what is it with parents/ loved ones and guilt trips..
they always cut me so deep..
I feel like such a piece of shit afterwards..
I realize I screwed up, but..
after one guilt trip, especially from my mother..
I just want to disappear forever..
death.. is fine, don’t care..
then I get angry.. but that gets me nowhere..
guilt trips, so cheap and piercing..
simple words that destroy my day..
suicidal thoughts flood my soul..
and the fight in my mind continues once more..
and so, in the end, the person who so adamantly doesn’t want me to kill myself..
is the very same […]