I swear I’m a danger to other people. Everyone that means something to me, that I truly love with all my heart, gets hurt because of me. I don’t intentionally hurt anyone. I’m not that kind of person. But something bad always seems to happen to people that try to help me. It occurred numerous times in the past. And it just keeps coming.
This past week has been terrible. I wanna keep going; I just don’t know how anymore. I don’t want to invite anyone else into my life. I can’t take it anymore. I’m beyond saving at this point there is no use in breaking other people by letting them in. I can’t take another person leaving especially when it is all my fault. It really is all my fault and I can’t figure out how to change it. I don’t deserve to be loved………… And I wonder if I even deserve to live.
The best way to solve a problem is to just take away the cause of it. So I guess this is good bye for now. I’m not going ot be on SP any longer. Alot of you are truely really great genuine people. I hope you don’t give up like I am right now. I hope you all turn your lives around and find the happiness you are looking for.  I wish I could fix everything but there is no answer to the question I’ve been asking since day one. There is no reason why. I’m tired of trying to fix things. I’m tired of convinvcing myself people are out there that can help me. All I’m doing is letting others in on my pain. No one deserves to take on someone elses pain.
So my last goodbye’s to everyone.
Kris, you are absolutely amazing. I love you with everything I have. U’ve helped me soo much and I’m sorry I’m giving up on you. Stay strong big brother and for the love of God go to bed and wake up at a normal time for once 🙂
Zoe, You are an amazing person. So sweet and caring. I’m glad i could witness someone like you in the world. Even if it was just once. <3
Jux, U r formally invited to share in the love 24/7!
Kali, I don’t even know what to say about you. I just love that I got to meet you.
Forever, Don’t  become a stripper it’s not worth it 😉
Orangish, lol u always made me laugh 🙂
Maria! I’m sorry I’m leaving you best friend but i’ll always remember you. Sorry we never got around to our ***** session. 🙂
To anyone else I seem to have forgotten you’re all amazing. Best of luck. Maybe one day I’ll be healed and I’ll be lucky enough to meet you all again.
~ Ash </3
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5 comments
well uhm yea, no absouletly not, this most certainly isn’t allowed, get back here right now and talk Ashes
Biffle!
Wtf.
I vote no.
Hey,
Generally, when we are hurting and unhappy, we offten come off as irritated and upset. Why this is, is because we are hurting inside.
I know how you feel and I know it is hard to keep pushing when you feel everything is your fault.
Stay strong, and if you ever want to talk, email me.
It’s brl.cents@gmail.com
Don’t leave SP,Ash! You’re so nice.<3 I still hope I'll see you around here.
Don’t leave SP,Ash! You’re so nice.<3 I still hope I'll see you around here.