied for trying to learn English. My response was […]
I know I’m new here. I’ve had these thoughts in my head for years, but no one understands me. My meds are off. I’m trying new ones, but they aren’t working fast enough.  Every med I’ve tried either doesn’t work or has side effects that are worse than the damn depression. Therapists have never worked. I’ve never found one that I liked or trusted. I’m afraid that the first one I talked to honestly would dump me in a looney bin or have me forcibly committed. So I can’t open up to them. Basically, everything in my relationship is my fault. Everything. When I try […]
Finally the physical is matching the way I feel within. My car broke down shortly after a spinal injury followed by my computer breaking down so its hard to even be here. I’m dying whether by my own hand or just my will. It’s coming I can feel it deep in my bones its time to go all I have to do now is sleep and let the death take me. Good bye to all who loved me to all whom I love. Everything dies its just my time now. I’m dieing farewell.
this is my story its kinda long but hear it goes will I’m 19 my life isn’t hard. but I’ve been bulled ever since i can remember just because I’m dyslexic doesn’t mean I’m stupid. i can control this i was born like this i know i spell things wrong you don’t have to point it out to every one in the class. also the teachers make it feel like its my fault if i don’t come to them and ask them to spell check every thinks. I’m so sick of asking for help i want to just do it on my own for once […]
I swear I’m a danger to other people. Everyone that means something to me, that I truly love with all my heart, gets hurt because of me. I don’t intentionally hurt anyone. I’m not that kind of person. But something bad always seems to happen to people that try to help me. It occurred numerous times in the past. And it just keeps coming.
This past week has been terrible. I wanna keep going; I just don’t know how anymore. I don’t want to invite anyone else into my life. I can’t take it anymore. I’m beyond saving at this point there is no use in […]
well i triedf my best to make my life work but i fell short…i guess it i true whay they say….it doesn’t matter where u go u will alsways be misable because u take yourself with u. So i’m done. good bye.
I’ve had it for a long time. I’m tired of feeling this way everyday, Im tired of being the fuck up that I am and Im tired of wondering when all of this will end. I won’t and I can’t do this any longer! This will be my last week and then it’s time for me to go. I have no idea what the other side holds for me but the thought of staying here is unbearable. My 16th birthday is less than a month away, but I can’t go that long…I just can’t! Im going to spend my last couple of days creating good […]
i am going crazy [not realy] my mom wont calm down, hunter my boyfriend started to hit me, im getting bullied by my 19 year old step bro, and 23 year old step sis, handling being adopted,knowing ill never meet my real parents, and failing on-line school,i wish i were dead, im working on doing that, but before i do i have to say good bye to some on-line friends and visit my parents grave,then write a suiside note, then kill myself it will be awile,though [maybe]
1. read twilight series. 2.buy a giant knife. 3.kill my self. 4.good bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!